MiNg GuI de BloG~

2007-11-07T22:54:00.000-08:00

徐若瑄 - 决定爱你

作词:徐若瑄
作曲:大冢雄三

爱你不需要原因只要有一颗真心
分隔两地也可以传给你
爱你不会有距离只要你在我心里
随时随地我也可以感觉得到你

小时候常常担心一个问题
男人结婚之后到底会不会外遇
我的爸爸妈妈在我小学三年级
他们离婚了其实我非常的伤心

长大后觉得没什么了不起
爱情并不是生活里全部的事情
只要此时此刻我们爱得很用心
就足够我一辈子去回忆

爱你不需要原因只要有一颗真心
分隔两地也可以传给你
爱你不会有距离只要你在我心里
随时随地我也可以感觉得到你

有时候我也会碰到不如意
宁愿哈哈大笑也不要哭哭啼啼
付出去的感情就算都没有回应
可以碰到你已经觉得非常幸运

是否做错了也没什么关系
换个发型或是唱唱歌发泄情绪
不要浪费时间一直躲在后悔里
要找回那颗不认输的心

决定要做的事情不要轻易受打击
今天不行还有明天可以
决定要谈的爱情不要随便就放弃
幸福全部要靠自己努力去争取

有天我一定会等到生命里那位英雄
有天我一定会找到被我的爱感动的人

喜欢赖在你身旁看你说话的模样
就算我们不能地久天长
喜欢为了你而忙看你开心的模样
就算没有我想要的答案

very meaningful lyrics.
read it. =)

2007-10-20T11:45:00.000-07:00

shuang shuang shuang! xD

yesterday i went back to school.
and yuanlin told me that the accuracy for the o lvl chem prac titration is 24.8!
she asked mr goh le.

and my reading is 24.8!
exactly the same!

shuang shuang shuang!
the four marks accuracy mark is mine le! xD

2007-10-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

**everything below is written last week**
(to save time. xD)

finally.
i've graduated from Orchid Park Secondary School. =)

chung ming gui is officially an EX-student of orchid park sec sch.
*shuang shuang shuang! xD*

time flies.
it's like only yesterday when i first stepped into the school.
the school looks big to me at that time.
real big.
went to look at the notice board to find out which class i'm in.

1A2.

a guy took me to 1A2 classroom.
i was kind of late that time.
glanced through the whole class and i saw different kinds of uniform.
sat at the corner nearest to the front door.
everybody brought their report books except for me and another girl.
(if i'm not wrong shld be kaixin)
i went there empty-handed.
hahas.
filled up some forms and went down to the canteen to buy those necessary stuffs.

flashbacks...

SECONDARY ONE
first friend(s): marcus, adeline.
first close friend: samantha.

form teachers: Mrs Charissa Tan, Mr Lim Yu Sim, Mr Darrin Tan, Mr Sim Yong Seng..
[form teachers kept changing]
English: Mrs Zahri
Chinese: Ms Oh Hui Min
Maths: Mr Gan, Mr Darrin Tan, Mr Sim
Science: Ms Carol Wong
Geography: Mr Yeo, Ms Fung, Mrs Tan
History: Mrs Sasi
Literature: Mrs Lim, Ms Teoh
Home Econs: Mrs Charissa Tan
D&T: Mr Matthew Tan
Project Work: Mrs Fanny Loke
Art: Ms Teoh
PE: Mr Sim

Best Subject: Design and Technology
Worst Subject: Geography
Fav. Subject: Home Economics

SECONDARY TWO
close friend: cynthia.

Form Teacher: Ms Pamela Soh
English: Ms Pamela Soh
Chinese: Mdm Yang
Maths: Ms Stella Yu
Science: Mr Daniel Chua
Geography: Ms Lo Weng Han
History: Ms Loo, Ms Kathy Xu
Literature: Ms Faralina
D&T: Mr Lim KT
Art: Ms Pamela Soh
PE: Mr Goh Chin Seng

Best Subject: Design and Technology
Worst Subject: English, Literature
Fav. Subject: Maths

SECONDARY THREE
first new friend(s): xuanwen, siyuan, derek, yongsiang
close friend: -NIL-

Form Teacher: Ms Pamela Soh
English: Ms Pamela Soh
Chinese: Mdm Lim
E.Maths: Mr Goh Chin Seng, Mdm Siew, Mr Liu
A.Maths: Mr Goh Chin Seng
Physics: Mr Tang
Chemistry: Mr Ramesh, Mrs Zainab, Ms Liu
Elec. Geog: Ms Lo Weng Han
Social Studies: Ms Mary
PE: Mr Paul Tan, Mr Ramesh, etc

Best Subject: E.Maths, A.Maths
Worst Subject: Combined Humans
Fav. Subject: -NIL-

SECONDARY FOUR
close friend: -NIL-

Form Teacher: Ms Lee Geok Yong
English: Ms Lee Geok yong
Chinese: Mdm Lim
E.Maths: Mr Goh Chin Seng
A.Maths: Mr Goh Chin Seng
Physics: Mr Tang
Chemistry: Mr Ramesh
Elec. Geog: Ms Lo Weng Han
Social Studies: Mr Dinesh Nair
PE: countless

Best Subject: E.Maths
Worst Subject: English
Fav. Subject: -NIL-

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Life in Secondary One

*to save time, i shall write in point form. =)

-i love my class. becos everybody is noisy. =D
-i'm always looking forward to recess time becos of smth.
-i took friends for granted.
-my academic results were bad.
-i nv fails to fail every single geog paper.
-i love home econs theory.
-i hate practicals (Home econs, D&T, Science).
-not bothered by results at all.
-nothing but playing all the time. =)
-i disliked mrs loke becos i nearly kenna SIP from her.
-i realised the importance of group work.
-mrs sasi scolded me so badly that my heart was broken into pieces. ='(
(there's some misunderstandings. afterall, she doesn't trust me. haiz.)
-mr darrin tan shouted at me. (it's the first time and also the last time)
-did some self-reflections on my attitude.
-he shouted vulgarities at my friend(s). game over.

Life In Secondary Two

-happiest year ever.
-best year ever.
-new classmates (wang ni, cynthia)
-stayed back after sch almost everyday just to do some silly things.
-started to be emo at the end of the year.
-academic results shot up suddenly and surprisingly.
-but still, not really bothered by the results. hahas.
-first time i cried in class after receiving my maths EOY paper.
(the most stupid thing i can ever do. zzzz.)
-first time i work so hard for a subject just becos i wanted to take geog in sec 3. lol.
-gotten sore eyes and missed lessons for almost a week.
-first time being absent for examination.
-nearly did something that i will regret for my entire life.
(luckily i made the right choice in the end)
-cried on graduation day.
-got into the class i've chosen.
-so near yet so far. i missed it.

Life In Secondary Three

-worst year ever.
-full of stress.
-did something i regretted doing at the starting of the year.
(which causes me misery for the next few months)
-i remember 3s2 was a super duper quiet class at the starting of the year.
(and i dun like the quietness at all)
-but we became very noisy after that. (and i wonder why. hahas.)
-academics drop a lot.
-first time there's an F9 shown inside my report book.
-fringe kenna cut by ms soo.
-hair/fingernails/colour of rubber band caught by ms kaur.
(ppl say once bitten twice shy. but i guess i didn't learn at all. xD)
-mr goh ask me go become councillor.. for 'my own good'.
(so i 笨笨 go become councillor. hahas.)
-my sec 3 life was just a ~~total~~ disaster for me.

P.S. the only thing i love about my sec 3 life is the CAMP!
yupps yupps. the fabulous sec 3 camp. =DD

Life In Secondary Four

-people said that the best year of sec sch life is usually sec 4's life.
but too bad. my sec 4's life is not that great. i still love sec 2. =)
-kind of relax at the starting of the year.
-went for the last choir practice.

**i dun wish to continue from here anymore.**

everything below will be written today (17/10/07)

The Practicals

[Physics Practical]
there's only one word i can describe it.
disaster.
wells. i try not to think about it.
but i need to accept the fact that it was badly done.
very badly done.
mistakes everywhere.
and who can i blame?
myself.
for not paying attention to what mr tang was telling us before the practical.
i can only put the blame on myself.
but i'm glad that i make an effort to do the 4 marks experiment thingy.
i'm happy with what i wrote for that.
at least i write things that are sensible. not like during prelims.
i wrote craps.
in the end got like only half mark for the 4/5 marks question. =x

[Chemistry Practical]
i remember i was very nervous before the practical.
cos chem prac is you know means you know.
you dunnoe means you die.
physics just follow instructions can le.
but chem you need to study. hahas.
i rmb i was arguing with mr goh chye joo before the practical..
just over a packet of tissue paper.
hahas. but at least it made me feel better and not so nervous. =)
while i was doing the titration till halfway..
when i was washing the conical flask,
i tell myself "i love chem practicals!"
i really love it man. fun fun fun. =D
but somehow, i got distracted by jianzhong and ravi.
one beside me one behind me.
they kept asking questions and i can't help but keep laughing.
hahas.
QA was well done for me. i'm really happy with my results. =)
titration, hmmms. i have a bad feeling that i will get zero for my accuracy.
cos i record the volume down when i see yellow colour.
not orange. haha!
nevertheless, chem prac rocks! =)
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hmms.
today is graduation day.
hahas.
nothing much.
the ceremony not as touching as i thought.
hahas.
but the feeling of walking past everybody makes me feel so SHUANG!
imagine there's ppl forming a path for you to walk..
wherever you go, there will be ppl cheering and waving at you.
damn SHUANG!
after finish walking the 'path' made for the graduates.
i keep telling kaixin "the feeling damn shuang right?"
it rocks man!
hahas.
but i'm not as crazy as chen min..
after walking the path then scream like siao.
hahas.

after that is WRITING/SCRIBBLING TIME!
write and write and write.
scribble and scribble and scribble.
plus take photo take photo take photo.

i saw something that makes me feel so uneasy.
it makes me feel so weird.
it makes me feel so stress.
it makes me feel so tired.
the feeling is definitely no good.
it sets me thinking.
"what is this?"
my mood went so so down after that...

alamak. didn't manage to let mr goh and mr ramesh write on my graduation book.
hahas.
okay.
maybe i should say some things about some teachers.

Ms Lee Geok Yong - Yay!! Ms Lee is a good teacher! Diyao should know why i like Ms Lee so much. xD hahas. Ms Lee is good at teaching and she really has a good sense of humour. Love her jokes. =) I guess i will miss her the most after leaving OPSS. She's GREAT lah! hahas. today she told me a SECRET. but i think others heard it. o.O Frankly speaking, i didn't know what she is trying to tell me initially. But after some thoughts, i guess i know what she's trying to say. =) MS LEE, YOU'RE SUCH A GOOD TEACHER! i can't stop smiling after you told me that. I guess you are really good to ~~your students~~ ME. xD Thank you so much. yay! Ms Lee ROCKS! =DD

Mr Goh Chin Seng - I won't forget you are the one who asked me to join the student council. hahas. And i've 'worked' for you without complaints for almost 2 years. But i know you always tried to make the job easier for me. Thanks. =) Although u always like to hao lian how GOOD LOOKING and how SMART you are. But i know you just want to make the whole class laugh. This really works. Thanks so much. =DD Sorry for always complaining the amount of work you gave us. I know you're kind of frustrated and angry with me sometimes, but you nv show it. I'm sorry! Although sometimes you're stuck in some maths questions, but i still feel that you did your part as a teacher. CHEERS! =))

Mr Ramesh - I remember when you first walked into the class. I keep telling myself "waa! SUAY AH! mr ramesh my chem teacher arh? SUAY!" You're always the fierce fierce teacher in my eyes. But after some weeks, i feel that you really have a good sense of humour. And i know you're working real hard as this is the first time you teach pure chem (if i'm not wrong). The first time i realise that you're working very hard is when chen min told me abt tt. I totally agree with her. You make notes and ask us to print it out. You make sure that every single one knows our work well. And some other things you do which makes me feel that you're the most hardowrking teacher in OPSS. =)

Mr Dinesh Nair - Mr Nair is a real popular teacher in OPSS. I hope he will stay in OPSS forever. =) haha! i still remember the expression on his face in the graduation video. yay! Mr Nair rocks too! and FINALLY, he knows my name! =D But he keep hao lian-ing that he knows my name. hahas. Example, he will keep calling me for nothing in class AFTER he knows my name. I put my head on the table he will say "ming gui! are you okay? why you look so dead?" hahas. I know he's trying to remember my name that's why he keep calling me. hahas. A real funny and very very GOOD social studies teacher. =)

Mdm Lim - Nice advice you gave me. =) But frankly speaking, i listen to none. =x But i know your motive is want me to do well in studies. I hope and i wish i won't disappoint you. You're the only teacher who likes to 'kpo' students de affairs. hahas. But thanks for all the advice, all the forest forest thingy. You're a good and caring teacher. =)

Ms Soo - Only today did i realise that i'm really afraid of her! I thought after becoming a councillor, and after talking to her face to face for many many times, she's no longer a scary teacher to me. But i really got scared by her TODAY! Went to the HOD room to ask her and Ms kaur to write on my graduation book. Maybe the HOD is TOO quiet, Ms Soo's voice seems to be so loud and clear and SERIOUS when she's asking me to go for the camp. I didn't know what to say. I felt even more scared when Ms Kaur went out of the HOD room and the whole place only left me and Ms Soo. ahhhhh. so scary! But nevertheless, i guess OPSS will be in chaos without her. I can't imagine OPSS without MS SOO! hahahas. =)

Ms Kaur - First impression of her: Fierce, unreasonable. =x But after getting to know her more. I feel that she's rather a friendly and funny teacher. She always talk to me in a joking manner. And she never fails to make me laugh! hahas. Although today i dun really like it when she forced me to go for the council camp. But i guess what she and Ms Soo said was right. It's the last time having a camp with the councillors. But.... i can only say sorry. I will have to disappoint both of you in the end. Sorry! But she's simply a very good teacher being the Head Of the Student Council. =)

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O levels is just right straight infront of us now.
we gonna work hard towards it.
it's just like a long run.
the further you run, the nearer you're getting to the end point.
but i seems to be running on the spot.
i look at the end point and i run.
i run and run and run.
i'm getting more and more tired.
but whenever i'm running, i look down and i saw myself running on the same spot still.
it's getting more and more frustrated.
seeing other competitors run past me very quickly.
i'm running too.
but i dun seem to be moving on.
i'm stucked in the same spot.
i shouted for help.
but all i got back were echos.
but i know i can't stop running.
becos once i stop, i'll never get to the end point.
so i kept running..
run and run.
until i finally collapsed.

sad to say that the place i collapsed is the starting point.
it's killing me.
i want to give up but i can't.
what went wrong i dunnoe.
i really dunnoe.
all i know is to run..
but i feel so lost.
so lost...

i've lost the passion to study.
i've forgotten how to study for exams.
i no longer know how to work hard.
i no longer know what to do and what not to do.
i'm tired.
sick and tired of studying.
studying continuously really kills me.
after studying for prelims, we must start to study for o lvls again.
studying for prelims is not easy.
and you expect me to study even harder for o lvls?
isn't it the same as forcing me to smile during a funeral?
it's painful. ='(
i guess i couldn't take the amount of stress an o lvl student should be taking.
i admit i'm weak.
it's just a bit of stress and i'm complaining as if i'm facing HUGE problems.

yes. i am really weak.
i dun think i can take it anymore.
but whether i can take it or not,
i still have to study.
i've said before that i dun want to have any regrets for every single paper.
i've already have one for physics practical.
i really dun wan to have anymore regrets.
one is enough for me.
i got no choice but to work hard.

a.maths ~~is killing~~ killed me.
chemistry is killing me.
geography is killing me. [DEFINITELY]
social studies is killing me. [MENTALLY and PHYSICALLY]
physics is killing me.
even e.maths is killing me now.
[fancy getting a B4 for paper 1?
how you expect me to compete with other ppl taking e.maths paper?]
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P.S. to everybody out there.
dun sms me anymore.
i will off my handphone from tomorrow onwards.
suddenly, i feel like taking out the sim card from my phone..
and drop my phone down from the building and let it be SPOILT.

if there's anything important.
call my house.
thank you.

我真的累了
真的很累很累很累 ='(

2007-10-11T17:48:00.000-07:00

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

~~the broken heart~~
it's no longer broken into pieces.
thanks for everything. =)

2007-09-29T14:39:00.000-07:00

Last post before my BIG 'O's =)

time is running out.
o level is getting nearer and nearer.
in fact, my science practicals are just one week and a few more days away.

sec 1s to 3s are having their EOY now.
it's time for them to suffer!
muahahaha.
but actually sec 4s aren't enjoying themselves too.
we dun have EOY but we have mock papers.
=.=
and and and.. we still need to study for o levels!
which is 10X harder work than sec 1s to 3s.
so we're still suffering. T.T

nevermind. just like what issac says.
after 'O's..
we can slack and play like siao..
while they have their extra lessons during the holidays.
muahahaha. *evil*
oh yah. issac dao me a few days ago.
just becos he wished me happy birthday and i dao-ed him. -.-
i thought ppl must learn to forgive and forget?
hahaha!

i'm already planning for my [after-'O's-activities].
=))))
i'm so excited luhs!
i can't help but looking forward to it!
heeeheeeeee.
how happy will i feel after o levels?
i don't know.
i've heard ppl saying..
"you thought you will be very happy after o levels but actually you will feel nothing."
hahas.
i'll only know the feeling on 12th nov. =)

hmmms.
come to think of it.
i shouldn't be happy after o levels.
but well, think on the positive side.
after o levels, i've decided to...........................
hmms, it's cruel but i've no choice.
that's the best thing i can do in order for my wish to come true.
hahas.
sorry for lying to you.

anyway. it's time to concentrate on o levels now.
(i mean it's time to do that since dunnoe when, hahas)
i shall not think too much now.
just like what ALOYSIUS told me.
i shouldn't let my emotions overtake me.
i want emo can emo like siao after 'O's..
not now.
true true true.
i shall listen to him for this ONCE.
haha! =)
and he reminds me of something..

SUPERTEENS.

-.-
i suddenly remember we were asked "how many As do you want for your o levels?"
and Dr Ernest Wong want us to stand up.
hahas.
i remembered standing up for the 7As!
LOL!!
omg.
it's time to wake up!
hahas.
the card is like a 'wake up card' for me. -.-
ppl got wake up calls i got wake up card.
hahas.

OKAY OKAY!
i shall work hard for 'O's!

work hard for myself!
work hard for my parents!
work hard for my teachers!
work hard for my good results!
work hard for my deary juniors!
work hard for my graduated seniors!
work hard for someone.
*mustn't let him feel guilty =)

i need to work hard and i must!
it's once in a lifetime.
i want to leave the examination hall with NO regrets for every single paper.
i want to leave the examination hall with SMILES for every single paper.
i want to leave the examination hall thinking that there's hope for me to get an A for the paper!
i want to sit for every single paper doing my very best!

I WANT As!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chung ming gui is officially despo for As.
=)

jiayou everyone!
jiayou 4s2 's!
jiayou ex 2a2 's!
jiayou pri sch mates!
jiayou kindergarten sch friends!
jiayou!!

"I do the very best I know.
I do the very best I can and
I mean to do the very best until the end."
Ms lee

2007-09-27T15:28:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEEREEN! as i've promised. =)
all the best for your EOY~!

happy birthday to ai wei too! =D
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today is definitely better than yesterday.

i needed someone to be there for me,
but none came forward.
lala~ i guess i need to learn to face problems myself. =)

Some people are important to you,
but they are not the ones who brighten up your day.

Instead, it was the people whom you considered as not that important,
make you laugh, cheers you up and brightens up your day.

What an irony.

2007-09-26T15:50:00.000-07:00

physically and mentally tired.

i thought nothing will go wrong.
i thought everything will be fine.
i thought i will be able to do well for it.
i thought finally, after failing every single paper for that subject for 1plus year..
i'd be able to pass or even do well for the prelims this time round.
i thought i studied enough.
i thought i was able to answer those questions.
i thought miracle could happen.

but i was wrong.
again, i did not make it.
i can't even manage to pass the paper.

afterall, miracle did not happen for my case.

are those sleepless night for nothing?
did i stay up till so late to brush up everything for nothing?
have i not studied HARD enough?
i guess so.

people say "you reap what you sow"
i sow-ed.
but i reap nothing.
nothing at all.
how pathetic.

is this a kind of motivation god wants to give me?
if that's the case.
the motivation is real cruel to me.

sometimes i wonder.
why some people can do so well in every single thing.
but why i can't.
i fail to do everything well.
till now, i can't even have the taste of success for that subject.
pathetic.
i'm nothing but a failure.

L1r5 - 20 or 21
i've decided.
i shall enjoy myself for the first few weeks before the o level results is out.

~~junior college~~
~~polytechnic~~
~~ite~~
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i asked her.
why give me false hope?

i disappoint her.
='(

2007-09-24T21:46:00.000-07:00

*updated on 28/o9/o7*

**i know it's a bit messy. but i spent HOURS writing this post. so please appreciate. ='(

hahas.
i didn't reopen my blog.
i just put a blogskin so that i can blog in this way.
blog at the 'template' section is a total waste of time. =.=
too troublesome for me le. hahas.

anyway.
i've decided not to put tagboard, links and etc.
sorry.

in this post,
i just wanna THANKS some ppl and also update update a bit. =)

thanks for the wishes =)

21st Sept
Yong Sheng - 10+am (testimonial)

22nd Sept
Jia Hao - 12:28pm (email)
Cecilia - 11:56pm (sms)

23rd Sept
Yong Siang - 12:34am (sms)
Jia Hao - 7+pm (testimonial)
Yong Siang - 9:24pm (sms)
eeyer. copy my style. hahas. =)
Ying Shi - 11:44pm (sms)
Aiwei - 11:46pm (sms)
Ying Shi - 11:52pm (sms) [again]
Isabelle Kang - 11:56pm (sms)
Ian - 11:57pm (sms)
Isabelle Kang - 11:59pm (sms) [again]
Ian - 11:59pm (sms) [again]
Jing Hang - 11:59pm (call)
according to his phone, it's 12am le.
but according to mine, it's still 11:59pm. =)

24th Sept
Yong Siang -12:00am (sms)
i didn't expect you to be the first one. =)
Ian - 12:00am (sms) [AGAIN]
kiasu guy -.-
Sis - 12:00am (sms)
i'm sorry, you're not the first one. =)
Kin Xing - 12:00am (msn; through my sis, hahas.)
Adeline - 12:00am (sms)
i expected you to be the first one! hahas.
Shao Rui - 12:01am (sms)
surprisingly surprised. haha!
Aiwei - 12:06am (sms) [again]
Aloysius - 12:10am (sms)
Dad - 12+am (verbally, hahas)
Shin Kay - 2:04am (sms)
Syahril - 4:42am (sms)
what a weird timing. =.=
Israel - 6:22am (email)
Eng Teck - 6:33am (sms)
Benjamin - 6:42am (sms)
Jie Ming - 7:01am (sms)
Choo Heng - 9:40am (sms)
Chen Hui - 11:28am (sms)
i'm so 'touched'. doing maths mock paper still can sms me. haha!
De Qiang - 4:29pm (sms)
Peiwen - 4+pm (testimonial)
Cheng Boon - 4+pm (testimonial)
Shi Chie -5:35pm (sms)
hahas. i feel so 'weird' without ur sms. i felt much better after receiving it. haha!
Alicia - 7+pm (testimonial)
Eng Teck - 7+pm (testimonial)
Farhan - 8:10pm (msn)
Chen Min - 8:18pm (msn)
Koo SY - 8:20pm (msn)
Cyrus - 9:45pm (msn)
Darren - 9:48pm (msn)
Chung Kit - 10+pm (msn)
Melissa - 11:25pm (sms)
Yong Siang - 11:59pm (sms)

*Issac - forgot what time. =x (msn)*

25th Sept
Zhao Min - 2:15pm (outside school)
Amos, Jessica, Kristina - 2:20pm (council room)

26th Sept
Daniel - 7:28am (foyer)

those who wished me in school
(i'm sorry, i dun have superb memory. i can only remember the first five.)

1) Yong Siang
2) Cecilia
3) Yong Zhen
4) Jia Min
5) 4s2

those who gave me presents ^^
(i shall write in alphabetical order before anyone say i'm biased)

thanks adeline for the dolphin pendant, the pink star thingy and the small card. =)
-she say she actually wanted to buy blue heart shaped balloon. hahas.
thanks aloysius for the coinbox, card and the necklace (plus the paper bag). =)
-nice and INTERESTING coinbox. i used 1 min to open it. hahas.
thanks engtian for the keychain with my name. =)
-surprised. you actually remembered my birthday. hahas.
thanks jiamin for the Ferrero Rocher and the small cute bag (plus the CNY bag). =)
thanks jinghang for the birthday card! =)
thanks qionghui & yingshi for the wind bell and small card. =)
thanks yongsiang for the presents.
-dun always copy my idea! hahas. =)
lastly, thanks sis for the DEATHNOTE book. =)

*thanks cecilia for the necklace! =D*

it's the first time i received two present which were EXACTLY THE SAME.
extremely surprised.
hahas.

not forgetting ISABELLE KANG and CHEESHENG and 2 more ppl i dunnoe who,
for the birthday cake. =))

and also peiwen, amanda, shinying, sharon, isabelle kang, isabelle ang, jiahao, chyee gin, chee sheng and hedessa for celebrating with me. =DD

i only have time to make one wish. -.-
ahhhhhh!
i planned to make three!
but very paiseh.
so i only make one..
which was the first one i can think of.
hope can come true. =)

___________________________________________________________________

today isn't a great day.
hahas.
woke up with stomache.
mum ask me go back to bed and lie down for awhile.
if still cannot then take mc and rest at home.
-.-
super duper unlucky.
but felt better later.
after that started drizzling..
my dad suddenly called and asked if i'm coming down..
he fetching me to school.
WOAH.
hahas.
he say since it's my birthday.. he decided to drive me to school. =D

the classroom was locked.
so i put down my bag and went to the toilet.
cecilia told me something she saw yesterday.
ahhhhhhhh~ jealousy kills. =((
went back to class.
i wonder who so good.. help me take my bag and put on the table.
hahas.
shak told ms lee it was my birthday. -.-
so 4s2 sang a birthday song for me after taking the pledge. =D

got back ss results.
disappointed.
did badly for SBQ.
expected. haiz.

got back geog results.
super disappointed!
i felt that my effort wasn't paid off to the max.
although i finally managed to pass the paper but i feel so sad.
my manufacturing question wasn't well done.
pulled down everything.
ahhhh.

got back english results.
there's nth i can expect much.
i RARELY passed my english paper.
got back paper 1 first..
was damn happy.
although i failed the compo.
hahas.
cos ms lee say those who did that question will die badly.
but i didn't. =)
then took back compre and summary.
sian sian sian.
again.. single digit. ahhhh!
calculate overall..
43
alamak.
then i saw one mistake..
so calculate again.
44.9
sian.
then ms lee say got moderation.
after moderation..
49
AHHH.
i hope i counted wrongly. haiz.
i gonna say BYE to jc.
with this kind of pathetic results.
i can forget about going jc for the first few weeks.
or maybe jc doesn't suit me.
i should go poly.
still deciding. =)
hmmms. but actually there's already an answer in my mind.
haiz.

ok!
o levels is drawing NEAR.
real near.
less than a month.
and practicals are gonna start like 2 weeks later?
gonna buck up.
so won't blog le.
definitely. =)
i gonna chiong chiong chiong~
i dun want to let someone feel guilty. xD
but let me slack a bit first PLEASE.
hahas.
left chem and physics papers to be returned.
no matter what i get,
i MUSN'T feel sad!
o levels is more important than prelims!
it's not too late yet.
(although i think it's super late le =.=)

was slacking around with kaixin and jinghang during mr ramesh's free periods.
i know we're O LEVEL students.
we shld be preparing for o lvls.
but we brought nth to revise.
hahas.
so we ended up chit chatting and looking at some hardworking students in class doing maths.
feeling so guilty sia. hahas.
again. me and kaixin were discussing abt marriage/boyfriends stuffs. -.-
we're too bored. hahas.
and i came up with a conclusion.
you really won't know what will happen in the future..
we might regret all sorts of stuffs we do now.
who knows.
and as i was 'discussing' with kaixin..
i realised something.
can i wait?
am i able to wait?
can i guarantee that my feelings won't change?
hahas. i can't.

hmmms.
waited for jiahao for his lesson to end after school.
was chatting with isabelles.
why ANG so interested in sec 4s??
alamak.
then after that jiahao came and we sang birthday songs. =)
ms soo was so shocked to know that it's my birthday.
and she started crapping. -.-

ms soo: ming gui! today is your birthday?!
me: hahas, yahh..
ms soo: so did you make any special wish? (i forgot how she phrased it)
me: what special wish?
ms soo: hmms, i better not say..
me: nevermind, what wish?
ms soo: are you sure you want me to say it now? infront of SO MANY ppl?
me: oohhhh. okay okay. dun say dun say!!

i can read her mind. hahas.
i roughly know what she gonna say.
=.=
hahas.
i'll stop here. =)

THANKS EVERYBODY once again.
i shall add those belated wishes tml.
oh yah.
中秋节快乐!!
tata~
i might be back after o levels. =)

lets have next year, next next year, next next next year, next^10000 year. =))

****P.S. just received a BIG card from
CHING SHI CHIE, CHENG CHEN HUI, CHESTER ANG MU SHENG.

so touched luhs!
T.T
they remembered and still spend time writing the card.
so happy. =D
didn't really expect to receive it anyway.
someone drop it inside my house de letterbox. hahas.

To Chester Ang: your hand got injured?! poor thing!! hahas. and i know you're TALL. no need to hao lian. hahas. all the best for your A levels. =)

To Shi Chie: your handwriting improve le! hahaha! and i'm sixteen le.. why still call me little girl? -.- dun worry. i'll ask you all along next time if i'm watching any NC16 shows. hahha! all the best for your A levels! =)

To Chen Hui: dun keep HEY-ing lah. alamak. 拿的起, 放的下. i know i know. hahas. i will de. =) and rouge assasin dun sounds nice. hahas. all the best for your A levels. =) (yeah. i know you dun believe in luck. =.=)

really thanks lots! =)

2007-09-16T16:34:00.000-07:00

Hugh Grant/Haley Bennett - Way Back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

*the last sentence of the letter.
=)

2007-09-15T17:16:00.000-07:00

把自己的快乐建筑在别人的痛苦上..

张惠妹 - 你是爱我的

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后

你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠

我做不到

i'm sorry.
i still haven't learn to treasure you.
='(
sorry for being unreasonable last night.

2007-09-12T21:07:00.000-07:00

happy birthday yong siang. =)

i think i'm crazy.
i felt like blogging in the afternoon.
so i wrote a damn long post.
and just now i deleted everything away.
cos i felt that what i wrote was nonsense.
i think i wasn't myself in the afternoon.
hmmms.
i thought the seventh month is over le?
hahas.

If we're fated, you will be able to find me.
and you found me. =)

2007-09-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

Wait For You - Elliott Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So why does you pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

I'll Be Waiting.

future boyfriend, i'll wait for you. =)

2007-09-06T18:39:00.000-07:00

许志安/许慧欣 - 恋爱频率

作词:易家扬
作曲:Wee Jong Soo/Kim Tea Hoon

男:好久没有吹微风的晚上
我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由是穷人的天堂
这种想法我很喜欢

女:你要我闭上眼睛想像
有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园要用心去游览
这种说法多浪漫

男:心在飞女:心在飞
男:路很长女:路很长
男:我们是彼此的避风港
男:听着你女:还不理
男:聊到从前和未来
男女:你心里所有的梦跟我很像

合:oh you light up my life
所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样
女:梦加点感觉
男:思念装上翅膀
合:爱是无限可能的飞翔
oh you light up my life
我想让你分享
我们心动时分的梦想

女:这是一个开始
男:还是一种分享
男女:未来正在等待不是吗

男(独白):
一直跟你说那天一起吃晚饭
想问你开心吗
这些日子看着你
造着自己的梦想
快乐专心的每个样子
我想我们的梦想有一样的频率
不是吗

合:未来我想和你分享

*You light up my life
=D

2007-09-06T17:00:00.000-07:00

被逼放弃自己所爱的人..
比放不下自己所爱的人还要痛苦.

2007-09-02T18:04:00.000-07:00

曹格 - 世界唯一的你

作词：徐世珍/永邦
作曲：曹格

是你第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美丽的安排
是爱让你掠过漫长等待
我们只要现在深爱幸福就来

恨我来不及参于你的过去抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换我灵魂的另一半

这个世界唯一的你是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

看开过去所有的悲哀
都只是训练我为你　勇敢
真爱照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了彼此一辈子再不分开
恨我来不及参于你的过去抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换我灵魂的另一半

I will climb the highest mountain
I will swim the deeper sea
对我说的一字一句都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意

我愿意付出一切交换我灵魂的另一半
就算上天下地　我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你无可救药的坚定
就算世界与我为敌
我也愿意我什么都愿意
for yongsiang
=)

2007-09-01T15:19:00.000-07:00

i look at those photos again.
why am i feeling this way..
was that supposed to be jealousy?
yes.
that was jealousy.
you found your happiness before i do.
and i'm jealous.

on the other hand.
i still wish you all the best.
i once told myself that if you're happy..
i'll be happy for you.
i guess you're happy now.
and i'm happy with my life now too.

this is the best ending for both of us.

still, i wanna thanks you for those memories you've given me.
the present i wanna give you is still with me.
and i'm not gonna give it to you.
i'll probably throw it away. =)
the questions i've wanted to ask you were no longer important too.
becos i know smth..

everything is over. =)

Best regards,
Ming Gui

1st September 2007

2007-08-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

曾国辉 - 下一片天空

词曲 : 郭文翰

你说看不见未来在哪里
其实未来一直在你手里
听仔细心中的旋律
那是最诚恳的声音
要为自己呼吸
至少还有我懂得关心

别在乎我的哀愁
我只是一个路过暂停的小人物
我只要你快乐就够

别在乎我的哀愁
不要害怕继续勇敢地往前走
走向世界下一片天空

我可以为你画出美丽的彩虹
新的总要来旧的总要走
停留不一定永久

请珍惜你依靠的所有
如果有一天你还记得我
我还是你最高的高峰

nice song. =)

2007-08-24T16:48:00.000-07:00

dun assume.
it will only make an ASS out of U and ME.

i know yours is important as well. but which is more important you should know.. or maybe to you, O level prelims is just a piece of cake, that's why you dun care at all. i guess you'll never understand until you experience it yourself. by then, dun cry becos you're too stress. i will not pretend i see nothing. thanks for saying out everything. now i know in your eyes, what kind of person i am. maybe i wasn't a good friend. i know. becos i always fail to do my part as a friend. i dun even know how to console my friend when they're sad. i guess not only you.. in many ppl's eyes. i dun fit to be their friend as well. i remembered you once asked me, "do i hate you?" and i said no. till now, my answer did not change. but why did you doubt me. do i always look as if i hate you all the time? have i ever say anything bad abt you? have i ever blame you for anything? have i ever get angry with you? have i ever quarelled with you? have i ever diao you in school? no. nonono. what makes you think that i hate you? do i have to do that? will hating you make me feel any better? i guess whatever i say now will be useless. you want to believe it or not, it's ur choice. i'm sorry for making your life difficult. i know i've been making you upset all the time. i know it's all my fault. i even felt guilty towards you. that's why i've never blame you. and i DID care abt ur feelings before. why do u think that i dun care at all? am i so insignificant in your eyes? is our friendship that weak? i dun understand why you have to use the word to describe me. it was stucked in my head for the whole day. for the 15+ years of my life. i've never been insulted before. why must you be the first one? or maybe to you, our friendship is nothing. yes. i agree. i dun understand you.. i dunnoe how you feel. i dunnoe the pain you've suffered and everything. haiz. sometimes i wonder, have you ever treat me as your friend? for all this while, i've been treating you as one. or are you thinking that i'm a hypocrite just becos i treat you as my friend? we once chat in msn and through sms before. have you forgot all abt it? you've once asked me to help you ask for the address. it's not that i'm selfish and i didn't ask it for you. i ask it for you becos i treat you as my friend. and the first sms you sent me is still inside my phone. i saved it for the sake of YOU. have you forgot all abt that? haiz.

~~"you still owe me a baby! hahas."~~

[my heart sank when i saw what you've wrote.
so you've been hating me all this while?
maybe it will make me feel better if you hate me..
i won't have to face you with guilt next time.
hate me with all you want.
i'm sorry.]

***********************************************************************************************************************************************

i'm glad that i deleted the previous post. =)
it's good that you didn't see it.
hahas.
so what if you did make use of me last time?
everything is over le.
whats more important is now. (:
after what you've told me..
i'm more sure of your feelings towards me now. =)

我爱你
不做你的公主
要做你的快乐
=)

~~best friend.~~

2007-08-22T19:00:00.001-07:00

*post deleted*

2007-08-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

i've never wanted it so much.
now i really want it.

12th November 2007.

please come quickly.
and let me get out of the school.
i'm tired.
extremely tired.

i want a new life.
i want a new circle of friends.
i want freedom.
i want to think whatever i want to think.
i want to be emo.
i want to stay at home and sleep for as long as i want.
i want to slack.
i want to stay up until very late.
i want to go out.

but now,
i can't do anything i want!

i can't think of anything that is not related to STUDIES.
all i can do now is to study study study!

every morning,
i still need to wake up early and go to school..
and i always need to rush cos i tend to take my own sweet time at home.
moreover, i will see her in the morning sometimes.
it's not that i dislike her..
it's just that i dun like the face she gives me.
it's a forced smile. i know.
but what can i do?
give back a forced smile?
or pretend i didn't see her?

it was becoming a stress for me.
if i saw her from afar..
i'll hv to start deciding whether to look at her later or pretend i didn't see her.
and eventually, it became a stress for me.

i'm already stress enough in studies le.
i dun want anymore stress..
and i hate this kind of stress.
somehow, i just can't ignore the expression on her face when she see me..

dun smile if you dun feel like smiling.

i did not force you, did i?
haiz.
anyway. i guess i'll still smile at you naturally whenever i see you.
although it makes me feel uneasy..
(in fact, very uneasy)
but that's the only thing i can do..
i can't simply ignore you.
haiz.
i dun hate you but somehow,
we just can't communicate.
haiz.

sorry for the emo post!
hahas.
i will still be smiling and laughing in school.
dun worry peeps!
i'm happy. =))

you're not angry with me.
i'm not angry with you.
but you ignored my presence.
i ignored your presence.

2007-08-18T18:05:00.000-07:00

the weather is so cooling nowadays. =D
it rain for several days but my mood wasn't affected.
maybe a bit lah.
hahas. =)

prelims are coming.
so this might be the last post before my prelims..
the next post will be after prelims.
hahas.

went to northpoint just now to buy some stuffs.
saw lots of familiar faces..
hahas.
saw huifong at bus interchange, then the next sec saw jiamin(sec 1).
she still dun dare to speak up. =.=
then saw cecilia and peeps at northpoint.
i spent 1 hour at popular cos i'm too indecisive. =(
somehow wasted a bit of my precious time.
hahas.
saw kristina and jiaen at the entrance.
i was day dreaming.. so didn't see them initially.
until kristina was like waving VIGOROUSLY infront of me then i saw them.
hahas.

went home and i spent the WHOLE afternoon sorting out my chem stuffs.
wasted lots of my precious time!
although i'm also wasting my time now..
hahas.
but i've tried my best to minimized the time i've spent using the com.
=)

was watching tee-vee this morning.
omgg.
one of the 3 evils ms lee told us.

-tv
-computer games
-phone

actually i seldom watch tv.. unless there's sth for me to watch.
hahas.
computer games.. i dun play de.
i'm a good girl. =)
phone.. seldom talk on phone..
unless chen min call me and ask me stuffs.
hahas.

came across a few jokes just now.
feel like sharing them before i end this post. =)

First joke
A: 到底什么叫浪漫?
B: 明知道她不爱你, 你还送她一百朵玫瑰.
A: 那什么叫浪费?
B: 明知道她爱你, 你还送她一百朵玫瑰.

Second joke
A: 我有两个坏习惯, 令我感到很困扰.
B: 是什么坏习惯呢?
A: 第一个习惯是裸睡.
B: 那还好呀! 第二个坏习惯呢?
A: 梦游.
B: ..............

Third joke
A: 记住, 成功需要诚实和智慧.
B: 诚实和智慧, 但什么是诚实.
A: 诚实就是信守承诺.
B: 那, 什么是智慧呢.
A: 就是不要许下承诺

Fourth joke
A: 嘿! 听说有一个女孩差点为了你而自杀!
A: 是真的吗?
B: 对..
B: 她宁愿死也不愿意嫁给我 T.T

if you dun understand, read it again..
hahas.
monday will be my english o level oral.
=(
give me power give me power!
hahas.
hope it will turn out well.
i know miracles do happen.
hahas!
alrights.
i'll stop here.

all the best to all graduating o level students for their prelims.
fight till the end!
gogogo! =)

my best friend :)

friends ~~forever~~
=)

2007-08-14T23:04:00.000-07:00

it will be a very long post.
one of the longest post i've ever written.
so if you're not interested in reading LONG posts. (and i mean REAL long)
then click the cross on the top right hand corner.
or you can simply scroll down to whichever date you're more interested in reading. =)

Friday - 10/o8

i had a dream the previous night.
and again, it's the third time i dreamt of my MT o lvl results.
i wonder why every time i dream of the results..
it will always be a disappointing one.
can't i just dream of getting A1?
=.=
haiyo.
then i was thinking will those dreams become reality?
haiz. i will never know until the real results come out.

went to watch bu neng shuo de mi mi at bugis.
the ticket booth was so difficult to find.
i've walked pass it and i dun even know.
=.=
spent around 20mins looking for it.
hahas.
missed 5 mins of the show. =((
but it's kind of worth it lah.
quite interesting. =)

the ending part was actually quite touching..
hahas. okays..
i dun wanna say out the ending since some of you haven't watch it.
i dun want to spoil the mood.
hahas.

someone said that it's becos the girl is the guy's true love.
is that true?
maybe bah..

"能够遇见你已经是不可思议了.."

now i understand why the girl said this line to the guy during the start of the show le.
hahas.
kkkkz. i shall not go any further..
if you haven't watch it.. go watch bah.
watch with anyone you like.
friends, family or others.
=)

"珍惜和你在一起的时光..."

Saturday - 11/o8

studied ss for the whole day.
and did a bit of chem.
and slacked a bit.

Sunday - 12/o8

studied ss again.
haiz.
and a bit of physics.
hahas.

what a boring weekend i have. =(

Monday - 13/o8

i was in a super good mood in the morning.
i wonder why.
i came to school with smiles on my face.
and i wouldn't stop smiling and laughing.
despite feeling a bit annoyed by some things that happened later in the morning.

during chem lesson.
mr ramesh told us that he looked at our class and 5B1's MT results.
and he said both classes did very badly.
those who always speak chinese during his lesson did not do well.
i was like 'oh shit'.
and after he said how badly we did for MT o lvl.
i was expecting a very bad result later.
i dun want to hope too much.
becos i'm afraid of disappointment.
希望越大失望越大

went to the ava room after that for 15mins of ss lesson.
mr nair told us that the test will be tested only from page 1 to page 14 of the notes.
at first i cheered very loudly.
but after that i realised that i've studied page 15 and page 16 the previous night!
i spent like the late evening and the WHOLE night studying those 2 pages.
in the end only tested till page 14. =.=
but it's okay.
the lesser pages tested, the lesser content to recall for the test. =)

then it was the release of MT o lvl results.
mr low spent about 15 mins talking.
then mr lim took over the mike and said things abt retaking the paper.
then FINALLY.
everybody stood up and went up to miss lee.
she told us one by one our grade.
i was so damn anxious.
then when i heard ms lee telling me the number..
(she said in numbers. eg. one is A1, two is A2, three is B3, etc)
i just walk away and screamed.
i was too shocked during that time.
hahas.
i didn't know that she will also be telling us the grade for oral.
so i went up to her after that to ask for my grade.
and she said that i walked away before she could tell me..
hahas.

went out of the hall and kaixin started crying.
i didn't console her becos she did well. hahas.
she cried becos she didn't expect such results.
then after that xuanwen started crying. =((
then i look into the hall.
adeline was crying, cecilia was crying, so many ppl were crying.
and suddenly, i became so emo that i dun feel like smiling at all..
until i went into the hall and saw my stead.
hoho!
she got the same results as me!
i was like so damn happy and we keep hi 5-ing!
hahahas.
heard that she and jinghang also scream when they received their results. =)

walked back to class with chen min and kaixin after that.
i saw chen min so disappointed i dunnoe what to say.
i only know how to say "dun sad lahh.."
and that's all.

i felt like a failure.
i felt that i didn't do my part as a friend.
i dun even know how to console them when they're sad over their results.
went back to class and sat down and day dream.
then manxing came to talk to me.
after that engtian, isaiah and ravi came to ask me abt my results.
i was still emo-ing.
hahas.
suddenly, i see derek and kaixin standing around jianzhong's table.
so i went over to see what happened.

jianzhong look so so so so sad.
it's the first time i see him look so sad.
for the past 2 years..
i've not seen him so sad before.
haiz.
i guess he was disappointed.
and he was telling us that he didn't know whether he should retake the paper or not.
after that.
derek started consoling him..
and started giving him advice all that.
he said some very meaningful things to him..
i was thinking..
"that's what friends are for.."
but sad to say that i failed to do my part as a friend.

went back to my seat and feel so sad suddenly.
then jasper say his shoulder is ready for me.
=.=
i nv even say i need a shoulder to cry on loh. hahas.
but i guess he will give the-dunnoe-who his shoulder first lah.
hahas.
went to refill water bottle after that.
weixin was queuing behind me.
she look so sad. omg.
last time she see me always very high de.
now she like so so so sad.
can see from her face..
then when i was refilling my bottle..
i suddenly told her how i feel about everything..
and i dunnoe why suddenly tears coming out.
so before i could finish whatever i want to say..
i quickly went to the toilet before i started crying like siao.
hahas.

went back to class again.
nth to do.
and i dun feel like doing anything.
miss lee haven't come.
so after awhile..
i got so bored and i went to the toilet again.
came out and kenna suan-ed by aloysius. =.=

miss lee came at around 1:35pm..
she scolded us for doing badly for our MT o lvl.
she said sth that made me feel so bad.

"i know some of you worked hard but your efforts did not pay off."

='(
i felt very guilty.
i think back..
a few months ago..
the day before the chinese o lvl paper.
i was facing the com till around 11pm.
and i nv revise for my chinese at all.
all i did was memorise the ying yong wen format.
and i slept at 11+pm.
the next day i was so disappointed becos i wrote out of point for my compo.
and i blamed myself for not revising my chinese at all.

but somehow.
miracle happened.
i know i dun deserve the result i got.
but i dun deny that i will still be hoping for an A1 even if i dun put in effort at all.
what miss lee say really made me feel so bad.
imagine you worked hard for something..
but in the end ur efforts were not paid off.
the feeling is no good.
i had put in effort for some maths test and i did badly.
and for some maths test which i did not put in much effort..
i end up doing well for the paper.

you really won't know the result until the last moment.
you might be very sure of the result.
but it may turn out to be something else.
you will never know.
haiz.

went home after the scolding session by ms lee.
was not in a very good mood.
i tried to stop thinking abt some things by memorising ss notes.
at first, it works.
but after that.. i lose concentration.
and i got so frustrated suddenly.
but there's nth i can do.
there will still be ss test the next day.
i will still have to study no matter what.

the earth won't stop rotating for you.
the time won't stop for you.
the sun still rises every morning.
life still goes on.
(and that's the cruel fact you'll have to accept.)

slept at 2am just becos of ss.
after studying abt venice..
i came up with this conclusion..

Venice was too ambitious.

they wanted this sea route that sea route.
wanted to control a lot of territories in mainland italy.
want this want that.
so greedy..

in the end fell.

sometimes we just have to learn to be satisfied.
知足常乐
=)

that's the end for my chinese education in sec sch.
[sorry issac.. mine ended before yours. =)]

i wanted to thanks some people.

thanks mdm lim for being my chinese teacher since last year.
thanks ms oh, mdm yang and some other teachers who taught me in sec 1 and 2.
thanks all my primary school chinese teachers.
thanks chinese newspapers.
thanks my family for speaking in chinese to me at home.
thanks chinese textbooks/workbooks/assessment books/storybooks.
thanks everybody who wished me good luck and all the best for my paper.
thanks jinghang, jerren, gracia, benjamin(yong) and shichie for wishing me good luck for my result.
thanks other peeps who wished me in school.
thanks the setters for the chinese o lvl papers.
thanks the two male oral examiners.
thanks the radio station 92.4FM
thanks the narrator for reading the passages so clearly.
thanks the markers for my chinese papers.
thanks those who contributed in one way or another.

those who are re-taking the mother tongue papers.
jiayou! =)

P.S. i owe pitchaya a lollipop. =D

Tuesday(Today) - 14/o8

english lesson was fun. =)
the whole class were divided into groups of 4.
and we did the oral discussion..

in my group, there's NATASHA, KELLY and DIYAO. =)
we were joking throughout the whole discussion..
hahas.
we can link everything we say to ss.
then we will start to recall everything we've memorised.
hahas.
we talked quite a lot for one question abt inventions and one question abt COOKING.

"How important do you think it is that everyone (boys and girls) should be able to cook?"

imagine we can talk from cooking to ghosts.
hahas.
diyao suddenly became very lame..
he said something like ppl must learn to cook so that when they die..
they can cook for everybody in the hell. =.=
then kelly joined in.
say something like there's ranks in the hell.
if you can cook better.. you will hv a higher rank.
then she suddenly say this month is the month of july.

then i became lame and said something like..
"maybe there's a ghost beside us who is cooking now..
then the another ghost stand on the opposite and they making roti pratas..
throwing the roti pratas to one another.."

then kelly demonstrated.
HAHA.
then natasha suddenly got interested with the month of july..
hahas.
saying abt natasha..
HAHA.
that time i was discussing with her abt one of the topics..
(we neglected kelly and diyao)

"Tell me about a place that holds fond memories for you."

and i was teasing natasha..
i said "i have fond memories at VOID DECKS."
hahahhahas!
and we laughed like mad.
hahas.
cos there was once i heard from her that she and KU were sitting at the staircase at blk 700+ chit-chatting wearing school uniform and get CAUGHT by forgot which teacher.
hahas.
natasha also very ON!
she laughed and she continued to say some funny funny stuffs.
then kelly was like blur.. dun understand what we talking.
hahaha!

fun fun fun. =)

spent recess time studying.
5 mins for physics and the rest of the time for ss.
hahas.

after recess physics test.
after phy test then SS test.
after SS test was chinese lesson.

mdm lim was very angry with our class and she made the whole class stand for like 20mins.
she was unhappy with our chinese results.
cos we did worse than her other 2 classes..
4A1 and 4A2.
then she nag at us..

after chinese is chem.
nth much.
then assembly period..
ms lee came in and spend the whole period nagging at us also.
haiz.

after sch had maths remedial.
fun fun fun.
i enjoyed it. hahas!
mr goh said he got A1 for his o lvl chinese and B3 for his english.
and he's from st gabriel.
SAME AS MR CHEW!!
i wonder if they're classmates.
hahas.
we started the maths remedial by doing one maths question.

then i had this LONG conversation with mr goh.
if you're not interested then skip the whole part. =)

mr goh: do you know that till now, mr dinesh nair still dunnoe your name?
me: i know.
mr goh: how you know?
me: cos for this whole year.. i nv hear him calling my name before.
mr goh: but he taught you for 2 years.. and he still dunnoe your name.
chen min: 1 year only mah..
me: yah loh. 1 year only.. last year ms mary.
mr goh: one year only arh..
me: yah. somemore he didn't go round asking ppl what's their name..
mr goh: not like me right.. so kpo.
me: yah loh. haha.

after 5 mins..

me: how you know mr nair dunnoe my name?
mr goh: cos tt time during the... the..
me: student council investiture.
mr goh: yah. he was pointing at you and say 'eh? this girl is from 4s2!' then he say he doesn't know your name..
me: hahas. then?
mr goh: i told him 'i nominated her to be a councillor..'
me: then what he say?
mr goh: 'not bad not bad.. good choice.'
me: HAHA!

*then he said a very chim chinese proverb.*

me: huh? whats that?
mr goh: your chinese A1 right? you dunnoe what that means arh?
me: not as GOOD as your A1 mah..
mr goh: of course lah! i got A1 that time you haven't even born yet.
me: haha. glad that you know that you're old.

then he diam diam. haha!
and our conversation ended. =)

went home after going to the council room to pass the teacher's day letters to charlotte..
who happened to be in the council room dunnoe doing what.
i wonder why she so high. =.=
hahas.

did you realise.. we're drifting apart..?
but it's okay.
i expected it.
i won't do anything to improve it..
maybe i'm tired.
it seems like you're always having mood swings.
you want to talk to me then you talk.
you dun want then you'll just walk pass me as if i was invisible.

i'm getting used to it and i guess one day..
i'll be able to ignore it completely. =)
i dun want it to be one of my problems.
i dun want you to become my problem.
i want you to become the reason for me to be happy instead.

nites ppl!
thanks for reading till here. =)

my flower is dying..
it was no longer the same flower i first seen it.
no matter how much water and fertilisers i gave it to the flower..
it just continues to die.

(maybe it was the water and fertilisers i gave to it that led the flower to it's death.)

2007-08-13T18:42:00.000-07:00

feeling so terrible.
haiz.

i'll blog tomorrow.

2007-08-12T18:34:00.000-07:00

张惠妹 - 如果你也听说

填词:李焯雄
作曲:周杰伦

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

nice song =))

if one day..
when i get to see the whole forest and i found a better flower there..
i won't forget the best flower i've found in my small garden. :)

because it is the flower that was with me all the time when i'm in the garden..
if possible, i would like to bring the flower with me to see the whole forest..
so that i won't look at other flowers but only the flower in my hand. :)

2007-08-12T17:48:00.000-07:00

there's time to study.
and there's time to relax.

i'm relaxing now. =D

2007-08-09T11:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

FOUR days of holiday = FOUR days of studying = no holiday for sec FOURS.
how sad.
=((

ss test is on next tuesday.
which means that i need to finish memorising 18 pages of the notes by then.
and WORD by WORD.
that means i must memorise thousands of words in sequence/order.
haiz.
i still need to complete 1 eng compre, chem paper 1 and paper 2..
and study for monday's physics test.
=(

i'm tired and i guess everybody else is tired too.
maybe i should use studies to occupy my mind.
maybe i will feel better this way.
i dun want to think of anything now.

study.
pay attention in class.
study.
do well for tests.
study.
revise for o level.
study.
that's all i need to do.

my life will be dull but who cares.
i dun need an interesting life anyway.

[dun ask or say anything regarding my previous post pls.
and i mean it.
i dun need any advice or consolation.
really.
you all are making me feel worse.
so pls everybody.
dun ask or say anything to me.]

='(

2007-08-08T17:21:00.000-07:00

Tuesday - o7/o8/o7

got back my relative velocity test.
expected.
the paper was badly done.
i was still stucked at those questions when mr goh asked us to re-do the paper.
haiz.

there was a big gap between you and me.

helped mdm lim to bring those books down after her lesson.
she said she wanted to talk to me.
then xuanwen say i wanna skip mr ramesh's lesson again. =x

i know whatever mdm lim tell me is right.
i used to tell some ppl that in restaurants, customer is always right.
in school, teacher is always right.
we can't say that teachers are wrong, can we?
she told me some things..

i realised that i am a burden.
i am a burden to him.
i am a burden to her.
i guess mdm lim was indirectly trying to tell me that i shouldn't do that.

she gave me two advice.
probably i will only listen to the first one.
becos the second one..
i can't do it.
i know i can't do it..
and i told her.
but she want me to learn to do it.
haiz.

had chem practical after sch.
quite tough for the QA.
haiz.
then went home.
i didn't walk the usual route becos i saw someone.
walked the other way instead.
and i saw my two lovely pri sch friends.

kay peng and wei li.
=)

[skip the next few paragraphs if you are not interested in my pri sch life.]

it has been more than 3 years since i last saw them.
the feeling is good.
really good. =)
i saw wei li first..
i didn't notice kay peng.
then i was thinking 'this guy looks familiar..'
suddenly the guy beside him ask him 'she is ming gui right?'
and i turned and look at the other guy.

chan kay peng. =))

they didn't change much.
(since i'm able to recognise them. hahas.)
and they actually rmbed me too.
yeah!
they grew really tall lah.
kay peng turned from tall to even taller.
wei li turned from not so tall to abt the same height as kaypeng now.
=)

i seriously miss my pri sch life.
although we were childish that time.
but who cares.
at least life was not as complicated as now.
sec sch is not as great as i thought when i'm in pri sch.
from a big school to a bigger school.
everything seems great.
but things that happened in there makes me feel so terrible.
but that doesn't mean that there's nth for me to remember in my sec sch life.
i do have fond memories with my friends which i will always remember. =)

is this fate?
if i didn't walk that way back home.
i guess i will nv see chan kay peng and puan wei li anymore in my life.
i do believe in fate. =)

i miss the GIRLS

JOYCELIN ong wan teng.
aw LIMIN.
LYNETTE chee boon ting.
tan XUE QI.
HUDA.
JESLEVE soh meixuan.
tan LEI PENG.
leong BAO XIN.
FADHILLAH.
HANIS.
hong HUIQI.
chong LIYI.
seah MEIWEI.

and the GUYS

JACKSON teo yung siang.
ROY tan hong quan.
puan WEI LI.
chan KAY PENG.
NAQI.
POWER wong.
DANIEL.
HIDAYAT.
mak KENG WAI.
SHARIL.
BEN.
JOHNNY chen junren.

not forgetting my p6 classmates who are in OPSS now.

GRACE yeo hwee theng - 4A2
ZULAIKHA bte omar - 4S3
NADIRAH atiqah bte zamil - 4A2
CECILIA ng cai qi - 4S1
pang YAN JUN - 4B2
lim RONG LE - 4B1
IAN ng jin hur - 4S2

and lastly..

mr CHEW KIA HUI. =DD

i miss all of you.
and i really do.

Wednesday - o8/o8/o7 (Today)

8th august.
what a nice date.
what will i be doing exactly one year later?
o8/o8/o8.
hahas.

went to sch for national day celebration.
passed belated birthday gifts to jiamin and jinghang.
sorry for the late girfts!
jiamin's birthday is supposed to be on 26th July.
which is last month.
and jinghang's birthday is supposed to be on 4th June.
which is 2 months ago. =x

jinghang! grant my wish pls. =)

i think this year is the best national day celebration ever.
it's the first time we sang so many national day songs at one go..
for the past 3 years.
we did nothing but listen to speech and went home.

isaiah said soccer unites ppl.
but i guess singing unites ppl even more. =)

i'm so proud of choir!
although i know some ppl think that their dance is stupid.
but who cares.
i support them!
who will have the courage to dance infront of the whole sch?
stand so close to us somemore.
hahas.

i miss choir practices.
i miss my juniors.
i miss mr chen.

sang some national day songs and our class got so high. =D
some ppl started waving.
some ppl started cheering.
and we even suggested doing kallang wave. =)

all the sec four classes sitting behind stood up.
and we were like waving and singing along.
suddenly.
an aeroplane fly past.
what a good timing.
we were like so high!
it's really the best national day celebration ever.
we even sabo-ed miss lee to go up and sing for the last song.
we will get there.
hahas.
our class did the kallang wave.
and we pass it to the class beside us.
and they pass it back to us.
i love kallang waves! =DD

i will miss my classmates after i graduate from opss.
4s2 'o7 simply rocks.
2a2 'o5 as well. =)

after that went up to the forth floor to watch competitions among teachers and students.
then went back to class to get the national day gift.
then went home.

the feeling is so terrible now.
i feel so miserable.
i dun need any sympathy from anyone.
i dun need any consolation from anyone.
i dun need any advice from anyone.
i'm afriad i can't take it anymore.
i have too much things to think about.

dun ask me to cheer up becos they are of no use.
but i do appreciate them.

sometimes 'cheer-ups' doesn't make anyone cheer up.
'cheer-ups' from friends only let us know that there are ppl out there who care for us.
and that's all.
if by saying cheer up can make a sad person become happy.
there will be no ppl feeling sad in this world.

i dun need 'cheer-ups'.
i dun need ppl to tell me what to do.
i dun need anything.
i just need to get over it.
and time makes an important role here.
all i need is time for me to think..
but i dun have much time to think.
that's why i feel so damn terrible now.
and i hate it.

sorry. i didn't treasure the time with you when walking back home.
i dunnoe what to say.
all i can do is smile to show that i'm alright.
i dun want to show anyone sad faces all the time.
i'm sorry. ='(

[ppl who read my blog.
ignore the italics part pls.
pls pls pls.
ignore them.
pretend you didn't see anything.
dun ask me to cheer up.
dun ask what happened.
dun ask why am i feeling so terrible.
DUN ASK OR SAY ANYTHING.]

sorry for any inconvenience caused.
i guess it will be the last time i'm writing all these stuffs.
i can't take it anymore.
i'm sorry.

2007-08-06T22:57:00.000-07:00

today is a tiring day for me.
slept at around 3am last night.
was studying my 'lovely' RELATIVE VELOCITY.
hahas.
this is what u get if you studied last min.
i only started studying like 9+..
hahas.
then packed my bag which took me half an hour.
-.-

i had fun during today's morning assembly! =DD
was discussing abt HAIR matters with isaiah again.
hahas.
he say he will go cut his hair becos PRELIMS are coming.
then i ask him to forget abt styling his hair for prom night..
becos he will need to cut his hair again when o levels come.
hahas.
AND GUESS WHAT HE SAY?!

"then i'll go for hair extension."

HAHAS.
is there really a need to do so?
it's just a prom night lahh.
i mean okay.. it's ONCE in a lifetime.
but...
nevermind. i shall see how COOL isaiah will look during prom night.
hahas!

then ms soo is talking abt girl's FRINGE.
hahas.
then i was telling isaiah that my hair kenna cut by ms soo before.
then i didn't know that so many ppl heard me.
hahas.
then farhan said something about suing(sue-ing) the school.
-.-

anyway.
MR YUEN is the one saying the announcement today!
i was shocked lahh.
tt time me and derek were looking at jianzhong's a.maths txbk talking abt relative velocity.
then suddenly i heard a FAMILIAR voice.
and i look up.
WAAAA.
hahahas.
not bad not bad. =)

went back to class for A.MATHS test.
i was stucked in the first qn.
but i guess i got the right answer.
then again i was stucked at the last vector FIVE marks question.
forget it. i skip.. and i went to the RELATIVE VELOCITY's questions.
i was so panicked!
i spend like 10mins on the first qn and i can't come up with the right diagram!
mr goh is like infront of me looking at my scripts.
i was so damn worried.
in the end i dunnoe how i get it and i just rush through.
second question i didn't even have time to think about drawing the right diagram.
i just write whatever i think is right.
hahas.

took back geog paper and chem paper.
haiz.
so disappointed.
chem paper careless mistakes everywhere.
sian.

there's physics test today.
the test is TODAY.
haahahas!
i nv even touch a single physics notes last night.
but it is not a test at all.. but a 'worksheet'?
hahas.

had english remedial after sch.
did eng compre.
didn't hv the mood to do.
sian.
went home after the remedial..
which is around 2:45pm.

went to watch harry potter with my sis and bro just now.
okay. i know i'm SLOW.
hahas.
kind of unexpected..
i thought it would be a boring one.
hahas.

i dunnoe what to say..
i dunnoe what to do..

i'm speechless.

i'll go whichever way you bring me to.
i'm tired of asking why did you go this way and why did you go that way.
i'm tired of going another way and expecting you to follow me.
i'm tired of going our own ways.
i'm tired of hoping you to go my way.
i'm tired of walking towards you but you tried to ignore my presence by walking faster.

sometimes, i just couldn't catch up with you.

i shall go whichever way you go.
i won't walk any faster.
and i won't expect you to wait for me either.
i'll just follow you BLINDLY.
i won't shout for you to wait for me.
i won't.

becos i have no right to do that.

do whatever you like.
it's your choice.
but no matter what you do..
dun forget that i'm always behind watching you.

always..
=)

tomorrow will be a long day..
will be having chem practical for the LAST time.
hope i can treasure the last practice i have for my chem practical. =)
nites!

i realised that we are from 2 different world..
and i dun deserve anything from you at all. =(

can a N-pole meet a S-pole?
='(

maybe they weren't meant for each other.
maybe they aren't compatible..

2007-08-05T13:19:00.000-07:00

when you love someone..
they're more important than anything else.
you're willing to give them everything you have.
you want them to be happy..
and as long as they are happy..
everything is worthwhile.

this is the 'model ans' for the definition of love.
it wasn't my real definition of it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAHRIL!! =DD

yesterday i slacked the whole day!
haiz.
prelims are coming..
PRELIMS ARE COMING!
it's not that i dunnoe prelims are coming..
the timetable had already given to us.
but i just dun feel like studying at all.
haiz.
BUT I WILL STUDY!
becos i want to do well in it and prove to someone that IT won't affect me.
i hate ppl telling me to concentrate on studies..
will it helps by telling white lies to me just to make me concentrate on studies?
the answer is definitely no.

woke up at 11 yesterday.
and i saw 3 msgs.
the content is the same.
"when is the physics test on heat?"
hahas.
so i replied 13 aug to the 3 of them.
then i realised that some ppl actually thought it was the coming mon.
did i hear wrongly in class?
i'm quite sure that it is after national day tt monday.
so i asked pitchaya..
since she sit around my area in class.
and she said next next mon.
so i'm not wrong le loh.
hahas.
then i asked more ppl and almost everyone say is the coming mon.
but i rmb someone asking mr tang whether the test is next mon..
then mr tang say "ya.. no no no. the next next mon."
I REMEMBERED MR TANG SAYING THAT!
but suan le.
if i hv time i will study for physics.
tml's a.maths test is more important.
becos it might be the worst a.maths test done ever.
hahas.
I'M PREPARED! =)

alrights.
i gtg now.
hahas.
again i won't blog every single day lah.
prelims are coming. T.T
hahas.

ISABELLE,
SO LANG MAN~! LOLS.

you shouldn't ask that.
you shouldn't ask that.
you shouldn't ask that.
you really shouldn't ask that..
='(

why did you give me false hope.
if you've made a promise to someone..
if you know that it is impossible..
then you shouldn't hv ask that!
the feeling is no good.
it's like dropping me down to hell from heaven.
the impact is very big.
='(

maybe it was just my wishful thinking all along.

the joke you said hurts me.
but it's okay.
i'm understanding.
='((

[i will not attend to any questions being asked abt this.]

2007-08-03T18:04:00.000-07:00

is it my fault?
i guess so.
i'm the one who started it again. ='(

during morning assembly today.
ms soo asked those who came after the bell rang to stand.
dominic and farhan are such honest ppl. =))
ANYWAY.
it reminds me of wednesday's morning assembly!
i was late!
i sat down AFTER the bell rang.
and how unlucky can i get..
ms soo asked those ppl to stand up.
haiz haiz haiz.
i only stand after half a min.
i hesitated.
ms soo kept saying "come on. be honest!"
then i sian. stand loh.
i dun want to be dishonest. =)
somemore jerren keep asking me to stand.
hahas.
so i stood up.

jerren: ehhs. sit lah! i joking only.. sit lah!
isaiah: she already stood up.. how can she possibly sit again?

exactly!
hahas. but even if jerren nv ask me to stand. i will still stand de.
hahas. although it was super embarrassed for me!
only a few sec 4s stood up.
so i was like the outstanding one.
sooooo PAISEH!
arghhhh.

anyway! isaiah said something FUNNY today!
becos ms soo said that there will be a haircheck on monday.
so he asked me if his hair is acceptable..
i said no. there's no slope at all.
then he say he dun wanna cut..
he want style his hair for prom night.
LOLS!
i laugh like mad.
isaiah so stylo one meh?!
hahahahha!
so i said sth like there's still a LONG time before prom night.
then he 'oh yah'.
=.=

school is pretty short today.
that's good.
i had enough with all the stress.
i felt so stressed up today.
mr ramesh said i didn't do well for my chem test.
he said i got ZERO for my mcq!
i rmb writing calcium as my ans!
and i told him.
but he doubt me.
haiz.
it's not that i didn't study.
i admit i didn't study hard enough becos i wasn't feeling well the previous night.
and all i think of was to SLEEP.
but i did study enough to be able to manage the paper well.
=((
he made me feel so hopeless for my chemistry.
haiz.
monday i will get to know my results. =(

was doing relative velocity during maths lesson.
i just dun understand about the DIAGRAMS.
haiz.
i guess mr goh got tired of explaining to me also le.
i'm hopeless..
haiz.
this weekend will be tough for me i supposed.
=((

stayed for awhile in class after sch.
going around with the class photo asking ppl who they think is the most handsome/pretty.
me and xuanwen ask mostly the girls.
hahas.
i'm fascinated by natasha's reaction!
she's so straightforward and she told us the top 5 of them without hesitation.
hahas.
woo. I LOVE HER ATTITUDE! =DD
now i know who she think is the most handsome in class. xD
hmmmms.
it seems like our class de girls all prefer tall guys.
haha!

didn't go home after that.
wanted to watch the dance competition at 2 but later decided not to.
stayed in the council room to do some work.

i wrote EVERYTHING down on a piece of foolscap paper.
one full page of words without paragraphing or leaving any lines.
i crushed the paper and throw it away.

went home when the dance competition started.
saw nash and seet on my way home.
and nash told me sth which i heard from many ppl today.

it seems like i'm the last one to know about it.
why am i hearing it from other ppl instead of you?
to you, is it really none of my business?
do you really think that it does not affect me at all?
haiz.
is that the thing that can't be said?
if that's the case..
then why does it seems like the whole world knows abt it and i was kept in the dark.

to you.
everything does not concern me at all.
as long as it doesn't affect me..
it will be none of my business.
i won't need to know.
but i really dun have the single right to know abt it?

haiz.
if that's the case.
forget it.
i'm alright with it.
i dun blame you.

do whatever you like.
live life the way you want.
you're not within my control anyway.
='(

他和她的故事 - Part three

她,
知道真相后
不知道如何是好
.......

她所喜欢上的另一个他
似乎对她也有一点点地意思
对她来说
那是一段有望发展的恋情

然而对于他
她却从来都没奢望过会和他有任何结果
一直以来
她都认为那只能是一场梦

面对 '新欢' 和 '旧爱'
她不知道如何做出抉择
是该放下未展开的恋情
还是放下至今还未能完全放下的他

过了很长的一段时间..
她终于做出了抉择.

(to be continued)

2007-08-02T21:36:00.000-07:00

everything happens for a reason.
i'm starting to believe it even more now.. :)

i was trying to draw the diagram of one relative velocity question this morning..
but i couldn't draw.
so i went to school and continued to try while the teachers were still having meeting.
but i still couldn't draw.
i tried again when mr low is talking..
and finally.. i came up with the drawing.
=))

there's always consequences for everything..

i lost my pencil. =(
i did my maths in the parade square and i left it there!
i forgot to put it back into my pencil box..
it's a NEW one!
why did things always come and go before i can learn how to appreciate them.
='(
my blue pen also liddat.
buy le then a few days later gone liao.

haiz.

played captains ball during pe today.
although i know that my finger de condition wasn't good..
it got worse last night.
haiz.
am i really that unlucky?
today..
the same thing happened again.
and it's the same finger!

indescribable pain.

however, i continued to play. =)

stayed back after sch for maths remedial.
did e.maths mock paper again..
i managed to finish the paper this time round. =)
walked with chen min and jessica to ABC there and we parted.
walked back home alone after that.

i will never forget what i saw this morning..
frankly speaking..
sometimes, i really dislike ur attitude.

again, i can't bring myself to do it.
haiz.

他和她的故事 - Part Two

曾经说过会等他的她
曾经说过当他需要她时
会出现在他面前的她

就在他不在她身边的时候..

变心了

或许这是个较好的结局
她不再需要等待不会实现的梦了

不过事事难以预料
就在她变心不久后
他和他的女朋友分手了

而原因是因为..

她.

(to be continued)

***********************************************************

因为只要他快乐
你愿意为他付出一切

甚至是放弃你对他的爱..

这就是答案.

2007-08-01T23:35:00.000-07:00

ian told me something very meaningful just now.

"sometimes, explaining would make things worse.."

finally something meaningful from him! =D
hahas.
yupps.
indeed, sometimes explaining would make things worse.
so it's better to leave some things unsaid. =)
i remember jianzhong once told me something meaningful too!

"Let bygones be bygones.."

if only i'm able to do that..
i'll be a cheerful and happy girl now..

i came across a passage just now..

"Are you working towards what you REALLY want?
If not, change direction now instead of looking back..
and wishing that you had spent your time in a more constructive way."

sometimes, it's not that you dun wanna change direction..
you wanna change and work towards what you REALLY want.
but sometimes.. you will end up at some other places.
just like you wanna go from a point A to a point B..
but somehow, becos there's wind..
it pushes you AWAY from your destination..
and you ended up at some places you dun wanna be at.

from the start till now..
it's always not within our control..
it's NEVER within our control.
we need to do watever we're told to do so.

we need to follow the storyline no matter what..
='(

sometimes i wonder..
why things dun go the way we want.
why do ppl feel sad even for some small matters?

i guess, everything happens for a reason.

things that is happening now..
things that happened years ago..
things that will happen in the future..
everythings happens for a reason.

some ppl say that the future is in our hands..
for some things.. yes it is.
for example, career.
if we study hard now, our future will be as bright as lightbulbs.
but is future really in our hands?
we can study hard now..
but what if the next day, you walked out of the house and get knocked by a car?
everything will be different.
some things are just not within our control.

all we can do now..
is just live life the fullest.
try our very very best not to regret things that we've done.
try to be happy all the time..
and smile.

i once received a msg from someone.

"Every little smile can touch somebody's heart.
May u find hundreds of reasons to smile today..
and may u be the reason for someone to smile always."

why do you smile?
becos you're happy?
becos someone gave you a smile?
becos you wanna hide your feelings?
becos you wanna cheer some ppl up?

your smile might change someone's mood.
so smile ppl! =)

if i say i'm not disturbed by it.
i'm lying.
it hurts but it's okay.

2007-08-01T18:39:00.001-07:00

~~i'm sorry.~~

i know it's wrong for me to do that.
='(

2007-08-01T17:08:00.000-07:00

this post won't be very very long becos i won't type so much.
one of my fingers is disabled. ='(

Sunday (29/o7)

was outside for the whole day.
went to TM with my sis to buy some stuffs in the afternoon.
then went straight to ms kaur's house for her birthday party.
reached at around 7+..
other ppl all reach le.
hahas.
sit around with the sec 4s and chit chat.

WHENEVER THERE'S MANIK.. THERE WILL BE LAUGHTERS.

hahaha!
he's telling us abt this person..
who keep calling his phone but doesn't want to say who he/she is.
hahas.
and he demonstrate how the person speaks and what he/she says.
HAHA.
that's SO funny! =DD
after that went to SAUNA with zulaikha and gracia.
we went in without first reading the rules. =D
we stayed there for awhile until faridah came and tell us that they're cutting the cake.

the cake is NICE!
very very nice.
hahas.
oh yah!
i saw mrs singh again!
hahas.
HOW SAD!
she said she doesn't remember me. =((
instead, she say faridah looks familiar.
hahaha!

MS KAUR (mrs rupesh) IS SO DAMN SWEET!!
she cut the cake and she let her husband had the first taste of the cake.
SHE FEEDS HIM!
hahas.
we were like wooo-ing~~
hahahaha!
awwwwwww~
so sweet! =DD

we left at around 8+..
we went to bid goodbye to ms kaur before leaving.
then she suddenly showed me a photo..
the photo some ppl took during her baby's one month celebration.
i examined the photo..

oh.
my.
god.

SCANDAL SCANDAL!
hahaahha!
how come one girl's hand is holding onto one guy's hand?
hmmmmmmms.
there might be some SECRETS in them!
hahas.

then we took the lift down from 2nd storey to 1st storey. =.=
took bus 965 with gracia, zulaikha, derek, othman, manik.
faridah went the other way..
reached home at 9pm.
which is very early to me. =)

it really make a lot of difference..

and the msg you sent..
it was a pleasant surprise to me. :)
those words aren't powerful if send by other ppl..
but when come to you..
it became powerful.
and suddenly, i can feel the beauty of the _ words. :)

thanks. =)

Monday (30/o7)

i nearly forgot to bring my tie!
if i forgot to bring..
i'll be the only one who nv bring tie.
hahas.
i forgot what happened in school.

Tuesday(31/o7)

i was dying in school.
actually wanted to go home during recess.
but chem test is after recess!
if i go home..
mr ramesh will say i purposely dun want to take the test de.
haiz.
so decided to stay in school.

didn't go for the chem practical after sch.
went home and take a short nap.
woke up shower le then went to see a doctor.
reached at around 4:33pm.
and it was closed at 4:30pm.
=.=
so went to see the doctor at night.
i didn't know that it will be so expensive!
my mum gave me $25 and i brought $10 more in case.
the medicine and everything costs $26.
=.=
i got no choice but to use the $10 note..
the incomplete heart.
it was gone before i can make it complete.
=((

Today

actually not going to school today becos my mum want me to stay at home and rest.
but morning i feel okay.. so decided to go to sch.

i was dying during SS period.
mr nair took more than half of mr ramesh's lesson..
i was dying le..
hoping that mr nair will end his lesson soon.
hahas.
after that went for pe.
played captains ball.
felt better after pe.
hahas.
maybe just like what pitchaya says..
"sick then must exercise more to become healthy."
hahahas.
maybe run here run there then become healthy le.
=DD

after sch stayed back for awhile and discuss abt A.MATHS.
relative velocity. sian sian sian.
i nv really pay attention when mr goh is explaining qn 8.
then after sch, jessica and kaixin suddenly shoot me with that question.
and i dunnoe use how much time to think and do and try to explain.
then yongsiang use like less than 1 min to explain to them then they know liao.
=.=
he win liao loh..
hahas!

received the prelim timetable yesterday.
haiz.
need to start preparing le..
if not how am i going to study with only saturday and sunday to prepare?
=((
will be getting more and more busy nowadays.
after receiving o lvl MT results..
it will be time for prelims!
and if i re-take my chinese paper..
i will need to take the MT prelim paper.
=(
for the time being..
i will leave it un-highlighted.
hahas.
i hope i will nv get to highlight it. =)

so..
MR YUEN!
i will be super super busy!
hahas.
i take back my words.
i won't be blogging every single day le.
so dun come and bug me and say that i didn't update.
hahaha!

ALRIGHTS.
i'll end here.
bye~

the-hidden-truth.

2007-07-27T21:46:00.000-07:00

sorry! didn't blog for the last few days because

1)no time.
2)dun feel like blogging.

hahas. maybe i'm like ms lee..
i think 24 hours is not enough for me too.
i need 32 hours..
haha!

Monday

sorry. i forgot what happened in sch on monday.
i went home..
and i found out smth.

Tuesday

i was so damn emo.
i can't help it but become emotional.
maybe it got smth to do with the thing i found out on monday.
haiz.
ms lee talked to us individually during eng lessons.
and the first sentence she said to me was "i'm disappointed when i see ur results."
haiz. expected it anyway.

i was thinking of lots of stuffs during maths lesson..
the more i think, the more i feel weird over smth.
not really paying attention to what mr goh is saying.
but i guess it's okay.
becos i understand le..
hahas.
even if i dun think..
i will also be doing smth else during his lesson.
hahas.

yongsiang, derek and syahril went for some kind of car competition at 12:10pm.
mdm lim asked us to read storybooks again.
but me, shimin and diyao weren't reading.
diyao doing maths while me and shimin doing physics file.
hahas.
after that mdm lim ask me help to collect the books..
but diyao and zhangshou collecting le.
then i suddenly burst out a question..
hahas.
i asked mdm lim something SECRETLY.
but how sad. she doesn't know the answer to my question.
hahas.

helped mdm lim to carry books down to the staff room after that.
i'm trying to be helpful.. not becos i want to skip mr ramesh's lesson..
(but maybe there's a little bit of intention lah.)
hahas.
was talking to mdm lim along the way.
i think she was trying to hint me abt smth..
but i couldn't get her hint. hahaha!
i'm kind of touched by sth she said to me.
i was really touched.
but maybe she's just joking..
she doesn't really mean what she says.
hahas.
then i told her that it was useless..
becos __________.
haiz.

everything was too late.

had chem remedial after school.
went home alone after changing money for the maths thingy.

i have two choices.
i chose the one that will make me sad becos i dun want to take the risk.
i might become even more sad if i choose the other choice.
haiz.

Wednesday

saw a msg in the morning.
i hesitated for awhile before replying.

played captains ball during pe.
someone said i was trying to be a MODEL.
cos i walk here walk there..
hahas.
i was waiting for someone to pass me the ball mah.
then when i got the ball dunnoe who go snatch away..
HAIYO.
but still, thanks for the last ball.
haha!

Thursday

went to school with my friend Y.
played captains ball during pe.
very few ppl is playing becos most of them is running 2.4.
pitchaya was sad becos she didn't manage to pass her 2.4.
then ys so bad..
bully her.
haiyo.
hahas.

Friday(Today)

mr ramesh took mdm lim's TWO mt lesson again.
nothing much happened.

如果不继续等待
那就真的是不会实现的梦..

alrights! i gtg now.
this weekend will be a super duper busy week for me.
have lots of commitments.
hahas.
bye!

i was saddened by what you say.
so i'm the kind of girl in your eyes for the last few days/weeks?
you have been thinking this way all the while?
maybe you were just joking.
but it isn't the first time i'm hearing that.
i tried to pretend i didn't hear anything when i first hear you say that.
but for the second time..
i heard it CLEARLY.
i was disappointed.
some things you said to me are just too hurting.

if that's the case..
THANKS for your comment.
i will take note of it next time.
and won't act like a ______.

i will keep quiet and pretend i didn't take it seriously becos i dun want to lose you as a friend..
you're still one of my best friend afterall.

disappointed.

2007-07-22T17:19:00.000-07:00

i had sweet dreams last night. =)
i dunnoe whether is it dreams or my own thinking.
hahas.

went to ms kaur's baby one month celebration at SIA sports club yesterday.
met yongsiang at northpoint to buy presents..
saw tarine and kimberly on the mrt.
saw serene on my way to northpoint.
saw yuanlin, huiling, diyao and michelle neo at northpoint.

after buying presents.
took mrt to tanah merah.
while waiting for the train..
yongsiang suddenly talk abt matthias' birthday party.
which is on 21st jan.
and yesterday was 21st july.
we also went to buy his presents at northpoint 6 months ago.
hahas.
that day seems to be very important to him.
hahahha!

reached tanah merah station and we actually board the same train as gracia and gang!
hahahas.
gracia, zulaikha, syahril, nash, derek.
coincidentally, the girls all wore BLACK!
hahahs.
met othman at the bus stop and took 24.
we missed the stop.
so we waited for the bus to U-turn back to the place.
hahas.

walked all the way to the sports club.
we didn't know that it will be so grand and formal!
we all wore jeans/long pants.
but i think amos is the worst out of all.
he wore 3 quarter pants..
he thought it's a chalet!
hahas.

went in and saw ms kaur, ms soo, etc.
wow. so long didn't see ms kaur le!
hahahahs.
then the sec 4s took a picture with her.
out of a sudden..
ms soo suddenly said something which makes everybody burst out laughing.
hahas.

"SIANG SIANG KOR KOR~~"

LOLS.
i was shocked.
ms soo actually said that to yongsiang to tease him.
hahaha~
after that we help to decorate the place.
me and gracia actually "ordered" beer!
we saw one lady preparing beer..
so we went to her and joke joke..
say we want some beer.
hahas.
AND SHE REALLY PREPARED FOR US!
we were like shocked.
we joking only leh.
then quickly tell the lady that we are underage..
we were just joking..
hahahas.

saw MRS SINGH!
woots!
my pri sch eng teacher!
hahahahhas.
at first i saw this familiar looking lady..
i was wondering who she is.
then i saw zulaikha hugging her.
so i suddenly rmbed!
and i went up to zulaikha to confirm with her.
IT'S REALLY MRS SINGH!!
hahhaas.
didn't get to talk to her.
i think she don't rmb me anyway.
hahas.
she's actually ms kaur's cousin.
=.=
what a small world.
hahas.

went to eat after that and talk talk talk.
i asked zulaikha a stupid question!!
hahas.
i actually asked her what class she's from in pri sch.

"i'm from the same class as you! how can you forget?!!"

hahahahas!!!
i really forgot abt it!
i was thinking.. she doesn't look like she's from 6E or 6F..
so i asked her.
she's actually from 6G! same class as me!
hahahhahas!
actually i'm confused by her..
cos before that.
she said that mrs singh taught her english before.
shld be teach US english before.
hahas.

we also talk abt prom night.
she ask who i'm going with..
and suddenly it reminded me of isaiah.
cos he kept asking me who i going with..
when the prelims haven't even started!
we haven't even get our MT o lvl results!
and he's asking me abt prom night stuffs le.
hahas.
and he wanna bet with me.
he say he already know who i'm going with le..
=.=

went out of the sports club to see 'nice' sceneries after that.
we thought the sceneries will be those nice nice de.
but me and gracia went out and we saw the carpark.
=.=
hahas.

left the place at around 10+..
saw aeroplanes flying past us..
and i thought there won't be any stars..
but after awhile..
i saw the one and only bright star!
aiyah. forgot to wish upon the star that time.
hahas.

how i wish time can stop at that moment. :)

i hope the road never ends.
but at the same time..
i hope that the train will move faster..
cos someone is falling asleep liao.
hahas.

♥ balloon. (:

2007-07-21T14:15:00.000-07:00

i had a nightmare last night.
=((
again.
i dreamt of my MT O lvl results..
haiz.
second time le.
sometimes.. i wonder whats wrong with me.
if the results weren't good.
at most retake loh.
no choice. =(

i'm so so so worried about it.
the results will be out..
very very soon.
haiz.
i woke up a few times this morning..
the dream seems to be so real.
i opened my eyes and i still didn't realise that it was just a dream!
haiz.
i started thinking how i did for my oral..
i realised that i actually did very very badly for it!
i'm repeating things that i've said over and over again!
i hope the two male teachers will 手下留情
=((

i choose to believe what chenhui says..
"dun underestimate the power of moderation"
and i do believe in miracles as well. =D
just hope that nothing goes wrong.
=((

woke up at 9plus today.
that's very early for me!
usually i woke up at 12plus de.
hahahhahas.
anyway.
i went back to sleep at around 10plus.
hahaha!

i was thinking abt some stuffs just now..
not unhappy stuffs actually.
they were happy stuffs.
but i wonder why am i feeling so morose.
i'm not smiling at all.
weird weird.
am i going back to the moodless state?
=.=

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
instead. i want EVERYONE to be happy!
emo is such a common word nowadays.
pls be happy everyone!

how i hope one day..
i step into the school.
and see everybody with a smile on their faces..

what an impossible dream.
haiz.

somehow.
i have a feeling that i will be involved in a problem soon.
very very soon.
i wanted to avoid being involved..
but at the same time, i think some ppl just need care and concern from their friends.
i dun want to be selfish.
as a friend, i think i should at least be there to show them care and concern.
but i really dun wan to get myself involved in anything anymore..
i hv enough problems.
haiz.

felt so confused.
i don't know what to do.
maybe i just need some advice..

actually wanted to follow my sis to bugis just now..
but i slept till 12+..
hahas.
so decided not to go le.
hahas.
but still going out later..

i hope nothing goes wrong this time..
i will never let history repeats itself..
i keep telling myself.
"这样就够了.. i'm happy le."
i hope i won't do anything silly again..
if not i will hate myself for sure..

since i want to pretend nothing happened before.
then i think i should keep to it.
=)

ALRIGHTS!
i go prepare le.
and i want to finish up all my homework first before going out.
hahas.
BYE PPL!

他和她的故事 - Part One

她离开他
不是因为不爱他

她让他走
是因为他不再需要她了

等有一天
当他需要她时
她还是会出现在他面前的

因为她对他的爱..

从来都没改变过

(to be continued..)

2007-07-20T22:41:00.000-07:00

is today a good day?
i think so.
=)

woke up feeling so sian~
actually everyday is like that..
SIAN SIAN SIAN.
why can't sch starts in the afternoon?
hahahas!

I WAS NEARLY LATE!
YES. AGAIN!
hahas.
left house at 7:16am.
and i need to be seated in the parade square by 7:25am!
was rushing like siao.
and managed to reach before 7:25..
=))
then isaiah keep saying that i not councillor anymore then everyday so late.
actually when i'm councillor i also very late de..
hahas.

anyway!
sorry for that emo post yesterday.
i wasn't really that sad ytd lah.
dun misunderstood. =D
hahas.
anyway. thanks for cheering me up ppl!
=))

i shall blog abt what happened yesterday first!

THURSDAY

sch supposed to start at 8:30..
but they are so CLEVER.
they used our free morning to let us watch the racial harmony day performance.
hahas.
morning assembly is boring as usual!
mr low was scolding i think..
hahas.
then i suddenly realised that i forgot to bring $30 for the prom night thingy!
luckily my dad gave me $20 in the morning..
hahas.
plus my wallet still got some money..
so i paid $25 plus the $5 i BORROWED from yongsiang.
hahas.

spend time folding hearts when mr low was talking.
jinazhong was talking to himself.
derek was meditating.
isaiah was reading his harry potter book.
hahas.
ppl around me all not listening to him.
we all doing our own things..
hahas.
SUDDENLY!
i think mr low too excited..
he went out of tune out of a sudden.
it made everybody laugh.
hahahas!
i know it's bad to laugh lah.
tt's why i only laugh for a few seconds.
i mean really a FEW seconds only.
hahhas.

went up to the hall to watch the play.
emo-ed for awhile.
xD
then i think jessica saw..
so she was like hitting me..
DAMN PAIN LEH!
then started chit chatting liao.
hahas.
the play was FUNNY lah!!
hahahaha~
laugh like mad.
hahas.

after that is PE!
me and kaixin were like walking around..
cos nobody pass us the ball!
not i dun wan to cooperate leh.
hahas.
then FINALLY!
QIWEI PASSED ME THE BALL!

but...

I MISSED IT!!!
omg!
what is happening to me?!!
hahahahas.
maybe i didn't expect him to throw it to me.
hahas!

after that went back to class.
and mr nair gave us a 'surprise test'.
=.=

the rest of the day i forgot what happened le.
lazy to type also.
hahas.

FRIDAY

there's this zuo wen competition going on.
so spent the first two periods doing zuo wen..

1) 第一次失眠
2) 失败的滋味
3) 如果时光能倒流

it's like so difficult can.
nothing to write de..
hahas.
wanted to write first topic.
but i shi mian for so many times..
how i remember the first time?
hahas.
wanted to write second topic.
but there's nth much to write..
only can write abt competitions and stuffs.
which is like so boring de.
so only left with the third topic.
but nth to write also!
hahas.
but in the end i still wrote the third one.

i totally hv nth to write at all!
managed to write 1 and a half page of craps.
hahas.
i wonder how shimin wrote till 2+ pages.
=.=
when i was writing the last paragraph..
i realised that i wrote out of point.
hahas.
must write abt "if time could turn back.."
but i kept writing time CANNOT turn back..
and write all sorts of craps saying the fact is that time will never turn back..
hahas.
that was such an obvious out-of-point compo.
hahas.
luckily not o lvl..
but anyway.
i wrote out of point for my o lvl le.
HAIZ.

stayed back after sch to complete the e.maths past year paper.
hahas.
and i handed everything up to MR RAMESH.
i hope he got open his pigeon hole and check.
hahas.

after that went home.
=)

bye ppl!

you've changed.
i realised it today.
but i guess it wasn't your fault.
people do change as time goes by..

i'm happy today. =)
but some ppl seems to be sad.

cheer up ALOYSIUS and CECILIA!
and IAN. (special request from him)
hahas.

to someone: dun haiz and dun put sad face. (:

2007-07-19T22:56:00.000-07:00

haiz.

我曾经想过要放下
却因为放不下而崩溃
我曾经想要忘记
却怎样也忘不掉
我曾经想要把你当成普通朋友看待
却做不到
我曾经想要放弃一切
却舍不得放弃

我曾经很快乐
快乐到会自己跟自己笑

我曾经很伤心
伤心到随时都会哭出来

我曾经很烦
烦到在学校乱骂人

我曾经很痛苦
痛苦到第一次有了心痛的感觉

我曾经想挽回一切
不过却好像太迟了
我曾经想拥有一切
却因此弄巧反拙

我曾经因为拥有
而把它当成理所当然
我曾经因为失去
而悔过当初

失去的时候
只想再一次拥有

拥有的时候
却害怕会再一次失去

i'm lost in this world.
full of contradictories.
full of indescribable things.

i'm totally lost.

我现在只想珍惜所拥有的一切
我不想再次尝到失去的滋味

谢谢你让我再一次拥有
我会珍惜的(:

the rain today didn't manage to cheer me up a single bit.

2007-07-18T19:02:00.000-07:00

again.
today is SUPPOSED to be a happy day for me..
becos _______________________.
=))

BUT.
_____________________.
=((
haiz.
suan le.

today nearly late again.
hahas.
i spend the whole morning cutting fingernails.
=.=
hahas.
was kind of tired in school today..
i wonder why.
yesterday slept at around 11+..
i know someone sure fell asleep de.
but i still waited.
=)

it rained today!
nice nice.
hahas.
the weather is so cooling~
=DD
it cheer-ed me up a bit.
hahahas!

went down to council room during recess.
jessica was complaining to me about the physics practical she did.
hahahhas.

mr ramesh took the chinese lesson again.
siann.
english was alright.
ms lee said smth abt 'heavenly'..
so i was like 'hell -ly'..
then she heard elderly.
=.=
hahas.
felt so tired during physics!
but i tried my best to open my eyes as big as possible when mr tang is teaching..
dun wanna sleep in his class.
must give him face mahh.
hahahahs.
then when his lesson ended.
i was like resting my head on the table..
mr tang thought i was sick!
he asked me what happen to me..
ahahhahaas.
i was super duper dead tired that time.
hahas.
maths lesson was okay.
we started learning RELATIVE VELOCITY.
the HARDEST chapter for a.maths.
hahas.
dun really understand but aga aga know what is it abt..
so shld be okay bah i guess.
hahas.

went for chem remedial.
after that went to put textbooks.
then waited for some ppl for 'FIVE' minutes.
his five minutes = twenty five minutes.
hahas.
went to disturb aloysius while waiting.
cos i saw him and AHEM sitting at the study corner there.
hahahaha!
deny lahh. continue to deny loh. i've seen everything!
=DD

went home after that.

i'm speechless.
i dunnoe what shld i say and what i shld not say.

just three words..

i hate that.

(dun assume.)

2007-07-17T21:42:00.000-07:00

i'm not being inmature.
i just choose not to accept it.
i guess i have the right to choose whether to accept it or not right?
and i wasn't joking around.
i am serious in that matter..

today is supposed to be a good day.
cos received a.maths, physics (practical + theory) and ss test back.
i'm satisfied with all the results..
well, i dun really expect myself to do well this time.
so it's kind of a surprise for me.
=))

but not in a very good mood now.
i did badly for my english oral.
REAL BAD.

i didn't give my best shot. =((

anyway.
shall talk abt the lessons for today.
english were alright.
pair up with natasha.
stress.
hahas.
but we're like having fun instead.
=DD

after english was maths.
went to refill my water bottle.
came back and chit chat with diyao.
suddenly saw chen min reading a small note.
so i kpo kpo go see see.
then she say that small note is mine.
she took it from my table without asking.
=.=

i was more shocked than happy.

went down to council room during recess.
syahril ruined my plan.
-.-

physics was alright.
learn new chapter..
ss was fun!
hahas.
cracked jokes during his lesson.
lazy to type out.
hahas.
chinese was okay.
mdm lim wasn't in a good mood.
she came in and saw us making a lot of noise.
and she made everybody stand throughout her lesson..
but only for around 10mins.
hahas.
chem lesson was alright.

had oral after school.
waited for 2 hours for my turn.
=.=
wait till i wanna sleep.
how i wish i can just lie on floor and SLEEP!
was super duper tired.
read the oral booklet to practice for awhile.
then started chit chatting with jianzhong and derek.
felt so cold.
derek's cold jokes' fault!
hahas.
after that took jinazhong's chem txbk and memorize alkanes, alkenes, alcohols..
to keep myself AWAKE!

started saying some lame jokes, riddles, etc etc..
with jianzhong, derek, isaiah, syahril, naomi and kelly.
kaixin and yuanlin joined us for awhile.
hahas.
we started talking and talking and talking.
and syahril suddenly talking abt the situation again..
=.=
asking them for their comments abt student A, B and C.
hahas.
not bad.
they gave LOTS of comments.
hahas.
some thinks that student C should be honest with student A.
some thinks that student C is wrong to like student B when he's already with student A.
some thinks that student C shld give up on student B and live happily ever after with student A.
some thinks that student C shld concentrate on just one and not two girls.

syahril..
i didn't meet this kind of situation before.
so stop thinking that it's happening around us..
and in fact.
i think you're wrong..
student C doesn't like student B.

it was a one-sided love.

so stop thinking that it is very COMPLICATED.
it is actually very simple.
so simple that even a pri 1 kid will be able to understand.
it is not as complicated as what you think it is. =)

english oral was terribly done.
after everything, mrs rachel lee was commenting abt my performance.
and all i got was NEGATIVE comments.
there's not even one positive comment.
the more comments mrs rachel lee says, the more i feel hurt.

she broke my heart.
='(

nevertheless, i still keep smiling at her.
hahas.
went down to council room after that.
realised that i left my oral booklet under the table when walking down the stairs.
=.=
ran back to take.
luckily mrs rachel lee not at there tt time.
hahas.

i kept telling myself it was NOT o lvl oral!
so it's okay..
hahas.
i guess i was okay after tt..
although i might sound disappointed with my oral.
but i think i got over it le.
=)

but i dunnoe why am i feeling so damn emo.
haiz.

went home after oral.

i don't know what to do.
i really dunnoe.
maybe that's why i'm reacting in the way i reacted today..
我在逃避现实.
=((

i dunnoe what you're thinking..
can you tell me?

bye peeps!
i go do homework liao.
=DD

i'm not lost today.

2007-07-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

second post of the day.

okays.
it's not that i'm so FREE that's why i wrote a second post.
it's just that i feel there's a need for me to write out my feelings towards some things.
hahas.

ppl are facing problems every now and then.
it can be friendship problems..
relationship problems..
family problems..
(body problems? LOLs. if you're not from 4s2. ignore that.)
=)

**********************************************************************

i guess everybody have friends.
i guess most ppl have ppl whom they like/love/admire/interested, etc.

if you have both in your heart.
who has a higher position?

there's no right or wrong answer..
but i guess the BEST answer should friends.

i've heard ppl saying that friends usually last longer than lovers.
friends can be there for you for all sorts of problems..
can lovers be there for you when you're facing relationship problems?
obviously not.
therefore..
i conclude that friends ARE important to everyone.
(P.S. for your information, i'm not saying that lovers aren't important.)

********************************************************************

many people are emo-ing nowadays.
okays.
i dun deny that sometimes i'm emo also.
hahas. but i guess emo isn't a bad thing actually.
it keeps our mind thinking. =)

i saw this sentence from my friend's blog just now.

it's difficult to make someone you love a stranger.

no wonder it was so easy for you to treat me like a stranger becos you don't love me..
(i will not attend to any questions being asked about this.)

..................
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.........
.......
.....

ALRIGHTS.
some words for my dear friend jinghang.

if you think that you've tried your best in becoming a very good friend to ppl around you.
then i think you've succeeded.
jiayou my friend!
cheers. =D

(P.S. anyway. i found it.)

**********************************************************************

wanna say CHEER UP to:

jinghang
yongsiang
cecilia
chenmin
adonis
melissa
andy
isabelle kang
isabelle ang
engteck

if i didn't put ur name doesn't mean that i dun care for you..
it's just that they are the emo peeps i see nowadays.
just wanna say cheer up!
and be happy.
if you're happy le then stay happy bah!

smilez.

2007-07-16T22:06:00.000-07:00

i asked because i wanted to end everything..
not because i wanted to start everything over again..

monday blues.
haiz.

i was in a VERY happy mood this morning.
i dunnoe why.
i woke up and i feel as if i'm flying..
hahahas.
the feeling is GREAT!
although i did real bad for my a.maths test.

YES! I DREW STRAIGHT LINE!
haiz.
jianzhong say draw straightline tt means part (c) also wrong le.
which means that 7 marks is GONE!
haiz.
i did think about the line..
whether is it a curve or a straightline.
but i hv no much time to think abt it..
i used EXACTLY 35 mins for the test.
haiyoo.
BUT!
despite doing so badly for my test..
i am still in a happy mood lah.

I READ JIANZHONG'S LOVE POEM!
and i laugh like mad!
the love poems are so sweeeeeeeeet!
i can't imagine jianzhong reading them.
=x
hahas.
my happy mood continued for some time..
i kept smiling to myself for no reasons and i felt like a madwoman.

haiz.

i guess good things nv last long.
during chinese lesson..
mdm lim took SO long to walk up to our class..
so during the mean time, i read the newspapers.
and eng tian suddenly asked me what time is the dismissal.
i'm not very sure..
didn't pay attention during the morning assembly.
hahas.
so i said smth like 12+ and i continued reading the newspaper..

i was thinking..
"should i ask...?"
i didn't really think thoroughly and i turned back and asked for the time of dismissal.

i guess it was a wrong move.

the response i got totally spoilt my happy mood.
i admit.
i'm upset.. totally.
haiz.
but if that's what you want..
i guess i can't do anything much.

went down to the council room during recess.
haiz.

went to the chem lab at around 10:45am.
mr ramesh wanted us to reach early so tt we can start our experiment on time.
mr ramesh kept scolding me..
=.=
first is becos i talk to ian.
ALL HIS FAULT!
he was saying why i didn't use my hands to hold the pipette.. etc etc.
then i was like "ok.. fine loh. i use hands to take.."
then mr ramesh turn back and shout at me.
=.=
then later i did my titration on the chair..
cos too SHORT mah.
then he say dunnoe what put on table more comfortable..
then ask me adjust the burette properly..
then nag at me liao.. aiyo.
hahas.

english lesson after that.
nth much.
ms lee didn't read out my planning.
=)

after that DISMISS!

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.......
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before listening compre starts..
me, kaixin and xuanwen were sitting at the corridor there talking and singing.
and xuanwen said that the song "jie kou" reminds her of the past..
and she looks sad after that.

suddenly, i feel that girls can be so weak when come to love..

LISTENING COMPRE!
during chinese lesson,
mdm lim suggests to us that we can close our eyes and it can helps to concentrate more.
i tried closing my eyes for the second passage.
i nearly fell asleep.
=.=
anyway.
overall i think the listening compre quite okay lah.
the music is so soothing.
good for sleeping.
hahas.

after that went down and saw isabelleS.
went to chit chat with them..
when i was talking abt some stuffs..
isabelle ang suddenly say "you sound so sad.. suddenly i feel like crying now.."
i was like "huh? cry for wat?"
hahas.
then i talk to kang for awhile..
suddenly, i turned and look at ang.
omgg!
why her eyes got tears de.
she's really in the going-to-cry state.
scare me sia.
luckily the tears nv drop down.
if not i sure kenna scare by her de.
hahas.
first time see isabelle ang so emo sia.

suddenly, i feel that girls can really be so weak that they can collaspe anytime when come to love..

ang went home after that.
stayed to chit chat with isabelle kang~
walk around the school and talk and talk and talk.
after that saw syahril in the council room..
he started talking abt chinese songs..
and suddenly say about the situations again.

student B is wrong to interfere the relationship between student A and C.
student B should learn to let go and let student A and C have a happy ending..

there's no homework today.
NO HOMEWORK.
it's a long time since we dun have any homework..
hahas.
miracle~
=))

i dunnoe what to do..
i said i've decided what to do..
but everything just dun go as smoothly as i thought..

the feeling of being treated like a stranger..

just like what you say..

Do whatever i like.
Live life the way i want.

does that means that you no longer care anymore..?
maybe that's what you meant.

='(

2007-07-15T17:21:00.000-07:00

Malaysia(Sabah) Trip [13/o6 - 18/o6]

went to sabah during the june holidays.
=)
i will let the pictures do the talking.
since i can't remember the details le..
hahas.

ENJOY!

[P.S. if you are not interested.
forget about reading this post..
just click the cross button on the top right hand corner. =)]

Airport/Inside aeroplane

took an aeroplane from johor to sabah. =))

the plane we took!
"AMAZING"
i find this plane real cute.
haha!

me and sis in the aeroplane. =)

taken from the aeroplane..
wow.
looks like those pictures in geography txbk.
HAHA.

i find this pic nice. =)

sunset.
N-I-C-E!
got ppl say i can send this photo for competition.
hahahas.

i took this photo secretly.
hahas.

Reached Sabah

Mt Kinabalu.
nice!

endless road..

the "Red House"?

there's a spelling mistake!

'Rangers will measure the length and WITH of the carapace for research purpose.'
length and "WITH"??
=x

nice eh?
can you feel 'peaceful-ness'?
*crapping*
hahas.

o.O
i emo-ing arh?
hahas.
i dunnoe what i'm doing also..
hahaas.

the name of the chalet!

me and my sis taking photo infront of the mirror.
hahas.
*i wore the council tee to sleep!*
=D

zi lian? =X

the key!
MG!
hahahha!

table lamp.
plus my handphone. =)

the following pictures will be CLOUDS, MOUNTAINS, etc.
not man made features.
hahas.
if you dun like then forget abt looking at the pictures.
=)

waaa. i am standing at the same level as the clouds!
=D

this picture is nice! =DD

this picture is nice too!! =)

cold~~

HOT SPRING!

Take Nothing But Photographs
Leave Nothing But Footprints (:

smoke? haze? clouds? hahahas.

Kota Kinabalu!

University Malaysia Sabah.

i saw this familiar name across the road.
永祥 (:

pumpkins. =)

i went to a hotel and i asked the reception where is the toilet.
she say second floor and she pass me this toilet key..
ehhhhs?
toilet also must lock one arh?
hahahas.

took a speed boat to one small island.

reached!

LOOK CAREFULLY!
see the guy behind?
he's struggling..
my sis managed to take a picture of it..
she thought he is just playing a fool.
i didn't even notice at all..
poor thing.
KINXING!
be more careful next time lahh.
aiyoo.
luckily 2 lifeguard saw him and went to rescue him.
hahas.
you lucky this time!

this thing saved his life.

the beach. =)

Airport

saw this interesting thing at the airport.
hahas.

the different times in different countries..

i brought my homework there to do!
pathetic.
hahahhaas.

Last picture.
............
.........
........
....

what is the HL milk thingy doing there?
saw this in johore..
when going back to singapore.
funny picture!
haha.

I'M DONE!

finally.
tired tired.
spent like 2 hours doing this.
=.=

i miss everything there!
=((
there's nothing for me to worry about at there..
i dun really look forward coming back to singapore that time..
although the feeling when i'm back is..
"i'm finally back!"
those type of feeling..
hahahaas.
but suddenly felt as if all the worries were back.
haiz.

ANYWAY!
it's good that i'm back!
hahas.
right?
luckily i'm back..
safe and sound.
hahahas.
i actually bought some sourvenirs there..
wanted to give it to some of my friends.
but it's like SO LONG ago le!
no point giving it now.
hahhahas.

ALRIGHTS.
i'll stop here.
=)

i've decided what to do le.
i'll keep on trying until you're willing to talk to me.
((:
iloveyou.

2007-07-13T22:07:00.000-07:00

宇恒 - 依然是朋友

情人节的前一天
他离开你身边
却剩下你到至今的想念
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念

直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店

才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你
你怎么说
你知道好事不是从此避开我
哦我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不在乎不再难过
我们还有好大好大的借口喔～
故事的最后
我们都不曾失去过什么

我们依然是朋友
噢～

2007-07-13T21:51:00.000-07:00

i will make this post a short one.
if possible.
hahas.
cos i'm running out of time..
=)

studied physics during morning assembly today.
mr ramesh took two mother tongue periods from mdm lim.
haizzz.
went to study physics in the council room during recess.
i managed to understand most of it!
=DD
went back to class for english.
we're supposed to do planning for 2 compos.
one of them is write about a time when you made a mistake in telling somone your secret.
the first thing i thought of is about THAT.
haiz.
during that time..
it was 不能说的秘密
i dun intend to tell anyone also.
i've made up my mind.
haiz.
but i still say out in the end..
do i regret?
till now.. i'm still wondering..

tml will be 4 months after that day..
time flies..
haiz.

had physics test after eng lesson.
i think mr tang is lying.
-.-
he said that the physics test is counted.
but i doubt lahh.
he was like saying in a joking manner.
hahahas.

went for choir practice after school.
it is supposed to start at 1:30.
but went up with sharon and jiamin at around 2.
hahas.
seniors le mah.
what time go back also can.
XD

was waiting for sharon and jiamin to finish eating in the canteen.
was GOSSIPING luhs!
hahahs.
after that went up to the music room..

i walked out of the canteen..
still thinking abt what i saw just now.
it totally strucked me.
i can't stop thinking abt what i saw.
suddenly there's a mixture of feelings..

sad?
guilty?
disappointed?
emo?
bad?
sorry?
uneasy?
terrible?

i can't describe the feeling i had.
it was uncomfortable for sure..
suddenly, i heard someone saying..

"didn't you see it CLEAR enough? aren't you supposed to be understanding? why are you always hurting ppl around you?"

i felt like a sinner.
forgive me.
:'(

miss grace came for choir practice today!
finally..
heard that she didn't come for the last few practices.
hahas.
heard every single one of them singing individually.
not bad not bad. =)
miss grace isn't as bad as i thought.
she's LAME.
totally lame.
some jokes she said were totally make ppl feel DIAO!
hahas.
but i still prefer mr chen.
i dunnoe why..
although his jokes weren't as lame as miss grace's..
but i still prefer him.
hahaha!

kang~ is SO emo today.
dun deny!
it is so obvious..
keep giving me the sad face during choir practice.
and look so moody all the time..
hahas.
cheer up girl!

went off at around 3+ and went down to the council room..
it wasn't there le.
started writing the card zhangshou asked me to write for mr goh.
i spent so much time decorating his name!
=.=
went home after that..

hmmms.
adonis was so frustrated just now.
he told me about some stuffs..
thanks for telling me anyway. =)
hope you can get over it soon.
sorry. i can't give you any solutions..
stay happy!
hahas.
anyway. he asked me something..

"who is ur closest friend?"

suddenly. i'm stucked.
i've no idea what to say..
come to think of that..
i dun hv closest friend or so called 'best' friend..
i hang out with different ppl at different times..
who is my closest friend..?
who do i always hang out with..?
who will i tell if i have any troubles..?
i can't answer them.
i can name a few ppl but there's no specific person in my mind.
hahas.
felt so pathetic.
hahaaha.
in fact, i didn't want to hv any 'closest' friend or 'best' friend..
isn't it better to hv many good friends instead?
hahas.
i will never want to have closest friend or best friend..
unless that person is ________.
i only want him/her to be my best friend..
=)

found out that HE actually hv feelings for someone else.
kind of surprised.
a few weeks ago..
he is still thinking of her..
and now he's thinking of someone else.

conclusion: feelings change faster than anything else.

okay.
i'll stop here.
byee! =)

confused.
i have no idea what was happening..
things change faster than the rate singapore is changing..
haiz.

am i transparent to you?
why did everything become like that..
haiz.
is that what you want?
if that is what you want.. tell me.
i'll cooperate with you.
and treat you as if you were transparent as well.
='(

1 week was gone just like that.
i guess i haven't fully recovered.

i'd rather you hate me.

2007-07-12T23:07:00.000-07:00

today is a tiring day for me..
actually this whole week is tiring.
stay back everyday and came back home with lots of homework needed to be done.
haiz..
yesterday didn't blog due to shortage of time also.
hahas.
i shall blog abt what happened after sch yesterday.

11/o7/o7

had geog remedial after school.
after remedial..
actually wanted to go home.
but syahril say go council room first.
so went in and realised that nobody is inside..
they all went for the "sex talk".
hahas.
so on the air-con and started doing some homework.
after awhile.
we were like scribbling on the whiteboard..
then came in two sec ones.
hahas.

woan ting and si zhen.

hahahas.
and we started gossiping?
HAHA.
hmmmmmmmmms.
they actually knew A LOT eh.
hahaas.
but not as much as i know.
=DD
hahas. then i started asking them stupid questions..
like "who do you think is the most handsome/prettiest in the council?"
hahaha!
i know that's lame..
but they're sec ones you see.
they just join the council..
so i must hear some OPINIONS from them.
hahahaha!
then woan ting suddenly say there's this guy in sec 4 quite handsome.
i was like "EHHHH? who??!"
hahahas.
so we went out to look at the noticeboard full of pictures..
and she pointed to us which guy is that.
"OoooOooooooOoooo.."
hahahaha!
ok. i know le. =)

after that saw melissa and clifton outside council room dunnoe do what.
maybe melissa came to look for yongsiang?
hahas.
dunnoe.
then went back to the council room and continue talking.
hahas.
suddenly, THEY came back from the sex talk thingy.
the council room suddenly became so noisy.
ahahs.
then i heard joel laughing like mad.
and he asked us to read the paper..
hahaaha!

after that more and more ppl left.
suddenly only left me, issac, andy and syahril inside the council room.
others dunnoe go where.
hahas.
we were like joking all the way.
talking abt stupid stuffs like PMS.
=.=
syahril kept saying that he got STAINS on his shirt.
HOW COME IT END UP ON HIS SHIRT?!!
hahaahas.
and we started talking nonsense..
HAHA.
some things are better not to say here.
later dirty my blog.
hahahas.
but we really laugh like mad!!
and syahril still look so calm.
=.=
laugh until i stomach pain..
so i suddenly got serious and ask syahril to stop talking craps.
issac said i look scary that time.
-.-
hahahs.

12/o7/o7

today was super tiring.
i dunnoe why.
slept at 1+ last night.
still okay mah.
somemore this morning slept till quite late.
haiz.
today's morning assembly is LONG!
the teachers had their photo shoot and we were like nothing to do?
hahas.
i spend those time studying for my e.maths mock paper.
and isaiah got frustrated cos i didn't want to tell him how i know his bro.
hahaha!
when i was studying for my e.maths..
i suddenly heard someone calling my name.
i turned back.
EHHHS? what is melissa and issac doing?!!
LOL!
they doing nth lahh.
hahas.
but i dunnoe what melissa is trying to tell me..
can't hear clearly..
so i keep huh huh huh then she keep nth nth nth.
hhahas.
then qingning talk nonsense to me also.
=.=

ss test was alrights.
no pe today. =((
went down to council room during recess.
did nothing in particular.
hahas.

are you angry?
=((

went for photoshoot after physics lesson.
HOHO.
i'm so SHORT!
hahahhas.
sit beside chen min again!
last year de photo shoot i also sit beside her.
hahahhaa!

after sch did the maths mock paper.
i got so stressed up after doing the second question.
i nearly cry on the spot man.
got so frustrated suddenly.
dunnoe what happen.
maybe is becos very tired loh.
esp. during english lesson.
hahas.
after i cancel away all my working for question 2..
i start on qn 3 le.
totally no mood liao.
i dun even care abt the time management le.
i just do watever i can.
i even plan not to do the last question liao.
confirm no time de.
but mr goh dunnoe why keep saying must finish the whole paper.
hahas.
seems like he can see through my mind.
hahaha!

after finish marking the paper..
went home with chen min.

haiz.
i said bye to you.
i waved at you.
but you treated me like a stranger.
='(

anyway, you've been treating me like a stranger nowadays.
haiz..

i will still smile no matter wat.

okay. BYE PEEPS!
nites. =)

2007-07-10T19:28:00.000-07:00

i've tried my very best le..
but i guess it wasn't enough.
you just dun give a damn abt it.
but i know i can't just stop there..
so i continued to try my best and smile.
haiz.
i hope that helps..

slept at 1+ last night..
to complete my homework.
=.=
i wasn't late for school today!
although NEARLY.
hahas.

lessons were alright.
hahas.
did english/chem during recess.
syahril played that cd again..
=.=
make the whole atmosphere like so damn emo loh.
can't stand it!
wanted to off it de..
but later they thought i attitude..
hahas.
in the end yongsiang went to off it.
(i bet he can't tahan also. hahas)
so he is the one attitude-ing.
not me.
hahahaha!

chemistry lesson felt very tired.
felt like sleeping.. -.-
upper sec assembly today.
hoho.
it ended around 2:38 for the sec 4s.
my sis is complaining.
=.=

had chem practical after school.
hahas.
mr ramesh want us to do on OUR own.
but the catalyst one i totally hv no idea how to do.
so i was asking isaiah.
then he ask me to shut up.
=.=
then i ask ian.
he refused to help me.
HAIZ.
then when huiling walking past my bench to put the distilled water.
i asked her.
and i jia jia go return my distilled water also.
then we stand at the distilled water area discussing abt it.
HAHA.
then when i went back to my bench..
isaiah was shouting for his distilled water.
hahaahaha!
then i told him that i put back le.
=p

after the chem practical.
which is like 5+ le.
then went to finish up my english compre corrections.
hahas.
went out of school with yongsiang, syahril and matthias.
but yongsiang went to look for melissa and matthias take cab go home.
saw derek and mrs zahri on the way.
hahas.
then syahril say want go ABC buy drinks..
walk for so long then he say he dun want.

walked the mrt route..
and syahril kept complaining about ______..
=.=
so i gave him the huiling example.
HAHA.
i asked whether he will do the same thing as what ys did if the girl was huiling.
then he say "of cos lahh"
so i was like "then you still complain for what??"
hahas. then he diam diam liao.

cross the road and realised that my sis was walking in the opposite direction.
hahas!
didnt notice her at all..
she saw me and she thought i go somewhere else..
lol!
then dunnoe how come yongsiang opposite there also.
=.=
after that they went the other way le.

bye! =D

i listened to you.
i tried my best to be cheerful.
i hope you can see it..

2007-07-09T19:01:00.000-07:00

Student Council Investiture [29/o6]

not going to type much things abt the investiture..
since i've already talk abt it le.
hahas.
will post ALL photos taken on that day.
(according to the time de)

ENJOY~

BEFORE SCI

gracia, me, manik and zulaikha.
=.=
manik purposely give that stupid face.
hahas.
(sec 1s to 3s practising the song behind us)

SYAHRIL IN ACTION!
hahas.

NASH.
he SNATCHED the camera from me and took a pic of himself.
=.=
SUPER ZI LIAN!!

SEC 4S!
(without yongsiang, adonis and manik)

syahril is acting cool again.
=.=

syahril posing.

nicolette!
i forgot to off the flash.
that's why the mirror got the flash flash thingy.
hahas.
paiseh paiseh.

GOTCHA!
the YS - es.
hahas.
the timing is so RIGHT!
i press the button then yongsiang suddenly look at my direction.
haha! =)
talk what secret nv tell me.
=.=

the PIANO!
nice ehhs?
but like not good enough..
too common liao.
hahas.
P.S. that's gracia's hand! =)

DURING SCI

ZULAIKHA and MANIK!
i wonder why they like to pose so much.
haha!

ALL THE SEC 4S! (without me)
hahas!
waiting for our turn to perform our item.
we rocked! =D
(i love ZULAIKHA's pose! HAHA.)

AFTER SCI

SEC TWOS!
some were missing.
ppl like MELISSA.
dunnoe where she go.
=.=
hahas.
actually there's only 6 ppl like that.
suddenly all the sec 2s come together..
so ask them take photo loh.
haha!

manik and nash.
manik purposely give that stupid face again.
=.=
he really like to ACT man.
no wonder he helped the drama to attain a gold award for syf.
hahas.

THREE sec 2s + TWO sec 4s.
hahas.

hmmmms. what is qiwei doing in school tt time?
hahas.
that time he stayed back and play basketball i think.
so syahril wanted to take a picture with him.
then i was like "syahril look so short beside qiwei.."
so he requested qiwei to squat a bit.
haha!

the council room!

some graduated councillors + syahril.
=D

[WELCOME '2' OP. STUDENT COUNCIL.]

reflection on the mirror.
not zi lian kay!
hahas.

GRACIA'S FLOWER.
she claimed that it was from her mother.
hahas.
she so bad sia..
her mother gave her flower then she put on the table and leave it there.
tsk tsk tsk.
haha!

[Welcome To The 3rd Orchid Park Student Councillor Investiture]
(i thought shld be 'council'? hahas.)

syahril and me doing stupid actions.
hahas.

syahril did this!
=.=
draw till so ugly.
ruin yongsiang's reputation.
hahas.

syahril blocking. =.=

the noticeboard outside council room.
with pictures of US.
=DD

another noticeboard outside council room.
this one is damn nice!
they go burn the paper and make it very nice!
the handwriting very nice alsoo!
but sad.
dun have my name.
haha!
can't see very clearly.. got reflection.
haiz.

justin and issac.
it took them a LONG time to take this picture sia.
keep thinking of pose..
then whenever i want to take they suddenly move.
=.=
and ISSAC..
you dun look natural in this pic also!

you are like forcing urself not to laugh.
hahaha!

zulaikha say she is acting cute in this picture.
hahas!

Last picture of the day...
.............
.........
.......
....
...

me and Yee Suan! =D

2007-07-09T18:00:00.000-07:00

uh hur.
i was late for school today.
-.-
how unlucky can i get?
hahas.
yesterday did homework and talk on the phone till 3am.
was teaching syahril chinese songs.
=.=
he asked me to come to sch early today to hear him SING.
i was like okay loh..
i also need to do my chem practical wksht.
hahas.
he gave me a morning call at 6:14am.
i didn't answer.
then he sms me and ask me to wake up.
hahas. i replied "okok. thanks."
AND I WENT BACK TO SLEEP!

after 'awhile'.
i woke up and look at my phone..

7:18am.

'wa. so late liao arh.'
then i woke up and slowly walk to the toilet..
someone was inside.
so i went back to my room and planning to sleep for awhile more.
when i was walking back to my room..
i was thinking..

"7:18... 7:18..."
".................."
" HUH?!!! 7:18 ALREADY??!!!!!"

i rushed to my room and look at my phone.

7:20am.

OH SHIT!
CONFIRM + CHOP CHOP CHOP SURE LATE DE!
totally sian diao tt time.
haiz.
quickly pack bag..
and after finish packing my bag.

7:25am.

THAT'S IT!
haiz.
walked out of my house at around 7:48am.
was rushing..
cos after 8 reach school is considered as VERY LATE.
so around 7:56am reach school.
was queuing up to get SIP.
siannn.
then mr naufal say dun have my name..
need to go office take the slip of paper.
i was like "HUH?!"
that time 8:05 liao leh!!
later the office ppl thought i very late.
but in the end i still manage to 'convince' them that i came at arnd 7:55.
not after 8. hahas.

got 1 hr of SIP.
=.=
at first mr naufal wanted to give me 4 days SIP one.
hahas.
he sort of gave me lecture lahh.

"no more a councillor then can be late?"
"step down already then can be late?"

haiz.
i got nth to say.
i late mahh. so everything he say also right loh.
hahas.
1 hr actually very little.
last year first time late then mr goh make me stay till 5+..
=.=
i still remember i hv some bad memories with mr naufal tt time.
haiz.
hahas.

lessons were alright today.
surprisingly.
i'm not tired!
not at all.
hahas.
today's lessons were not that boring lahh. =))

lost without you...?
haiz.
i dunnoe.
='(

anyway.. people like..
ISAIAH
YUANLIN
HUILING
GRACIA
and ETC.
....
all say i purposely want to be late de.
-.-
FOR WAT?
SIP is a total waste of time.
but they insist that i purposely want to be late to get SIP today..
haiyo.
it was just COINCIDENCE lahh!
arghhhhhhhh.
and i actually wanted friday!
cos i know that maybe today will hv remedial..
but mr naufal ask "why dun want today?"
then i "haiz. anything loh.."
he BIG mah.
must listen to him..
hahas.

went for SIP after school.
copy the punctuality thing AGAIN.
i copied before le..
at least give me some new stuffs to copy mah.
hahas!
copy till halfway that teacher ask some ppl to help her do stuffs.
do for 1+ hour.
=.=
my SIP 1 hour only leh!
hahas.
after finish doing stuffs for her..
she say "oh yah! you all only hv 1 hour SIP right? i'm sorry i'm sorry!"
then after that she say we work OT.
=.=
hahas.

went home with syahril after that.

tata!

2007-07-07T14:39:00.000-07:00

周蕙 - 该忘了你对不对

作词: 陈宏宇
作曲: 谢布暐
编曲: 谢景麒

大雨过后的眼泪
挂在充满回忆的橱窗
我却不想忘以往
那些心碎的心创

记忆是一个行囊
陪伴着我到世界流浪
我让悲伤都装上翅膀
再见了就不能倔强

该忘了你对不对
怕自己无法面对
无怨无悔
把一切留给纪念
受过沉默的创伤
它会慢慢被岁月
一片片填满
渐渐就习惯不再想
忘记曾经最痛的地方

该忘了你对不对
我应该坚强面对
学会遗忘
不能像爱的挣扎
记忆会为我收藏
那些美丽时光
为爱付出过的力量
带着爱去寻找
幸福的希望

2007-07-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

nth much today.
as usual..
i was chionging to school..
although i woke up early today.
hahas.
you know.. girls LOVE to take their own sweet time to do things.
=)

assembly was rather okay today..
didn't know what happened.
cos i dun pay attention during morning assembly de.
hahas.

yongsiang was late today.
at first i see one guy putting down his striking green bag very familiar..
but i looked away.
after 2 secs..
i realised that it was HIM.
i was like "ehhhs. yongsiang late leh."
then at the same time, nash also turned back and say "yongsiang late sia.."
hahas.
then nash say luckily he stepped down already.
no more a councillor..
if not the punishment will not be so simple le.
hahas.
then we started discussing about coming to school late and stuffs.
after around 3 mins.
jerren disturb me again.
=.=
he was like saying "ming gui.. yongsiang there leh."
he pointed at the area where he will always be sitting during assembly.
which is near linxiang there.
then i was like..
"HAHA. trying to bluff me arhh. he late loh.. what there.. there ur head!"
then he was like "AIYAH!"
hahahas.
want to bluff ppl also dun check first.
=.=

chinese lessons were okay.
kept on laughing. hahas.
but during the second period.. felt extremely unwell.
then started to be moody liao.
totally no mood at all.
then during maths lesson dun feel good also.
haiz.
then from physically not feeling well change to mentally stress.
totally stressed up lah.
mr goh go through homework V1.
but i still dun really understand..
or shld i say i wasn't paying much attention when he was explaining.
then he move on to V2 and V3.
he asked us to try some questions.
and i did NONE correctly!
the worse thing is i can't even get an answer.
i finish drawing the diagram i was stuck!
felt so damn stress that time.
i can't do ANY of the vectors question..
it's like..
haiz. forget it.
felt super stress.
chemistry mr ramesh also going very fast.
can't abosorb that much.
physics mr tang explained but i dun understand.
a.maths i can't do those questions and that's it man.
geog i understand but i feel that there were lots of things to memorise.
felt superb stress..
haiz.

recess went to the council room to copy out the eng essay.
cos i asked chen min to edit for me again this morning.
copied out and i went to lie on the sofa.
and i felt so restless.
i'm mentally tired.
i really need some rest..
but i know i can't have any rest.
prelims are coming and i ought to do smth abt it.
haiz.

you will never understand until it happens to you.
you will never know the kind of stress a sec 4 student is dealing with until you are a sec 4 student.
i'm mentally tired. =((

after school was doing homework in the council room.
cos oral only starts at 2pm.
open up my a.maths txbk and i tried those questions again.
haiz.
still can't do it.
it's not as if i didn't try.. i did try those questions again.
but can't do it means can't do it.
haiz.

felt super tired of a.maths.. so decided to go walk around the sch.
saw ANG and talked to her.
wells, i tried all my means to make her tell me whose that guy..
but she didn't want to say.
=.=
she did give me some clues..
hahas. and somehow..
just now, i guessed it. =)
i'll clarify with her on monday. hahas.
she also tell me stuffs about HIM and HIM.
2 HIMS. haha.
hmmmms.
i can understand why she doesn't like HIM.
hahas.
cos i will also have the same feeling if i was her.
this kind of guys.. not good.
she made the right choice. =)

went for oral after that.
i was so nervous and worried.
somemore the teachers were TWO MALE TEACHERS.
felt extremely insecure.
HAHA.
when it was my turn..
i was like HAIZ.
gave the D&T teacher my entry proof and IC.
he was the timer.
then i wasn't really listening to what he was saying.
so i just flipped over the paper.
then he say he haven't start the timer yet..
then ask me to relax.
hahas.
was given 5 mins to read.
hmmmms. wasn't an easy passage.
hahas.

FINALLY.
after kaixin.. it was my turn to go.
i walked to the 2 male teachers and said good afternoon to them.
I SMILED.
since mdm lim says that the first impression is very impt. hahas.
i'm expecting a smile from them as well!
but they gave me the serious look and ask me to sit down.
=.=
so i sian diao..
hahas.
read the passage..
i think it was one of the best passage i hv ever read.
cos i TRIED very hard.
i keep telling myself it will be the last chance for me to read that passage.
i can't try again le.
so somehow i think i express it in the right way.
the most expressive passage i've ever read.
hahas.
but i think i was rushing all the way..
sian.
then when one of the teachers was reading the conversation question to me.
suddenly my IC flew off!
the wind too big le.
hahas.
wanted to stand up and take.
but the other teacher went to take instead.
hahahhas.

i did rather badly for my conversation.
i kept repeating the same thing..
and i dun really hv much things to say.
i only hv like 2 points???
that's like so little lah.
sian.
=(((

after oral went down to council room to do hw.
got AIR-CON. =D
then was helping amos with his chem hw.
writing equations and balancing them.
it's like so easy for me now.
but i'm struggling so hard last year.
=.=

went home with syahril at around 5+.
we were talking about boy bands.
he said he doesn't like backstreet boys becos they were popular..
-.-

haiz.
have lots of homework.
STRESS AHHH! ='(

okay. i'll stop here.
bye peeps!

P.S. you are advised not to read the things below..
unless you think that they were for you.
and i won't attend to any questions being asked about those words below.

thank you..

My last words for you:

thanks for being honest with me.
thanks for giving me an answer.
thanks for letting me move on..

i will say it for the last time.
"pretend that we didn't tell each other anything."
i guess that's what you want as well.
i will treat everything that had happened as nothing.
i will not make them as 'promises'.
i will just treat them as nothing.
i'll pretend nothing had happened.

including the msg you send me on 14/o3/o7.

i'll take it as a wrong choice you've made.
i'll take it as something you shouldn't hv said that time.
i'll take it as you said that for fun.
i'll take it as you dun mean what you say at all.

i won't take them seriously anymore.
maybe like that you will feel that you hv lesser commitments.

you are free now.
you can do watever you want to do.
i'll take everything you've said before as jokes..
except for the one you sent today.

o6/o7/o7 - 9:31PM.

i will pretend nothing had happened..
this will be the last time i'll write how i feel here.
it will be the last time..

thanks again for giving me an answer.
since i chose to move on.. you should too.
let's move on and pretend nth had happened.
take it as you've made the wrong choice..
now i give you one more chance..
i'll pretend you didn't say anything.
i will treat the promises as nothing.
just remember to think before you do next time.
dun make the wrong choice again le.

i'll treat them as nothing..

all the best to you.

lastly,
thanks for the memories.
thanks for everything that you've done.

let this be the last episode..

.......
.....
....
...
..
.

THE END.

2007-07-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

moodless.

i am super tired now.
so i will make this post as short as possible.
hahas.

lessons were okay lah.
but this time round..
i felt like sleeping during mr goh's lesson.
i dun have the mood to listen at all.
maybe i'm tired of distance, acceleration and velocity all that liao.
i had enough of kinematics.
HAHA.
i wonder how will i do for the coming maths test..
i dun even have interest on that chapter.
haiz.
but no interest also need to study.
haha!

during pe lesson.
me, huiling, jinghang and ian did stupid things.
me and huiling sit inside the basket (put balls de basket) and jinghang, ian carried the basket.
LOL.
kind of fun actually.
but is SUPER LAME.
hahas.

had chem practical after school.
hahas.
i was doing the titration then jasper suddenly talk to me.
in the end my solution become RED.
AHHHHHH. should be orange de!
OVERSHOT!
arghhhhh.
hahas.

after chem remedial.. went for the 2.4km run.
it's tiring you know.
sian.
reached there around 4+ and started running.
i was prepared to retake liao.
that was how i feel during that time..
cos on monday.
me and my sis went to run at yishun stadium.
(practise my 2.4)
in the end i ran for 2 rounds and i cannot make it liao.
i stopped.
hahas.
after around 15mins.
went to run 1 and a half more rounds.
was DYING!
felt extremely unwell after running 2 +1.5 rounds.
walk for awhile need to sit down and rest again.
felt extremely extremely unwell.
i was wondering how i survive running 6 rounds when i'm in THIS condition!
haiz.

BUT!
but but but but..
miracle happened. =)
it was really miracle.
i passed my 2.4km run..
i ran 6 rounds without stopping.
MY GOODNESS.
FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.
i couldn't believe it also.
hahas.

when i started running..
i was like running a bit behind yuanlin..
and after running for just HALF a round.
i tired le.
hahahas.
but can't stop!
so i kept running..
after finish running first round.
WAAA. TIRED!
but continued running..
more and more ppl ran past me.
ppl like yidi and gracia they all.
hahahahs.
continued running... was jogging actually.
getting slower and slower.
actually wanted to stop after the 2nd round de.
but i continued jogging..
jessica was behind me all the while.
actually i wanted to let her take over me de.
she running behind me i feel so stress sia.
NCC leh.
very fit de.
dun play play.
haha!
then i forgot is 3rd round or 4th round..
she suddenly stop sia!
it motivates me to continue running.
=DDD

in fact,
after every round..
i will tell myself.
okay, after this round then stop for awhile.
hahas.
i kept telling myself that..
hahas.
but in the end i didn't stop at all.
=))
i thought at least can get D or smth.
but i was so disappointed when i check the board..
i got E sia.
somemore pass by 5 secs only.
SIAN!!!
first time i run 2.4 nv stop.
in the end only pass by 5 secs.
disappointed disappointed.
but i didn't stop at all!
that's why i'm still happy after finish running 2.4.
=DD
i dun really mind getting bronze again this year..
although bronze is like.. not very nice. hahas.
but there's achievements!
hahas.
we shouldn't compete with others but ourselves.
=)
i kept telling myself "determination! perseverance!"
hahas.
i keep reminding myself that..
cos this 2 words are very important. =)

while i was running the 2.4
i kept hearing ppl shouting "YONGSIANG! JIAYOU!"
=.=
i run on the other side also can hear ppl shout so loud.
waaa. yongsiang really got fans sia.
so many supporters..
every time run past CONFIRM got ppl shout his name de.
hear until i sian.
hahahahaa!

wanted to thanks some people who make a difference in my timing.
1)MYSELF. hahas!
2) adonis.
3) shimin.
4) jessica.

i hope i didnt miss anyone out.
hahas.

thanks MYSELF for keep reminding myself the 2 words.
perseverance and determination. =)

thanks ADONIS for running with me during the last round.
i think he make the most difference out of all.
he was WALKING beside me and i was jogging.
same speed.
hahas.
he kept saying jiayou but i didn't say anything.
cos i no breath to talk.
i was DYING during that time.
hahas.
then he say dunnoe run till where then sprint.
so i sprint with him loh.
but for a short distance only.
i cannot tahan.
but that sprint make lots of difference!
if nv sprint i think i will fail by a few seconds.
THANKS LOTS!
hahas.

thanks SHIMIN as well!
she super bian tai.
run past me then drag me along.
i was like dying le..
i think that was during 4th or 5th round.
i was jogging slowly.
she suddenly run beside me and DRAG me!
i was like being pulled by her!
hahas.
no choice but to run same speed as her..
but after that she stop le.
=.=
hahas.
but still thanks a lot!
if you nv drag me during that time maybe i will also fail by a few seconds.
hahas.

thanks JESSICA for stopping after 3rd or 4th round.
HAHAS.

i also wanna thanks the following ppl:
1) mr ng.
2) zalikha and hedessa.
3) isabelle kang, samantha and peeps.

for encouraging and cheering for me during the 2.4km run.
i hope i didn't miss anyone out.
hahas.
was extremely touched when mr ng said "jiayou".
although it was just a "jiayou"..
it somehow motivated me lah.
the expression on his face that time.
i can feel that he is really saying that from his HEART..
and not just anyhow say de.
and not just say for the sake of saying it..
hahas.

THANKS TO THOSE PEOPLE!
=DD

i've learnt that sometimes..
small little thing can actually make a big difference.

hahas.
it was just a 2.4km run and i say so much stuffs.
hahas.
went back with huiling after that.
talked about oral and stuffs.
then saw yuanlin and gracia on the way.
talked abt oral also.
hahas.
huiling went off after that.
me, yuanlin and gracia talked about relationships.
break, patch-up and all those stuffs.
hahas.
and we came out with some conclusions..

1) it will be better for girls to say break.
becos usually girls will hurt more than guys during a break-up.

2) if girls sense that something is wrong..
the guy is hinting you for a break.
girls better say break before guys say it.
in order not to get too hurt.

3) if guys/girls say smth like "there's some resistance between us.."
you can answer "yah. air resistance."

4) if guys/girls say smth like "wo men fen shou bah"
you can answer "our hands are not together how to fen shou?"

ETC ETC.

we're just talking abt some nonsense along the way back to school.
hahas.

went home with the councillors.
but jiaen and yongjie seemed to be walking infront of us.
maybe they wanna be alone?
hahahahas.

OKAY!
i haven't started on my hw yet.
so byee! =)

i will wait till you give me an answer.
my handphone will be beside me all the time.
feel free to tell me whenever you want.

i will stay put until i was given an answer..
then i'll move on.

actually, i knew the answer all this while.
but i still ask becos i want you to tell me personally.
i dun want to have any doubts..
i wanted to see/hear it with my own eyes/ears..
only like that then i can accept the fact.
then i'm willing to move on.

so please let me move on with my life.
i wanted to move on..
no matter what the answer is..
i promise i'll be able to accept it.

waiting...

2007-07-04T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmmmmms.
today not really a good day for me bah.
i'm feeling much more worse than yesterday.
haiz.

feeling so sian in class.
except for maths lesson..
cos at least got chen min talk to me.
hahas.
other lessons all so boring de.
hahahha.
and i have not finish my homework K2 and K3!!
haiz. sian.
this chapter is really difficult and confusing lah.
they said that relative velocity will be much much more difficult.
SIANNN.
how i survive liddat?
haiz.

had napfa test after school.
at first i dun hv group de.
then kelly saw me..

kelly: hey! we still got one more space.. you want join?
me: okay loh.
kelly: you dun bluff lah! you got group le right?
me: dun have lahh. i bluff you for what..
kelly: dun bluff lah! have group already still say dun have..
me: =.=

no matter how hard i tried to CONVINCE her that i really dun hv a group..
she still dun believe.
ahhaahha!
so forget it!
i go find other ppl.
HAHA.
but they all have groups liao.
so i went back to find kelly..
finally she believe le!
HAHAHA.

1st station: SIT UPS.
very xing ku.
trying to bear with the muscle pain.
heard the teacher say 10 seconds left then i quickly chiong to 31.
hahahhas.

2nd station: STANDING BROAD JUMP.
sian loh.
last year dunnoe jump how many times then can get C.
this year 1st try 2nd try E.
suan le.

3rd station: SIT AND REACH.
hahahhas.
mr goh teach us the method to CHEAT.
so when i was doing the station..
shimin is trying to help me CHEAT.
but we end up laughing like siao.
and i took a long time to 'settle down'.
then i think the teacher fed-up.
HAHA.

4th station: SHUTTLE RUN.
eeyer.
didnt get A.
HAIZ.
this is the only station i can score.
hahas.
got B.
suan le!
basketball court is not a good place to run.
hahahhas.
and yongsiang kept disturbing ppl leh.
when WEIXIN running.. he said "ian!"
AND SHE FELL!
hahahahahhas.
i mean not really fell lah.
just tripped or smth.
hahahs.

5th station: INCLINED PULL UP.
waaaa.
this one i always aim pass de.
hahas.
then dunnoe why this year so weird..
like no need to straighten arms de.
hahas.
i did TEN.
unbelievable.
=)

emo boy is so EMO during napfa test today.
ehhhs. cheer up!

went back to council room after the napfa test.
was trying to solve a sec 3 e.maths question.
spent SO LONG to think of the solution.
=.=
if that question comes out during o level.
i think i will be wasting a lot of time thinking abt it.
hahas.

went home with yongsiang and syahril after that.
they came up with a EVIL plan.
haiz.
only know how to bully me..
haha!

had lots of homework today.
ahhhhhhh.
i shall go and complete them now.
bye ppl!
=D

whenever i smile..
something will suddenly came into my mind.
and my smile will fade away..

maybe it really affects me this time.
i can't help it.
haiz.

i'll let you go.
='(

2007-07-03T18:38:00.000-07:00

hoho.
i haven't post the pictures taken during SCI and my overseas trip which is long long time ago le.
hahas.
maybe will post it later.. if i got online. =)

lets talk abt what happened in school today.
i was NEARLY late.
late for a few more seconds and i will need to stand during morning assembly le.
which will be so dui lian.
haha!!
actually woke up at normal time today.
around 6:30am..
although i set alarm at 6.
hahas.
at 6am.. i suddenly feel vibration from my phone.
then i was thinking.. "ooo. finally reply le arh. i waited for so long.."
then i look at the time. 6AM LE!!!
HAHA.
then i saw one new message.
1:48am.
ohhhh die le. i fell asleep. hahas.

actually 7:10 leaving house liao.
but suddenly forgot to take keys.
so ask my mum to get for me.
but she can't find it.
so i waited for nothing..
then i suddenly rmb i forgot to take the skirt and return it to gracia.
but late liao.
So didn't go take.
LUCKILY.
gracia didn't come to school today. hahas.
was rushing and rushing to school.
i put my bag down then zhun zhun the bell rang.
hahas.
after morning assembly.
ms soo asked those who are not seated down before the 7:25 bell to STAND UP.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

why must it be today!!!
arghhhhhh.
then i got so anxious and i keep asking derek whether i need to stand or not.
suddenly got so scared.
then derek say i no need.
but jerren they all keep asking me to stand.
then i was like stand? or dun stand?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
was going crazy that time.
then i think back..
when the 7:25 bell rang.
actually i'm still standing de.
i just reached.
put down my bag only..
after the bell then i sit down de.
hahas.
but what ms soo meant should be those still strolling into the parade square when the bell rang.
hahahhahas.
so i dunnoe need to stand or not.
and the only person i can ask is MS LEE.
i look at her.
she not looking at my direction..
so dun think she was waiting for me to stand bah.
so FORGET IT!
hahas.
dun stand!!
hahahhahas.
but jerren so noisy leh. keep asking me to stand..
make me so nervous.
=.=

lessons today were rather ok lahh.
eng tian walked into the classroom and asked "why you look so moody.."
-.-
I MOODY MEH.
hahas.
so i said i was tired loh.
hahas.
then the whole day feel kind of....
dunnoe how to say.
i kept thinking about stuffs.
and make my heart sank a lot of times.
haiz.
but there's nth i can do..
=(

had the international maths competition thing after school.
spend like 10mins on one question in the end i got NO ANSWER.
wasted my precious 10 mins!
sian diao.
haiz.

went home with yongsiang, syahril and chen min after that.
the end.
=)

haiz.
i'll let you go...

是你的就是你的
不是你的强求也没用.
='(

2007-07-02T22:20:00.000-07:00

haiz.

the feeling is back..
i should be prepared for all these..
but in fact.
i'm not prepared.
that's why i'm so saddened by it.
haiz.

i guess.. they weren't for me.

~~i guess~~ yupps. they weren't for me.

felt so hurt.
leave me alone.

2007-07-01T21:57:00.000-07:00

i am so lazy.
i haven't started on my homework yet.
ahhhhhh!
then syahril ask me whether i want to go jogging tml or not.
actually i also wanted to go jogging.
and surprisingly, syahril they all jogging at stadium also. =.=
haha!
i think i better go somewhere else.
hahas.
anyway. i'm very lazy de.
i wonder if i can wake up early in the morning tml to go jog.
haha.
it is kind of last min lah.
next week napfa test liao then go jog tml.
hahahha.
i think my gold fly away le.
dun even need to think about silver also.
last year i got bronze just becos of 2.4KM RUN!
one station 1 point and you can say bye bye to your silver and gold.
lols!
the last time i got gold is like primary 6?
hahas.
last year of my primary school life.
=)
will i get gold again for my last year of secondary school life?

let fate decides. :)

sometimes, i believe miracles do happen.
hahas.
last week went for health checkup.
and MIRACLE happened.
i didn't have to change my specs.
miracle eh?
hahas.
i can't really see properly when i'm sitting at the back of the classroom.
and some things just look so blur from far away.
but i actually read quite a lot of letters during the checkup.
i wonder why..
maybe is becos of the position of the chair?
HAHA.
when i went to sit on the chair to check my eyesight.
i actually sat down and PUSH IN THE CHAIR!
that's what i always do in class wad.
so the nurse was like "dun move the chair!"
then i realised that i shouldn't move it.
so i was like "paiseh paiseh".
then i move back the chair a bit.
HAHA.
then i read like 5 lines.. WHICH IS QUITE A LOT.
hahas.
then went to check the backbone all that.
the nurse scold me sia.
suan le.
forget it.. so fierce.
hahas.

miracles do happen.
it is just whether we want to believe it or not. :)

anyway. HAPPY YOUTH DAY!
hahas.
i remember when i was young..
children's day is always a day i look forward to.
becos we got presents from teachers..
and there's a children's day performance for us to watch!
=D
thinking of those days..
kids nowadays are really living a good life.
they must really treasure their life now..
life from secondary school onwards won't be good for every single child.

people tends to think more when they become mature.
people tends to become more mature when they think more.
the more they think, the more they will realise that life is difficult.
it isn't as wonderful as they thought.

but nevertheless, enjoy life as much as you can now! :)

ALRIGHTS!
i'll stop here.
thanks for reading.
it has come to an end.
tata~ =D

girl, i doubt your words.
you're hurting him.
you claimed that he hurt you without realising it.
but do you know that you're hurting him as well?
all you care is just HE HURT YOU.
and that's all.
in fact,
i'm changing my impression i used to have on you.
you used to be an understanding girl i know.
but now, you've changed.
he had never treat you as a toy.
but you're treating him as one now..
by treating his feelings for you like NOTHING.
you can't feel it so you thought it didn't exist.

it's just like..
he is standing infront of you.
trying to love you with all he can.
but you closed your eyes..
and said that he doesn't love you.

what a joke.

P.S. anyway. there are lots of people who care for you.
if you care for them as well.. then stop making them worried.
you can't be so selfish..

think about it.

2007-06-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

choir farewell performance/concert [19/o6]

it was like so long ago..
so i'll try to recall as many things as possible kay?
paiseh paiseh.
hahas.

i remember i was kind of tired that day.
just came back from singapore around 12+.
then evening need to go school le.
hahas.
but i didn't sleep when i'm back.
hahas. spend the time online-ing and trying to finish the choir fund stuffs.
in the end i brought the choir fund but forgot to pass to isabelle kang.
=.=

hahas. have loads of fun during the performance!
laugh like madwoman!
hahas.
from the 1st group perform laugh till the last group perform still laughing.
hahas. they are supposed to act i think..
although they can't act as good as those DRAMA ppl..
their acting skills can't get GOLD for syf..
but i guess they tried their best lah.
hahas.
at least they made the seniors laugh. =D

i'll post the photos taken that night..
some are the performances photos.
some are taken after the performance night.

ENJOY~! =DD

performances

sacrifices are necessary when comes to acting.
and how sad.. cheesheng and kang~ are the ones who sacrifice.
THEY HOLD-ED HANDS!
whoots!
cheers for them!
ahhahahhas!!
what a GOLDEN picture. =DD
[the front girl is zhenhua. hahas.]

the second performance.
it made me laugh like mad too!
jiahao is acting as mr chen.
he imitates him..
hahas.
not bad.. he can really scold man.
hahas.
fierce enough.. good good. haha!

i simply love this pic!!
HE LOOK SO COOL WHEN PLAYING THE PIANO!
hahas.
he can play guitar too!
he's only sec one this year..
and he's so talented.
hahas.
girls out there..
consider him lah!
haha~

3rd performance..
the JUDGES.
hahas.
hedessa is a good actress!
she was like so serious..
not bad not bad.
not like isabelle ang.
kept laughing!
hahaha.

AMANDA!
she's the narrator! =D

ANTHEA and ISAAC.
singing 晴天.
=DD

Pictures taken after the performance

me and LIM XINYI. =)
she was the one who pass me the choir fund and explain EVERYTHING to me. =DD

TREASURERS! =DD
currect treasurer + ex-treasurer + ex ex-treasurer.
hahas.
what a pity!
the ex ex ex-treasurer were also there!
just standing beside us that time!
OH HUI PING!
she was the ex ex ex treasurer!
i forgot!
haizzz.
stupid me.
hahas.

me and CECILIA! =))
yongsiang say i look tired in this pic..
tired meh.
hahas.
eyes smaller only mah.
hahahha.

WEIZI aka MS NGIN and jinghang.
aiyo.
can't they stand closer?
hahas.

WEIZI and me!!
=D

me and JINGHANG.
so hard to ask him take picture with me leh.
first time ask him then he give attitude.
LOLS.
then still need ms ngin to persuade him then he say okay.
ahhahahas.

me and ROYSTON CHIAM.
the small kid. -.-
disgusting. go stick out the SWEET.
hahas.
i was not very happy so i REQUESTED to take one more.

a better one. =)
at least not so disgusting.
haha!

me and ZONA!!

MANDA and me!
i find this pic nice..
really.
dont you agree? hahas.

me and ANTHEA!

SHARON and me!!

CHARMAINE and me!!
she was so shocked when she saw this pic.
hahas.
"WAH! head so big!"
hahaha!

ELYSIA and me!!

me and JIAMIN!
she was one of the last few i take picture with.
HAHA.

SARAH and me!!

me and ANG!!

me and KANG!

ISABEL and me!!

me, ANG and KANG~

finally a picture with the BELLS~
isabel tee, isabelle kang and isabelle ang.
=)
where is quek?
hahahas.

that's all peeps! =))

bye choir fund! =DD

2007-06-30T18:33:00.000-07:00

a nice story taken from http://datoufen.blogspot.com/.

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光……

　　可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。

　　一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。
上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”
男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”
上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗”

　　天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。

　　幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。

　　轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。

　　蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。
　　這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。

　　第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。

　　上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。

　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”

有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

nice nice. =)
actually there are people around you who care for you.
it's just that you don't see it.
but you can't ignore the fact that they do care for you.
hahas.
so live for the ppl who care for you and ignore those ppl who hurt you by staying happy.
that's the least you can do for those ppl who care for you. =)

(there's no target audience.. i'm saying it to EVERY SINGLE ONE. hahas.)

my FIRST and LAST Student Council Investiture. =)

2007-06-30T15:20:00.000-07:00

my FIRST and LAST Student Council Investiture.

glad that you have found someone whom you can say your problems to.
did you feel better now? =)

yesterday was the Student Council Investiture.
did it went well..?
i totally have no idea actually.
i know the walking part is alright.
i stand a bit behind i think..
but that's alright. hahas.

the singing part.. hmmmms.
frankly speaking, my mind was in a blank that time.
there were too many ppl in the hall le.
so i just sing and sing.
i didn't think of the lyrics or what.
thats why some parts i didn't start at the right time.
hahas.
all i did was just looking at manik and yongsiang.
smile for dunnoe what reason.
then look at the other 3 ppl. (adonis, derek and syahril)
adonis keep looking at us.. so i keep looking at them also.
is this called interact?
HAHA.
then i was also looking at mr ramesh and mr goh.
cos i am facing where the teachers were sitting.
then i also saw ms soo laughing.
dunnoe laugh for what.
then there's ONE PART.
so OMG lah.
my group and adonis that group sang different thing!!
the sentence is ''runaway with my love''.
we were like "runaway..."
then they already singing "....love"
LOLLLS.
i wonder who got it wrong that time.
and we realised it rather LATE.
hahas.
the piano was a bit weird when we perform ytd.
during the rehearsals, everything went okay.
esp. the piano.. super nice.
but dunnoe why that time the piano like so weird.
dunnoe what gracia is playing also.
haha!
everything just went so so wrong lah.
but heard that we ended well. =D
amanda said that she can't hear my voice..
hahahaahas.
the 5 guys blast me mah.
that's the stupid reason i gave to her.
hahahas.
although everything went wrong..
but i know we had FUN.
we are like having whole loads of fun on the stage.
hahas.
after the performance, when the curtain was closed..
we are like laughing all the way.
we even laughed at our MISTAKES.
haha!
that's the spirit lah. =))

after the performance, it reminds me of the choir..
after we sang and the curtain was closed.. we always cheer and everything.
hahas.
but there's one difference..
we never laugh at our mistakes.
becos it's not funny to make any mistakes for us..
hahas.

anyway! it's the first time i listen to so many long speeches at one go.
and i can't do anything or what.
i must sit straight and look at whoever is making the speech.
hahas.
torture leh.
after mr low finish his speech, i cannot sit straight le.
i lie back.
hahas.
syahril speech is funny lah!
i mean for the last part.
the part he say he had learn to be calm or dunnoe what from all the excos.
then he say he learn what what what from who who who.
i dunnoe why but i just find it funny lah.
then derek ask me not to laugh.
must control.
eeyer so fierce.
haha!
now i think back..
actually also not funny.
hahas.
if i were one of them..
syahril sure say "thanks ming gui, for teaching me to break promises.."
HAHA.
anyway. syahril has been saying that i broke his promise.
but the fact is i dun have lo.
hahas. forget it.

have refreshments after that..
took pictures then also do the yum seng thingy.
my shoe is killing me lah!
fancy wearing that shoe for like 4 hours?
aiyo.
syahril say he wanted to take picture with me in the council room.
so we went in..
end up syahril sit down with the ex-councillors and chit chat..
and forgot we went to the council room is to take picture!!!
hahas.

will posts all the photos later.
maybe on monday bah.
hahas.
hmmmmms. nearly took a photo with someone.
but in the end never.
haha!
next time lahh.
there's still a lot of chance. (:

after SCI, never go ms kaur's house with syahril they all.
cos i going out.
hahas.

you left without telling me the reason.

alrights!
this weekend will be super busy.
so many homework!
haiz.
the teachers were taking advantage of that ONE DAY HOLIDAY.
haiz.
but i will TRY to post the photos taken yesterday and also my overseas trip + choir farewell performance by this weekend kay?
if not i dunnoe when will i have the time le.
hahas.
i'll try my best. =)

"我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你"

你太爱她.. 为何还要学着放弃她?

you are silly.
you are hurting yourself..
do you know that?

haiz.

2007-06-28T23:39:00.000-07:00

到底多久

词:柯有伦
曲:李伟菘

幸福可以很残忍
带着脆弱的眼神
舍不得短短的一句
就此忘了吗
亲手把你送给他

接受了爱的惩罚
孤单是我的终点
算了吧
短短的一句
只有伤痛吧
让沉默
把这个笑容锁在心里头

天长地久有多久
再见还说不出口
所有记忆被洗去后
什么没带走
天长地久有多久
我把快乐放在你的手中
记得你要好好的过

天长地久有多久
或许一生都不够
所有记忆被洗去后
剩什么没带走
天长地久有多久
我把快乐放在你的手中
记得你要好好的过

记得你要好好的过

2007-06-28T22:11:00.000-07:00

Dun ever force yourself to do something you dun like..
becos you won't be happy de.
you must BE HAPPY.

today not really tired in class. =D
although i was super tired during SS lesson cos that was after pe.
hahas.
this morning slept till 7am. =DD
shuang!
hahas.
reach school a bit late le.
went up to class to put bag then went down to the parade square.
i brought the choir fund down as well.
derek saw and he asked "your bag is only one plastic bag??!!"
=.=
obviously not lah. hahas.
after morning assembly went to look for mdm azzah.
a few days ago she saw me and she asked me for it.
hahas.
after explaining everything to her..
she smiled and say "your responsibility is over."

HOHO!

felt extremely happy after hearing that.
hahas.
but there's nth for me to be happy about lahh.
my responsibility over long time ago le.
hahas.

today pe was bian tai again.
but ok lahh.
shuttle run..
napfa test i only can score at that station.
pathetic.
hahas.
but the run(s) didn't went well i guess.
my legs feel very numb and i run only a bit then tired le.
was there something wrong with my health?
went back to class after that..
i was still panting like siao.
although relax a bit le but heart still beat very fast..
during english lesson,
which is the last period..
i suddenly experienced breathing difficulties.
-.-
actually wanted to go toilet to cool myself down and relax a bit.
but ms lee keep talking and talking..
i can't cut her off.
hahas.
but after awhile i'm okay le.
scare me.
i was thinking what if i collasped.
*touchwood touchwood*
i can't collaspe now.
i have some things i haven't do.
i have some things i haven't say.
i have some wishes but haven't come true.
i have some things to know but i haven't know.
so i must stay strong.
=)

can someone give me a hand and make sure i dun collaspe?

today didn't have chemistry remedial.
everybody was like prepared to stay back till 6pm liao.
haha!
in the end no chem remedial but got maths remedial.
it started at 3:30.
so i went home first.
came back put down my bag and go down again.
went out to buy lollipops.
=)
issac asked me to go LM room to take pictures.
but i dun want.
so i said i got maths remedial.. later then come down and take.
hahas.
went down to buy lollipops and i saw him.
so i quickly run away.
HAHA.
after maths remedial..
i was INVITED to help out in cleaning the council room.
hahas.
was helping kristina to clean some stuffs..
clean till halfway suddenly issac came and call me go take photo.
then both of them somehow 'quarreled' for awhile.
=.=
hahas.
in order to let them stop..
i agreed and went to LM room to take photo.

hahas.
i can't help but laugh when someone was taking photo of me.
so i kept laughing.
then issac ask me to be serious.
but i can't!
hahas.
then ms soo help him take photo of me.
she said issac and justin told her that i was trying to avoid them.
EHHS. i never loh!
i really had remedial..
hahas.
then she was trying to take a photo of me.
she asked me to pretend that she wasn't there.
but i can't!
hahas.
but MS SOO leh.
so i try my best loh..
but still failed to be natural.
hahas.
issac kept complaining that i dun look natural enough!
he standard so high sia.
i can't reach.
hahas.
but i admit that the pictures not natural enough lah.
look extremely weird.
hahaha.
paiseh lah issac.
i can't take a NATURAL photo.
cos i camera shy mah..
HAHA.
so be understanding kay?
hahahah!

i'm no longer moodless.
=)
it was a good thing becos i know at least i'm a human who have feelings.
hahas.
but it was a bad thing also becos...
haiz.
dun ask me whether my mood is happy or sad now.
becos it's my own emotion.
and dun worry ppl.
i will still smile..
cos i dun wanna affect anyone. =)

tomorrow will be the Student Council Investiture le.
hope that nothing goes wrong.
=)
and i hope that everybody who watch the investiture will be enjoying it.
yupps. i hope so.
and hopefully.. i can take pictures with every single one.
like how i did during the choir farewell performance.
take pictures like siao.
hahas.
good luck to me guys!
=D

dun let other ppl affect what you wanna do.
do what you want to do.
and dun do it for the sake of doing it.
dun do it becos it was right to do it.
dun do it becos you're supposed to do it.
do it becos that makes you feel happy.

i'll support your decision no matter what it is.
my sixth sense tells me that you won't do it tomorrow.

2007-06-27T21:20:00.000-07:00

again.
today was a tiring day.
i felt so tired in class today.
and i wanna SLEEP.
feel so sleepy in class.
haiz.
it has been like that since sch reopen.
and eng tian was like "you look so tired everyday.."
yah. i was tired everyday.
=((
felt so guilty.
never really pay attention in class.
haiz.
I SHALL SLEEP BEFORE 12 TODAY!
hahas.
but also must depends when i finish my a.maths lah.
hope can finish by 12 bah. =)

today nearly late for school again.
hahas.
saw huiling and jiamin on the way.
so we chiong to school together.
haha.
then i saw jianzhong doing his chem paper corrections.
i was like 'oh yah! i haven't do yet!'
so i took out my chem paper and green pen.
then i heard "school, please stand."
sian diao.
hahas.
after flag raising.
wanted to start doing the corrections de.
but suddenly, i heard the announcement..
mr ramesh not in school again.
so i kept my chem paper and green pen.
hahas.
i didn't say anything.
i know i shouldn't be happy lahh..
like so bad liddat.
sick for 3 days sia.
he must be very sick.
so "REST WELL" to mr ramesh. =)

feel so tired during lessons.
somemore we got pe.
hahas.
the new teacher made us do so many things!
but his idea not bad leh.
can train for napfa test.
train for both 2.4km run and the 5 stations.
hahas.
tiring.
i wonder what we going to do for tml's pe lesson.
that teacher train us like siao.
hahas.
actually dun really feel like doing pe today.
cos before that not feeling well.
but in the end still do lahh.
he so dunnoe what need MC.
hahas.
after running all that still feel ok lah.
but go back to class feel extremely sick + tired.
but after awhile ok le..
hahas.

after school had SCI rehearsal again.
FULL DRESS this time.
hahas.
SYAHRIL, the shirt and skirt are too big for me.
not only a little bit big.
hahas.
but still thanks for the effort.
and NO DEAL!
no deal no deal no deal at all!
the shirt and skirt dun suit me.
so i'm sorry to say that i'm sorry but NO DEAL.
but i'll bring forward the date ONE MONTH.
and once again, sorry.. i know you're angry now.
haiz.

the rehearsal for sec 4s this time went well?
hahas.
phew.
and i'm glad that adonis heed my advice.
haha!
and he was right by doing that!
we are both perfectionist, but sometimes..
some things just can't be perfect..
so we can't do anything but accept it. =)
and he told me some other stuffs as well.

ADONIS TOH. i'm not trying to make you feel better..
i'm stating the fact.
i may be RIGHT. who knows?
hahas.
now isn't the time to think of that.
so just treat it as she won't break her promise bah.
hahas.

GRACIA and peeps were EAVESDROPPING us behind the curtains!
omg!
but luckily the things they heard wasnt important.
hahas.
somemore they act out for me to see.
=.=
dots.
hahas.

mr naufal said we sounded good.
i guess some of us know exactly why we sounded better compared to yesterday..
haha!
around 6+..
went back to council room to pack my stuffs and i realised that i haven't hand in the maths!
shucks!
then went to hand in.
hahas.

emo boy!
dun emo liao lah.
hahas.
okok. i know you're not emo.
you are just thinking of some stuffs..
hahas.
anyway. glad that you are willing to tell me some stuffs. =)
at least i know a bit how you feel now..
hmmms. glad that you know what you want to do le.
but since you've decided.. then dun feel so sad le!
haiz.
i feel that i can't say anything to make you feel better.
i can only nod my head and orh orh orh.
=(
do whatever that makes you feel happier bah.
i dun mind whatever you're going to do.
kai xin jiu hao!
=D

you asked me whether i have something to say..
you wanted me to tell you my 心里话
but i wonder why.. i have nothing to say at all.
suddenly my whole brain wasn't functioning.
my mind was totally blank.
i feel that i have many things to say but when i think of what i want to say..
i feel that actually there was nothing i wanted to say.
suddenly feel so moodless.
hahas.
moodless doesn't mean sad.
moodless just means moodless.
if you ask me whether i'm sad.
i'll tell you 'no'.
becos i'm really not sad.
sometimes i just feel that i want to be alone.
hahas.
but if you ask me whether i'm happy.
i'll tell you 'no' as well.
cos i just dun feel happy.
but i'm not sad as well.
hahas.
so i'll treat this as moodless.
hahaha!

yupps. we haven't see the whole forest.
so we shouldn't ASSUME that the whole forest is beautiful.
we shall wait and see.
=)

bye peeps!

same plastic bag? hahas. (:

2007-06-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

today was rather a bad day.
for some specific reasons.
hahas.
but i'm not EMO lah yongsiang.
hahas.
i just didn't talk, didn't smile and like to see nice sceneries only.
believe me bah.
i won't tell lies. =)

hahas.
today's assembly was boring..
in fact.
i didn't really listen to wat mr low is saying..
i'm in my own world.
hahas.
i only heard him saying something like complain to your mother, father, grandfather, grandmother then everybody started laughing.
that's the only thing i heard.
hahas.
spend other time dreaming, talking, looking around and laughing!
hahas. cos ms lee gave that funny funny look when there's ppl from my class stood up cos they dun wanna sit on the WET ground.
haha!

after that went back to class for lessons.
mr ramesh was sick again.
wanted to do the chem paper corrections during his free period but mr goh took that lesson!
awwwwwww.
sadd.
hahas.
felt extremely tired during english and physics lesson.
in fact, i'm tired for the whole day!
cos slept late last night.
hahas.
chinese lesson went round the sch with yongsiang to settle the academic performance award thing.
received extremely BIG response from 1A1 and 2A4.
XD

after sch went out to look for LOLLIPOPS.
suddenly wanted to eat.
but sad to say that i went to so many shops they all nv sell. =((
haiz.
rush back to school that time.
cos going to be late for SCI rehearsal again.
hahas.
HOWEVER.
i saw weishen and ivan outside school again.
so talked abt the chalet thing.
hmmmms.
they sound so frustrated cos many ppl didn't want to stay overnight due to the $$$.
haiz.
i felt quite guilty. they seemed to be shooting me indirectly.
HAHA.
but i haven't decide anyway.
i'll decide ASAP.
paiseh!

went back to sch and buy GREEN TEA.
collected the maths hw from isaiah also.
he was like so agitated.

"where are you?? i can't find you!! you're not in the canteen! not in the council room! not in the hall! where you go?!"

HAHA. i said nth. i just laugh. hahas.
then yongsiang suddenly appear behind me.
=.=
it was the second time he scare me today.
purposely de loh. hahas.
then went to council room and went up to the hall.
suddenly heard someone shouting "XXX!"
=.=
it must be yongsiang lah!
who will shout his name other than HIM.
aiyoo.
hahas.
then saw mdm lim also.
talked for quite some time until othman came to ask us to go for rehearsal.
hahas.

yongsiang and mdm lim got some SECRETS dun wanna tell me.
=((
mdm lim so bias.
care for yongsiang only.
never care for me de.
only ask about HIM.
AIYO.
so what if he is considered as handsome in sec sch?
hahahhahas.

林老师偏心!!!!
=((

hahahas.
anyway. heard quite a lot of dao li from her..
she sound SO experienced.
hahas.

yupps.
i guess she was right.
concentrate on studies..
that's the only thing we should do now.
wait till we go to university bah.
hahas.
=)

the SCI rehearsal was not a success.
for the walking part.. i walked wrongly.
forget it.
hahas.
and the singing was bad also.
ms soo said she can't hear a single thing from me.
so in the end i hold one mic for MY OWN USE.
hahas.
after that we keep practising on our own.
yongsiang suddenly got so tired and influenced me.
make me feel tired also.
hahas.
and SYAHRIL!
where's your attitude?
hahas.

hmmmmm.
you look kind of sad today.
wanted to cheer you up de.
but in the end i kept quiet.
awwww. felt so useless. aiyo.

okay. i gotta go sleep le!
wanted to finish writing jinghang's letter today de. =((
maybe some other time bah.
i'm sorry jinghang! haiz.
nowadays too busy due to SCI.
and tired also.
haiz.
kkz.
gotta go! byee. =)

issac, she really CARE for you lah.
so treat her better eh?
dun make her angry anymore..
and lastly.
find back the interest you used to have for chinese!
best luck to you!
=))

2007-06-25T22:54:00.000-07:00

25 JUNE 'o7

school reopens le!!
i'm so tired now.
eyes closing liao.. -.-
just now watch tv also nearly fell asleep.
hahas.
cos ytd slept at THREE in the MORNING!!!
chiong homework loh. still got what.
do a.maths do till 3am.
wanna give up de.. cos that o lvl a.maths paper SO DIFFICULT!!
haiz.
but suddenly i came to a VELOCITY question.

HAHAHAHAHA!

velocity question. STRIKE OUT LAH!
wahahahaha.
cos mr goh haven't teach us velocity.. so no need to do.
then after striking away that question.
i felt so happy suddenly and continued doing.

determination; perseverance

i must always rmb the two words. =)

ANYWAY!
congrats to me!!
first time finish ALL(almost) the holiday assignments.
hahas.
cos the reader digest and the notes all that i nv read.
i only DO. hahas.
but not bad le. =DD

slept at 3+ then around 6 got a morning wake up call from chen min.
zzZzzzZzzz.
hahas.
cos she ask me to reach school at 6:45am to lend her the maths homework.
6:45am leh!
it's very early for me.
hahas.
in the end i reach sch at around 7:10.
i was like so guilty when i saw chen min sitting at the bench day-dreaming.
in the end she just reach also.
hahas.

sit with my class during morning assembly.
=DD
it was a long time since i sit with my class!
then jerren and farhan they all was like "ehhhs. ming gui! you're back!"
hahas.
then kaixin told xuanwen "the councillors come back le we become very squeezy leh."
=.=
i heard that kaixin! hahahaa!

it was super noisy at my area there.
-.-
i bet derek feels the same too.
hahas.
cos usually councillors sit at the back super quiet de.
can't really talk during morning assembly.
hahas.
sit with class not a very good thing also leh.
cos jerren they all keep asking me stupid things.
isaiah heard and he was like "ha-ha"
=.=
and i can't sit with my juniors who just join the council!
boooohooooo.
i think i'm getting more and more naggy.
hahas.
ok.
i'll try to make it as short as possible now.

went back to class.
mr goh gave us postcards. =)
ms lo told us about her wisdom teeth. =S
mdm lim called me out to read a passage to the whole class. =(
mr ramesh was sick. =
ms lee's lesson was boring. i nearly fell asleep! =X
mr tang's lesson was rather okay. i realised that he can be so dramatic! hahas.

after school went home with chen min. =)
eat le then walk back to school that time saw shak, shaorui and jiahao(4s1).
then talk for awhile continue walking.. cos late le. hahas.
then saw adeline, kang~, yingshi AND joel.
continue talking.. although going to be late le.
hahas.
after that continue walking.. exactly 2:45pm le. hahas.
then saw aloysius, weishen, ivan and linxiang.
stopped and talk to them about the chalet thing.
in the end kenna suan-ed by them.
=.=
hahas.
after that continue walking.
saw xuanwen and jamie.
stopped and talk to them.
LOL.
then went to the council room. =)

saw amanda, sizhen and woan ting.
hahas.
they are crazy ppl.
who went in to the council room then they say hi.
haha!
fun ppl lah they all.
hahas.

then went up to the hall for the rehearsal.
sian sian sian.
so tired. zzZzzzzzzZzzzz.
nothing to do there also.
hahas.

hmmmm.
someone is emo today.
morning look sian sian.
go back to class look even more sian.
during chinese lesson look so unhappy.
during other lessons i dunnoe.
hahas.
during SCI rehearsal also look sian sian + emo.
hahas.

i am not emo lah.
i just never smile and never talk and like to look at nice sceneries only.
hahas. not like someone..
look extremely sad.
hahas. so many ppl are concern abt you..
that's why they ask what happen.
BE HAPPY!
=)

dun forget that's one of my wish. (:

went home with yongsiang and derek after the rehearsal.
you will never feel warm under the hot sun with DEREK around..
cos he's so cold.
=.=
he said COLD jokes to us which dun make us laugh.
and he say that's why it's COLD.
=.=
hahas.
i asked him some questions..
and his answer for one of the questions is..
"it's not the right time."
ehhhs. sound so familiar.
hahas.
then he started saying craps.
dunnoe what 'right' time 'left' time thingy.
cannot stand him.
hahahaaha!

既然已经往前走, 就不应该再回头看了

不过最后...

我还是回头了.

[blogging inside my heart -in progress-]

2007-06-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

周杰伦 - 借口

词: 周杰伦
曲: 周杰伦

翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我

就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

如果难过
请你忘了我

i dun intend to ask again le.
i will never ask le.
becos..

1) i dun think i will get an answer from you.
2) if i got an answer, i'm afraid the answer will make me sad.
3) i know you got too much things to think about now.
4) i want to let you have some peace first. hahas.

and lastly..
5) i know till now, you are still unsure of your answer.

hahas.
ask you next time bah.
i dunnoe when will be the next time.
but when you have an answer le.
and it is the right time to ask..
i will ask de. =)

slack slack slack.
sch going to reopen liao!
is this a good thing or a bad thing?
OBVIOUSLY IS BAD THING LAH!
i still left quite a lot of holiday assignments..
sian diao.
haiz.

tml must chiong chiong chiong le!
and the a.maths papers are so so SO difficult.
so many questions dunnoe how to do.
sian.
and i didn't manage to do some revisions during this holiday.
=(
this is the only regret i have.
haiz.

regret regret regret.
everybody has regrets.
hahas.

haiz.
i wonder why.
when i see those sad sad things again..
the thoughts i used to have, the feelings i used to have, the SADNESS i used to have..
were no longer there.
i no longer feel anything about it..
i dunnoe why.
but it's definitely a good thing. =D
maybe my case is the same as your case.
i got used to it.
hahas.
maybe i'm also sick and tired of being so sad all the time liao.
i just wanna go back to the past.
and it's succeeding. =)

why didn't you reply my message..?
i know i shouldn't ask that..
but i think there's a need for me to ask that.
and maybe say sorry to you.
cos i guess i'm partly the reason why things are changing now.
haiz.
are you angry?
sorry if i said something wrong.
i just ask that becos i wanna know.
i mean nothing else..

gtg. bye ppl!
i wanna end this post with a smile.
=)

P.S. someone cried.
and i asked why.
he said it's becos his ice cream drop onto the floor.
hmmms.
is that childish or innocent..?

HAHA.

2007-06-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

=DD

nowadays didn't blog (as in about the malaysia trip and choir farewell concert/performance) is becos i'm busy chionging my holiday assignments.
hahas.
first time i do till so ping1 ming4.
hahas. last time got what holiday homework i also dun really care de.
can drag then drag..
dunnoe why this time keep doing and doing.
die die also want to finish all.
hahas.
if this time i really finish all the holiday assignments.
it will be the FIRST TIME i finish ALL my holiday homework in secondary sch life.
hahas.
i always never finish my holiday hw de.
cos FIRST - lazy
SECOND - not enough time
THIRD - dunnoe how to do
hahas.

anyway!
i promise i will blog abt both the malaysia trip and the choir farewell thingy when SCH REOPENS.
hahas.
cos now is chiong homework time.. too bad.
hahas.
woke up at 12 today..
wanted to wake up at 9 to do homework de.
set alarm at 8:45 cos i know i will drag de..
hahas.
in the end drag till 12 then wake up.
HAHA.
eat breakfast (lunch) then start chionging liao.
haiz.
everyday do the same thing..
wake up then chiong homework le.
sian.
=((

okk. i dunnoe what to say le.
hahas.
ehhhs. what you wanna see?
you never say.
you say le i confirm blog abt it de. hahas.

no matter what, kai xin jiu hao.
i dunnoe whether they're white lies or not.
but be happy bah.

sad must say leh. hahas. =)

bye ppl! =D

am i happy?
i dunnoe.
i really dunnoe.
i might be laughing..
but the next sec, i will be asking myself.
"what's there to be happy about?"

haiz.

2007-06-20T21:15:00.000-07:00

张韶涵 - 其实很爱你

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你

现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把它从最高的地方落下

感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

2007-06-19T14:34:00.000-07:00

i'm back from malaysia.
=))

sorry for the information given below.
nearly half of it was wrong.
the performance is by sec 4s(including me) and some graduated seniors instead.
the time i'm not very sure.
7:30pm if i'm not wrong.
pls come and support us TONIGHT.
PLEASE.
hahas.

the holiday trip was somehow quite fun.
i will be updating abt it a few days later.
not now.
for some obvious reasons.
i'm BUSY with stuffs.
arghhhh.
just came back from malaysia and i dun even have time to rest.
=(

okay.
i gotta go.
bye peeps.
SEE ALL OF YOU TONIGHT!
=DD

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADONIS! i'm sorry! =(

2007-06-12T17:32:00.000-07:00

P.S. there will be a choir performance on 19th June in Orchid Park Sec Sch.
the performance will start at 7:30pm.
the venue still not confirmed yet.
do come down and support the CHOIR!

sad to say that i will not be singing with them.
but i'll be there to support them(hopefully).
so all of you must come and support too eh?

IT'S FREE!

so i hope to see many people there.
=))

dun haiz le.
must be happy.

2007-06-12T16:37:00.000-07:00

went for SCI rehearsal yesterday.
came back at around 11 then go back to school again at 12:30.
nothing much happened.
only keep rehearsing the song.
sian.
just like what gracia says.
we're getting sick of the song!
hahas.

time is running out.
not much time left for me to do homework le.
so i gotta RUSH RUSH RUSH.
haiz.
woke up at 12 noon today.
wasted my precious time!
hahas.

hmmmmms.
nothing much to say le.
tml there's SCI rehearsal again.
T.T
haiz.
ALRIGHTS.
i'll stop here.
no mood to blog now.
haiz.

you shouldn't have said you dunnoe.
you should hv just said no.
maybe i will think that you said no for a reason..
it wasn't ur real answer.
maybe like that i will feel better.
but you said you dunnoe.
='(

haiz. i expected it anyway. =(

all the best to you.
you must be happy.

2007-06-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

went for the SCI rehearsal today.
overslept.
i know i'm going to be late..
but somehow i dun have any sense of urgency.
i still take my own sweet time..
hahas.
the rehearsal was supposed to start at 8.
around 8+..
i'm still at home..
then when i'm wearing my school shoes..
prepared to go to school.
my house phone rang.

"oh shit!"

it must be either syahril, yongsiang or adonis who called.
my mum picked up the phone.
it was for me.
I KNEW IT!
hahas.
yongsiang called.
"now 8:30 liao leh.."
=.=
then after putting down the phone..
went to school loh.
i'm supposed to rush there..
since i'm LATE.
but i still take my time and STROLL to school.
haiz.
dunnoe why feel so sian.
hahas.

went to school..
practice the walking..
practice singing the song..
haiz. kind of sian.
but time flies.
very fast 12+ le..
the rehearsal ENDED.
actually going home after the rehearsal.
wanted to sms smth first before going home..
when i took out my phone.
i saw "Home Calling.."
i hesitated.
should i answer the call?
mr naufal is in the hall that time.
but in the end i still answer the call.

my sis called.
talked to me in a very angry tone.
cos i havent tell her my decision..
haiz.
then she told me that my geography teacher called.
=.=
my sis thought i pon geog remedial.
then i was thinking i where got runaway from geog lessons.
so i went to look for ms lo.
saw her talking to derek.
then i went up to her and asked why she's looking for me..
then i was like.. okays. i know why le.

during the geog remedial..
which is a few days ago.
she said that she wanted to do a survey with those who did badly for the midyear paper.
of cos i'm one of them.
i got F9.
haiz.
then she asked what happen to me all that blah blah blah.
she said that she was surprised when she saw how badly i've done for my paper.
and she's also surprised that i did well for ss but not geog.
haiz.
i didn't know what to say..
i can only haiz inside my heart.
suddenly recall the times during exams period..
and the kind of feeling i had when i received my geog paper.
i didn't really expect myself to do so badly for the paper.
=((
then she asked whether by prelims i will be able to manage geography.
haiz.
it's a MUST wad.
no choice.
then i think of how badly i've done for my chinese O Lvl paper.
haiz.
i'm a failure..
i failed to do everything well.
haiz.

walked home after that.
i walk the long way..
so that i have more time to think for myself what went wrong..
suddenly i felt so stress.
suddenly there's so much things for me to think about.
my head is going to burst anytime..
i have enough troubles le.
and now it is adding on..
it seems to be never-ending..
haiz.

i had enough.
i can't take it anymore..
=((

collasped.

2007-06-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

spent more than 100sms this morning.
hahas.
was sending msgs to 4 ppl at the same time..
didn't know that 3 of them were together.
=.=
hahas.
anyway. i dun think my sms will bao..
although i used up a lot of sms today.
hahas.
becos i know that for the next few days/weeks.
my phone will be very quiet..
not much vibration will be heard.
hahas.
used up so many sms this morning also regarding the kbox thingy.
so dun worry peeps!
i still can sms de. =))

went kbox today.
yay!
hahas.
went with jinghang, adonis, xuanwen and siyuan.
sorry adonis!
i was late for 15 mins.
hahas. paiseh paiseh.

reach there around 2+..
the couple not on de lehh.
went there everybody sing liao except for them.
but after that siyuan finally sing le!
xuanwen got sing but no sound come out.
=.=
hahas.
in the end i think me, adonis and jinghang sing the most.
hahahaha.
dunnoe why sing till around 5+ jinghang not high le.
then xuanwen and siyuan is like in their own world..
so left me and adonis high only.
hahas.
and we sing and sing and sing and sing.
then siyuan suddenly take the mic and say things like..
"happy birthday to jinghang.."
"happy birthday to adonis in a few days time.."
"wo ai xuanwen.."

HAHA. ok. it was the first time i heard siyuan saying that..
hahas.
have quite a lot of fun there..
hahas.
whenever someone sing wrongly..
we will like point at them with some funny actions and say "HAHA! sing wrong!"
so if you sing wrongly..
you will end up being suan-ed by them..
and the person who made the most mistake is ADONIS.
sometimes his timing wrong de..
esp the last few lines of some songs..
need to wait for a while before singing the line..
but he always sing before that.
so he end up being shoot by us.
HAHA.
and we like to make funny funny sounds using the mic.
hahas.

and ADONIS always make a fool of himself.
i still remember i sang "ni na me ai ta" with him..
and he thought li sheng jie was a girl..
i was like huh??
this song is by 2 guys de lah!
then he ask why below the words got red colour and blue colour de..
then we all was like "BECOS IS TWO PEOPLE SING DE MAH!!!!"
haha! he went kbox so many times le still dunnoe.. =.=
hahaha!

then another funny thing happened also.
he wanted to sing the song "shi ni jue ding wo de shang xin"..
so i sing with him.
although i only know the chorus line.. ONE LINE ONLY.
xuanwen say i've learnt 2 lines after singing that song.
hahaha!
then i was asking adonis how he know this song de..

me: ehhs. how you know this song de?
adonis: someone send it to me..
me: who?
adonis: i forgot who is it.. i only know is someone send me de..

actually jinghang is choosing the songs..
then he suddenly turn back and say..

jinghang: you go and die lah! i send you one you forgot!

LOL!
we laugh like mad..
hahas.
adonis create so many jokes today.
hahas.

we sang 草蜢 songs too!
hahahas.
i thought the songs can make them high..
but in the end i failed.
hahas.
i think the song we sang the loudest is wo ke yi.
if i'm not wrong..
and some jay chou's song.
hahas.
i sang solo for one song.
美人鱼 =))
adonis sang solo for one song too!
最近 i think..
if i'm not wrong..
cos i went to the toilet.
dunnoe got ppl sing with him or not..
hahas.
sing with him as in take mic and sing with him.
hahas.

i asked for green tea lemon honey and lemon tea..
the lemon tea taste bitter.
i wonder is it becos there's no honey in it..
hahas.

i've been looking at my handphone..
new messages coming in.
but wasn't what i'm expecting..
haiz.
finally. the msg i'm expecting came!
i smiled and i showed jinghang.
there's one new message from XXX!
but after i read the message..
my heart sank.
i would rather i dun receive the msg..
haiz.

you thought only you're waiting for sms..
and i'm not?
you should know the torture of waiting somebody's sms.
but why are you letting me wait then..
and i waited for a long time..
i waited for very very long.
haiz.

i hope i can understand the reason why..
maybe i should learn to understand.
haiz.

"dun disturb you les.."
what a hurting msg..
if i received this msg during the exams period.
i still can understand.. and i dun mind.
but even after exams..
i've been receiving this msg over and over again..

maybe i should really learn to understand you.
i know i shouldn't mind..
from now on.. it's okay for you to send me the msg..
i shall act as if i'm really a busy woman and i shan't let you 'disturb' me.
haiz.

isabelle going to australia tml.
all the best to her!
have fun!
and i believe she will miss me de.
hahas.

talking abt going overseas..
i'm going too.
so treasure the time spent with me eh?
=))
this also means that i need to finish up all my holiday assignments ASAP.
awww~
and i also need to go back to school for SCI stuffs tml.
i thought no more remedials = no more going back to school.
haiz.
give me a break man.
=((

will tomorrow be a good day for me?
i'm hoping for everyday to be good.
so i hope tml i will be happy.
at least i think i will smile and laugh.
becos MANIK will be there tomorrow!
he will kill me.. for sure.
hahas.
he will try all his means to make me lose face and do smth bad to me.
hahas. for some reasons of cos.
hahas.
i did something BAD to him. real bad.
and he's gonna revenge tml! hahas.

alrights.
it's late now.
tata~

if you are sentenced to jail.
i will wait for you to come out..

2007-06-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

today SHOULD be a good day de.
actually everyday should be a good day.
but some things just seem to be going the wrong way..

today started off well. =)
wished melissa happy birthday at 12 and continued to sms her for some time..

you seemed to be worried.
dun worry.
i have that kinda weird feeling too..
you are not abnormal lahh. hahas.
and you are my goody-goody friend!
dun think too much eh?
=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!
=DD

dun really feel like going to school today..
touch my forehead.
no fever. =((

okays. i dun mean i want myself to get sick lahh.
i treasure myself a lot.
and i can't be so selfish..
just becos i dun want to go to school..
i let my body suffer.
hahas.

there's many reasons why i dun feel like going to school today.
first, is becos i haven't finish my chemistry paper..
second, i'm sick and tired of going back to school during the holidays..
everyday wake up so early to go for extra lessons.
i'm physically and mentally tired.. haiz.
and the lessons were getting boring.

i know it's not the first time i'm having extra lessons during holidays..
but this time round, i just feel extremely tired.
everyday came back home after remedials feeling so tired and always end up sleeping for long hours in the afternoon.
i'm really tired.
but i know i must get used to it..
o levels are coming. no choice.. haiz.

persevere... i must persevere.

i was late for the english remedial which starts at 8.
did a bit of chemistry in the morning then it started drizzling.
after awhile the rain stop le.
but i still continue doing.. dun really feel like going for the english remedial.
in the end. i leave house at exactly 8am. =))
and of cos i was late..
but there's so many ppl late as well.
some even came later than me..
hahas.
the english remedial was boring.
we did almost the same thing as what we did previously.
the mrs chua gave us a worksheet to do..
and i was bored. very very bored.
then there's group discussion.
my group got me, gracia, engtian and ravi.
hahas. i started laughing when i read what ravi wrote on his paper.

BANANAS!

hahahahas.
i can't stop laughing!
he wrote bananas under "A dishonest act"
but i can't really figure out what he's talking abt..
even mrs chua also dun understand.
haha!
then we are supposed to read out the "A interesting/unusual situation"
me and gracia decided to use ravi's tt banana passage to read as an 'unusual' situation!
but he didn't want us to read tt.
hahas. tt's why my group took so long to decide on the passage.
hahas.

oh yah! i was too bored during the discussion and i started singing the gatsby song.
HAHA.
i wonder if anybody hv seen the gatsby advertisement.
it is kind of er xin lahh. cannot stand it.
hahas.

"I~~CAN GIVE YOU GATSBY~~~~~~
GATSBY~~~
GATSBY~~~"

LOL.
i think gracia and engtian were quite pissed off cos i keep singing and singing tt song!
hahahas.
and the funnier thing is that gracia did the ACTIONS.
oh gosh.
that's so damn disgusting can.
but it made me laugh like mad!!
she did both parts. the first part and the second part.
the first part is the playing of the hair..
GRACIA DID IT.
and the second part is the stretching of the face..
GRACIA DID IT TOO.
hahahhas!
so disgusting lahh tt advertisement..
gross gross gross..
what moving rubber is that?
EEYEER!

after the eng remedial.
had chem remedial at sci lab.
isaiah asked me one question..
=.=
a lame one.
hahas.
he's trying to gossip again lahh!
but he claimed that he is NOT gossiping..
he said tt gossiping is talking behind my back.
oh wells. fineeee.
hahas.
nth much happened during the remedial.
and why mr ramesh keep using me as an example.
dots.
hahas.
if i became the goal keeper.
i think when the ball is coming..
i dunnoe where i ran to hide liao.
HAHA.

went to council room to finish up the chem paper.
hand in and went home le.

am i happy?
are you happy?

felt rather moody today.
but i did smile..
i mean.. who dun smile?
hahas.
i smile every single day..
but am i happy?

having mood swings nowadays.
sometimes i feel good sometimes i don't.
dun worry.
i'm not those got mood swing then will shout at people de.
hahas.
i'm a nice girl.
=DD

why the feeling isn't fading off..
i hate the sad/emo feeling.
=((

haiz.
some things are getting worse.
some things are getting better.
what i want the most now..
is to go back to how we used to be like..
haiz.
i think i'm asking too much le.
for the time being,
a smile from you will do..
that's enough.. really.
(:

what is the definition of happy?

2007-06-05T22:34:00.000-07:00

today i was late for chem remedial.
hahas.
i THOUGHT i was going to be late.
cos i woke up at around 7am this morning.
slept at 2+ last night..
for some reasons.
hahas.
saw shak on the way to school.
he look so moody.. i thought something happened.
then after that saw yongzhen and huifong.
that loving couple. haha!

in the end mr ramesh was late!
for like 20mins?
hahas.
went to CR4 for the remedial.
gracia is so damn lame lah AIYO.
mr ramesh is going through the worksheet on alkanes..
then he asked me to answer one of the questions.
and i wrote the physical state is liquid.
gracia was like saying the answer is solid.
then i was thinking.. not liquid meh?
in the end i choose not to believe her.
hahas.
and of cos i'm right!
she is just trying to trick me.
i nearly fell into her trap lah.
next time i shall not trust other ppl so much.
hahas.

went outside school to accompany chen min go eat.
spend so much time discussing with siyuan, adonis, linxiang and yukai where they want to go and eat.
in the end we separated.
hahas.
went back to school and did some work.
cos chen min want me to accompany her do homework till 1pm.
then later xuanwen and jinghang joined us.
and we started singing.
hahas.
have fun playing that lame game..
trying to distract each other by singing different songs.
hahas.
can't remember what song we sang.
i only remember the "first round" i sang zhuan shu tian shi and jinghang sing fei ni mo shu.
of cos i lost!
fei ni mo shu leh.
hahas.
after that jinghang ps us then chen min went for her eng remedial le.

did a lot of stupid stuffs with xuanwen.
hahas.
we are too bored lah!
hahahas.
then saw mr ramesh and he came to sit with us.
he asked A LOT of questions.

"no english remedial?"
"english too good arh?"
"how were the chemistry lessons? can understand..?"
"how's the preparation for o lvl going on?"
"what's your worst subject?"
"have all of you eaten lunch?"
"why you all didn't go home?"

hahas.
really a lot lahh.
then before me and xuanwen can EXPLAIN why we didn't go home..
he said "i know lahh. *points at xuanwen* you are waiting for yongsiang and *points at me* you are waiting for siyuan right?"

LOL!

me and xuanwen laugh like siao lahh.
then he walk away le..
hahas.

it was a beautiful mistake.

hahas.
maybe mine he dunnoe.
but i thought mr ramesh know very clearly that xuanwen and siyuan is together?
he purposely de arh.
hahas.
around 2+ went to buy green tea then went home le.

wasn't in a very good mood today.
i thought it would be a good day for me.
but wasn't really happy.
maybe i know the reason perfectly well
why i'm feeling like that.
haiz.

when i laugh or smile.
at that moment.
i am really happy..
i will never laugh/smile when i'm not happy.
that sounds very fake to me.

but whenever i'm in my own world..
i'm back to the sad sad mood again.
=(
but nowadays..
i'm trying hard not to think of some unhappy stuffs le.
and it did makes me feel better.
although it didn't really help much.
hahas.

To her: heyy. cheer up lah. hahas. dun feel so sad! everything will be okay soon.. =) and it's not worth it to be sad over it. he dun mean to ignore you de lahh. hahas. you think too much le.

To him: you really look sad today can.. morning i said hi to you then you also ignore. tsk tsk tsk. hahahas. and i will pass you your presents ASAP kay? =)

To someone: you are the one who determines my mood for the day. :)

2007-06-05T01:58:00.000-07:00

it's like very very late now.
so i'll make this post a short one.
=)

i was late for today's ss lesson.
hahas.
late for like 10mins?
hahas. but someone is even later than me.
he was actually walking infront of me outside school..
but i wonder WHY he came in to the class so LATE.
hahas.

had maths remedial after that.
initially, it was supposed to be a 2hour remedial.
and it SHOULD end at 11:30am.
but somehow, it ended at 12:10pm.
hahas.
suan le.
anyway. we're supposed to hand in the journal on PROBABILITY.
at least 200 words.
but i wrote only 179 words.. hahas.
i was so scared tt mr goh will return me my journal and ask me to re-write.
so i was praying HARD that he will just let it go..
hahas.
he look at my journal and he asked "ming gui! here got 200 words meh?"
so i said, "you dun believe u count yourself loh!"
HAHA. omgg. i can't believe i actually said that!
how i think of such a GOOD answer de?
hahahas.
in the end he nv say anything. =))

anyway. whole class sang a birthday song for jinghang today! (4th june)
hahas.
didn't manage to wish him in class.
ahhhhhhhhhhh~
hahas.

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY JING HANG!!!
=))

it was raining heavily after the remedial.
HEAVILY.
that's why i stayed back in school to do some work.
although i think huiling wanted to lend me her umbrella..
cos she's asking me whether i need one.
but nevermind.. she also need it wad.
maybe after the english remedial it will still be raining..
hahas. so i didn't get from her. =)

why did it rain that time.
is it becos "the weather is like that these few days wad"..
or is it fate?
=)

okays. i think too much le.
hahas.
better dun think too much..
better dun hope too much..
if not there will be disappointment de. =)

it is not necessary for some things to be said here.
as long as i know and you know.
that's enough. (:
the memories belong to US.
so i guess there's no need for others to know..
rites? (:

smile everyone.
i smiled today.
did you?
=)

2007-06-03T18:28:00.000-07:00

it's jinghang's birthday tml and i've not yet confirm with him whether i going tml or not. lols.
went to northpoint yesterday to buy some stuffs ALONE..
haha!
saw WEIXIN and YEWZHEN at khatib mrt station.
they going northpoint too!
hahas.
below is our "funny" conversation..

them: where you going?
me: northpoint
them: we also going northpoint! you go with who..
yewzhen: go with ********* arh?
me: =.=
me: no lah! he want go also go with the who..
yewzhen: maybe he want both mah!
me: =.= ha......ha.....
weixin: huh? who you all talking about?
me and yewzhen: HAHA!

then yewzhen keep kajiao-ing me lehh.
i sms she also want to see see..
then keep saying dunnoe what she want to know 内幕消息
then when i ask her what 内幕消息 she want to know..
then she just smile smile.
hahas.
then i say i going northpoint alone they dun believe..
aiyoo. hahas.

we separated after we reach northpoint..
they claimed that i didn't want them to follow.
where got!
hahas.
went to popular and buy some stuffs.
spent a lot of time there becos most of the time i'm sms-ing. XD
then went to "the shop" and look for the thing i wanted.
but they nv sell.
so went home after that.

while i was waiting for the 7 mins train to come..
i saw the 7-eleven near northpoint..
and i saw the bus-stop.
suddenly i think of many things..
making myself emo again.
and all i did was just keep haiz-ing.
tt's all i can do now.
haiz.

yesterday didn't manage to buy the thing i want..
so today, i went to CAUSEWAY POINT to buy.
there's a lot of memories there too.
but not as hurtful as the memories i had somewhere else.
hahas.
i went into "the shop" and to my disappointment.. i can't find the thing i wanted!
=(((
but i rmb "the shop" sell that thing de..
and i recall recall and recall.
i forgot what shopping centre was that.
AHHHH!
i think is J8 if i'm not wrong.
but i dun think is J8 lehh.
arghhhh.
forget it.

oh yah!
saw josephine on my way home!
the girl whose birthday falls on the same day as me!
she's the only person whom i know who got the same birthday as me.
=)
but different year of cos.
she's 1989 and i'm 1991.
hahas.

jinghang, i still find it unbelievable lehh.
her birthday and shengyan's birthday..
my birthday and ...........
hope now she and shengyan still together. XD
although the probability of them still together is almost zero..
or zero?
HAHA!

headache headache.
i simply need a lot more sleep. =(
woke up at around 8 today..
that's early ehh?
received a msg from cherilyn at around 9.
she asked me abt maths probability thingy and the ss homework.
that's so early!
nobody send me msg and ask me abt hw in the morning de.
it's either "good morning" msgs or forward msg. hahas.

OH YAH!
i received my phone bill yesterday.
to my 'HORROR'.
i only use 500+ sms last month.
=.=
hahas.
i was like omg lah.
usually is either 900+ or over a thousand liao..
hahas.
nvm.
i somehow expected that small amount also..
hahas. i sms a lot or very little i know de.
=)
and of cos i know the reason too..
hahas.

came across some meaningful entries written by some unknown person.

1. 有人说如果你很想要一件东西，就放它走，
如果它回来找你，就会永远属于你，
要是它不回來，那么它根本就不是你的。

2. 世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前　你却不知道我爱你　

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前　你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱　却不能在一起

actually there's more. but i lazy. hees.
ALRIGHTS!
i need to go now le!
tata~

~~fading off..~~

2007-06-02T11:43:00.000-07:00

徐若瑄 - 美人鱼
作词：徐若瑄
作曲：周杰伦

我是一条没有人养的鱼
背着自由面无表情
彩色眼睛受伤的心
只有看到黑白的你

我像一条没有人养的鱼
我的悲伤你不在意
说过的话飘过脸颊
我无法挥去一切从新再来

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

你的温柔总是来了又去
我的孤单(不稀罕同情)
你的电话忍住不打
我不想变成习惯等你回来

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
游向幸福的大海里

jinghang is right.
why i still do it when i dun want to..
i dunnoe. i really dunnoe..

talk also get hurt. dun talk also get hurt.
what am i supposed to do..
='(

i just want to be happy.
is that too much to ask for..?
nobody likes to be sad.
who likes to have that sad look all the time?
who likes to feel so emo all the time?
who dun want to laugh? who dun want to smile?

i just want to be happy.
that's all i ask for.
=(

one day.
i'll be able to forget everything..
one day.
i'll be able to be the happy girl i'm used to be..
one day.
i'll be free from all troubles..
and one day.
all i need will only be friends..
no one else.
looking forward to that day.

fading off..

2007-06-01T21:42:00.000-07:00

HAPPY?! i reopened my blog le!
hahas. close for just 2 weeks and then open again.
lame.. but i may close it again.
HAHAS!
dun feel like putting back the blogskin.
so i shall put this white white background for the time being.
=))

one week of holiday just gone like that.
4 days ago.. i'm still doing my mother tongue o lvl paper..
awwwwww. forget it!
had remedials these few days..
didn't really do anything much.

anyway. finish watching Love of the Aegean Sea le.
FINALLY!
i've been watching the show since like last year..
hahas.
the ending was kind of sad lahh.
i mean it was supposed to be a sad ending..
the guy died.
HAIYO.
why liddat nia..
anyway. the story is abt this guy Enqi met this girl Xiaotong at Greece.
they like each other and blahblahblah.
i shall summarise everything as short as possible.
this guy has a STRICT mother.
she wanted him to marry another rich girl..
somehow, she threatened him using her own life..
so this guy had no choice but to leave this girl and fly to another country with his fiancee.
THREE YEARS LATER.
the guy is back and they met each other again..
but becos he has fiancee le.. he can't be with that girl anymore.
but for the past three years. this girl still like the guy..
and after an incident..
this guy realised that the girl is very important to him and he decided leave his fiancee.
anyway. there's another guy Yaoxiang who likes Xiaotong.
and i'm kind of touched by him at the last few episodes..
he made me realise what 'as long as you're happy' really means..
even though he knows that Xiaotong will never like him..
but he's still there for her ALL THE TIME.
good guy!
hahas.
ANYWAY. Yaoxiang got heart cancer a few months after Enqi and Xiaotong got together.
and Enqi's fiancee also got into the mental hospital becos she has gone crazy after losing him..
Yaoxiang is dying soon.. and blahblahblah.
ONE DAY. Enqi's fiancee escaped from the mental hospital and killed Enqi.
Enqi donated his heart to Yaoxiang.. and he wanted Yaoxiang to help him take care of Xiaotong.
alrights. that's the end.
but Xiaotong didn't accept Yaoxiang.. becos her heart only belongs to Enqi. =))
there's many things that happened in between.. hahas.
i dun encourage you ppl to watch tt show becos it's 40 EPISODES!
watch until you siao.. hahas.
but nice show.
i've learnt many many things from tt show.
it's never easy to do until 'as long as you're happy' de stage..
it's never easy...

OK! sorry for the long summary!
had maths remedial at 8 today..
when mr goh came.. there's still many ppl haven't come yet..
so mr goh wrote "Life is about probability" on the board.. and he asks us to think abt it.
(he's teaching a new chapter called 'Probability'.)
then he started talking abt probability..

"What is the probability of you getting hit by a tree tomorrow?"
"What is the probability of you being hit by a car tomorrow?"
"Probability is chances.."
"You can also say that probability is fate.."
"You're fated to be like this.. you're fated to be like that.."
"What is the probability of you getting an A1 for maths?"

that's some of those i remember.. hahas.
i think he used A LOT of time sharing with us about PROBABILITY.
hahas.
"What is the probability of you getting married with the person you like today? You will never know.."
this question has been stucked in my head after he said that..
hahas. i just keep laughing after he said that..
what is the probability....
i have never thought of it. or should i say that i dun even dare to think of it..
the probability might be zero..
it can be anything.. but one thing i can confirm is that..
the probability will never be one.
becos..

afterall. it was just a dream..

after the break. we had english remedial.
so boring~
there's a lady called Mrs Chua came in..
we are separated to 2 groups..
it was so boring for me..
keep thinking of adjectives.. vocabularies to write.
and i was the second last to finish that piece of worksheet.. and i wrote craps.
gracia was the last one.. =D
she still got time to talk abt spiderman. -.-
hahas.
rushed home after the remedial to finish up the choir fund thingy.
went back to school around 2plus and saw some choir members outside the music room.
wanted to go up and pass isabelle kang the names de..
but saw jinghang at study corner so go sit with him and talk talk. hahahs
after that went up with him to classroom to put his maths txbk then went down to music room.
it was the first time i walked in as an ex-senior..
the feeling is SHUANG!
walk in everybody will turn and look at you and say 'Hi!'..
HAHAS.
and it's even better when the conductor stop whatever he's doing and say hi to you too!
waaaaaaaaaaa. i felt so blessed.
HAHA.
passed isabelle the names then i went out le..
felt so sorry actually..
=((
i went in said hi to mr chen then less than one min told him tt i going off liao.
feel so bad..
hahas.
anyway. went for council meeting after that.
i spent the whole session laughing at jokes and etc.
hahas.
before zulaikha came..
everybody is talking abt manik and AHEM.
after zulaikha came..
both of them started talking nonsense and saying dunnoe what push me down the stage.
hahas!
we kept laughing and laughing and the meeting is like divided into half..
me, derek, manik, zulaikha and faridah laughing like mad people..
and on the other side..
gracia, nash and syahril are seriously discussing about the song thingy..
P.S. yongsiang is sms-ing. so shall not include him.. hahas.

blahblahblah. the meeting finally ended!
yongsiang keep snatching the cushion from me..
i want to sleep also cannot.. =.=
i only told syahril why you tuesday cannot make it mah..
then want to revenge liao..
hahas.

ANYWAY. after the meeting.. i had a 'fight' with my pri sch friend!
ZULAIKHA!
i sleeping she come disturb me..
then suddenly say want take picture with me.
i dun want.. and we had a 'fight'!
HAHAS.

after that went up to music room to chit chat with my juniors. XD
i think i neglected my 2 lovely sec 1 juniors.. cos i kept talking to ang~
and they just sit there and listen to us..
but i guess it's easy for them to understand eh? cos they kept laughing.
hahas!
after that went home..

i look into the mirror.
and i saw this girl.
she's full of troubles.
she always ask how and why..
but she never gets an answer.
today. she look into the mirror again..
and suddenly. she felt restless and hopeless.
she feels that there's nth she can do now..
she was heartbroken.
she was hurt again and again..
but in fact. she's the one who hurt herself..
haiz.
she's tired.. really very very tired.
she's collapsing soon..
very very soon..
=((

i guess we never really moved on..
what is the probability of us going back to the past again..
what is the probability of us laughing happily again..
i guess we can never be like how we used to be in the past le.
haiz.
there's a reason why i'm doing that now..
there's a reason..

jinghang asked me a question today.
"你要一辈子都不______吗?"
i dunnoe. i really dunnoe.
even if i want that.. i dun think i can do it..
it hurts even more.. but i'm still doing it now.
whats wrong with me..
i dunnoe.. i really dunnoe.
i'm restless now.
nobody can help me now..
all i need is time.
just give me some time..
i need time to think about it.
so just leave me alone for the time being.
='(

2007-05-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

as i've promised.
i'll blog about the friend test thingy.
if you've yet to do the test. i'm sorry to say that it's too LATE.
hahas.

alrights.
here are the FULL results.

#1
Name: adonis toh
Score: 80

#2
Name: aloy lin
Score: 60

#3
Name: jinghang tan
Score: 50

#4
Name: Elysia Lee
Score: 50

#5
Name: kaixin kaixin
Score: 50

#6
Name: Issac Yuen
Score: 50

#7
Name: isabelle kang
Score: 50

#8
Name: shichie csc
Score: 40

#9
Name: Jacqlin Ong
Score: 40

#10
Name: sabrina teo
Score: 40

#11
Name: qiong hui
Score: 40

#12
Name: j yOngzhen
Score: 40

#13
Name: see yao
Score: 40

#14
Name: friend friend
Score: 30

#15
Name: ChaiBeng XD
Score: 30

#16
Name: yS lee
Score: 30

#17
Name: yingshi mak
Score: 30

#18
Name: xuanwen chieng
Score: 30

#19
Name: Syahril Muhammad
Score: 30

#20
Name: justin ang
Score: 30

#21
Name: Melissa yiew
Score: 30

#22
Name: adeline tan
Score: 20

#23
Name: Loo KinXing
Score: 20

#24
Name: leong cheesheng
Score: 10

#25
Name: dominic heng
Score: 0

altogether 25 people took my test.
=)
it's quite surprising that adonis toh actually got first.
hahas.
ok lah. shall not use the word 'surprising'.
if not he will say i treat him not good again.
hahas.
he was actually so scared that he will fail the test initially.
so i said 'there's so many ppl fail le. no need to be scared de lah.'
so he did the test.
and BOOM!

80!

hahas.
really shocking lah.
someone can actually answered 8/10 questions correctly just plainly by guessing?
HAHA.
he was shocked too.
kept omg-ing.
hahas.

wells. i thought nobody would take over aloysius lin's position.
hahas.
but i guess he's the only one who did not really guess for most of the questions.
he claimed that 'i told him before'
but i forgot le. hahas.
actually he could have scored higher.
but i think he study too much and some of them he actually knew but he got it wrong.
hahas.

THIRD.
there's 5 people.
well done. hahas.

jinghang. elysia. kaixin. issac. isabelle kang.
=)

FOURTH.
the 'fourties'.
hahas.
there's six of them.

shichie. jacqlin. sabrina. qionghui. yongzhen. diyao.
=)

quite surprised.
shichie actually got 40. hahas.
its like a long time ago since i last saw him in OPSS.
hahas.

as for diyao.
its quite easy for him.
i just sit beside him in the examination hall.
he should know perfectly well what pen i used.
and i think he's also the only one who know i lost a blue pen. =)
cos i borrowed a blue pen from him. hahas.
but he's pen no ink also de.
-.-

alrights.
the THIRTIES.

friend friend. chaibeng. yongsiang. yingshi. xuanwen. syahril. justin. melissa.

i dunnoe who is the 'friend friend'. so dun ask me. hahas.
the YS-es both got 30. hahas.
hmms. 30..
quite disappointing leh.
hahas.

the TWENTIES.

adeline. kinxing.

hmms. i scored 80 for adeline's previous test.
hahahs.
SO SAD. why she only got 20 eh?
anyway. its not a test really abt ME.
hahas.
hmms. kinxing.. not a bad try. =)

the only one who scored TEN.

CHEESHENG.

welldone!
i told you before! it will be a HIGH standard one. hahas!
i thought he would be the LAST.
but yesterday!
someone dunnoe why went to take my test and score a ZERO.

he's none other than DOMINIC!
my counsellor seh.
HAHAS.
but its ALRIGHT~
hahas.

quite surprised that some of you can actually answered some of the questions correctly.
okayokay.
here are the answers!

1st question: motorola.
-most of you got it right. hahas.
those who got it wrong.. esp. the ONE who every time take my handphone and see see.
do some self-reflection!
hahas! x)

2nd question: band.
-i actually wanted to join that cca when i'm in sec one.
hahas. but becos of the number of practices every week..
eeyer. dun wan le.
so busy. haha!
so i joined CHOIR. and i dun regret choosing it. =)

3rd question: hello kitty.
-my table lamp is HELLO KITTY de.
i brought it like years ago~
hahas.
okay. i know this is a very lame question. hahas.
so if you dunnoe..
you're forgiven. =)

4th question: a blue pen.
-yupps. i lost a blue pen.
and is the BRAND NEW ONE i bought a few days ago before MYE. =((

5th question: blue ink pen.
-i use a blue ink pen for writing on examination scripts. =)

6th question: 221.
-my PSLE score is 221. not 225 or 220 or 219. =)

7th question: 2nd.
-Orchid Park Sec Sch is my 2nd choice.
i'm wondering why so many ppl put 1st and 3rd. hahas.

8th question: brown.
-my slipper is BROWN.
those ppl who go out with me before but still got it wrong.. HAIZ. i got nth to say. hahas.

9th question: social studies and chemistry paper.
-i'm worried the most for these subjects. hahas.
i keep forgetting everything i've memorized for social studies that's why i'm worried.
i've been doing badly for chemistry paper since last year that's why i'm worried.
hahas.

10th question: home economics.
-i love the THEORY. not the practical. hahas.
i hate practicals. home econs, D&T, chemistry, physics.. i hate all practicals. hahas.
i'm quite surprised that most of you can actually guess that my fav. subject used to be that. hahas.

yays! CLAPS for everyone!
hahas.
i've been slacking this whole weekend.
i wanted to finish up my comprehensions de. =((
this week will be a torture for me.
fancy taking mock exam papers for one whole week.
haiz.
my brain cells will commit suicide before they die off. hahas.

met up with kang~ today.
hahas.
SHIMEI!
i not choosy okay! you also dun wan to help me choose. hahas.

i'm sorry for the long post!
i know i'm naggy. hahas.
just let it be a long one..

for the last time.

alrights.
bye peeps.

goodbye and takecare.
treasure what you all have now.
and remember to SMILE! =D
thanks for reading this post.
all of you are THANK-ED. =)

nites.

just wanna say.. thanks for everything you've done. (:

2007-05-19T18:16:00.000-07:00

路,肩并肩走着,
折磨,在空气中渐渐蔓延
抬头看见你也渗透了
好久不见,我深切的问候
放手,会不会解脱
成全,会不会是一条出路
为难,是谁介入了谁呢?
先来后到的顺序有没有

我让你不再左右为难了
就当作从来就没有认识过
不再让你左右为难了
只要你和她很快乐
我没关系,这是爱你的决定

放手,会不会解脱
离开你,会不会是一条出路
为难,是谁介入了谁呢?
先来后到的顺序有没

我让你不再左右为难了
就当作从来就没有认识过
不再让你左右为难了
只要你和他很快乐,我没关系
不想在听你找的借口
好吧,从今之后不要再联络

不再让你左右为难了
当作从来就没有认识过我
你和她别再那么左右为难了
只要你和她很快乐
我没关系

这是爱你的决定

2007-05-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

it's late now. the third post for today. hahas.

just wanna thanks DOMINIC for his counselling just now.
i felt better.
yeahs. he's right.
i shouldn't be sad over it.
instead, i should ____________.
thanks for the advice!
you said so much and i only listen to the last part you say.
which is the 'jump jump thingy'.
you're right. i should do that as it will make myself happy also.
hahas. of cos i will not say the jump jump thingy!
i will say something else.
thanks for 'waking me up'!
=)

you're indeed ---- =)
HAHAS.

although you might say the same thing again.
although i might not be able to succeed in making you happy.
but at least i tried my best.
(:

nites peeps.

2007-05-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

P.S. Happy belated birthday to Cherilyn (17/o5)
Happy Birthday to Zhangshou & YewZhen (19/o5) [thanks for the cake =)]

today.
i didn't get the answer i want.
but at least i felt better after what mr justin goh said.
i brought tissue papers for nothing.
hahas.

i remembered he once said that he kept the promise he made to the sch.
he stayed and did not leave us.
so whats going on now..
the sch didn't want him anymore.
ok.
i mean..
the school think that its BETTER to change conductor.
and claimed that it wasn't becos of the bronze we got.
wells. i doubt it.
it might not be the main reason but i guess its partly becos of that.

suan les.
just hope that the new one will be a good one.

[sorry if i sounded bu shuang. hahas. i'm alrights now. sorry.]

2007-05-18T22:33:00.000-07:00

alrights.
no mood to blog today.

anyway. i got something to say..
i really dun wanna do the announcement anymore.
=(
although ms soo didn't say anything le.
but i'm still kind of scared.
every time i will get so worried whenever i think of it.
and after saying the announcement.
i will receive bad comments from friends.
i'm like having so much stress everyday.
i dunnoe why.
although bad comments can help me improve.
haiz.
maybe i'm not stress over the comments.
even there's good comments and no bad comments.
i will still get so stressed up over it..
although its just 'saying the annoucement'.
haiz.
standing infront of the whole school and say something isn't a fun thing.
=(
nvm. ONE MORE WEEK TO GO and i shall not care anything abt council le.
JIAYOUS! =))

the new choir committee members are out.

President : Jiahao
Vice President : Isabel Tee

Section leaders-------------
Soprano : Xinru
Ass. : Amanda Yeong
Alto : Sarah
Ass. : Peiwen
Baritone : Jiahao
Ass. : Alvin

Admin-------------
Secretary : Elysia
TREASURER : Isabelle Kang
Logistics : Cheesheng/Firdaus
Publicity : Zalikha/Hedassa
Welfare : Cheegyin & Sharon (junior)

Co-ordinators--------------
Sec one : Daven
Sec two : Weiting (not confirmed)
Sec three : Waishuan

[copied from choir de blog. =)]

alrights.
i've turned over a new leaf.
no longer loan shark anymore.
hahas.
actually treasurer not loan shark loh.
dunnoe who give de bad name. =(

anyway. kang~ is the new treasurer.
i got so HIGH when i saw her name in the list.
hahas.
at least the new one is someone close to me. =)
when i knew that she is the new treasurer.
i told jinghang "she give the money to adonis how?"
hahas!
actually i thought it would be chee gyin.
hahas. but still same lah. both also from guitar ensemble de.
HAHA.
i believe kang will do a good job.
=)
cos she's a faithful dog.
hahas!
mr justin goh said that she was faithful to choir.
cos she nv go eat pizza with the guitar ppl.
then faithful makes me think of dog.
then it reminds me of something.
ytd isabelle said that she's a dog. (YOU SAID THAT)
hahas.
then i was like. "LOLS. faithful dog!"
whole choir heard sia.
lols!
then after that dunnoe say until what i treat kang eat pizza.
hahas.

haiz.
dunnoe what to say le.
nth much happen in class today.
not in a happy mood.
but felt better after recess.
hahas.
although didn't manage to get 1 more mark from mr goh.
LOL!
not i want to pester him de loh.
is really mark wrong.
the teacher dunnoe why mark me wrong.
so i go and ask mr goh.
actually can get 1 more mark de..
but he say i A1 le. so dun wan add 1 more mark for me.
=.= what reason is that?
then dunnoe why say till zhi hao.
say dunnoe what i suan him.. cos he fail his amaths and he's asking for marks.
then i purposely want mr goh add marks for me infront of him.
-.-
but nvm lah. better than yuanlin.
minus 3 marks.. xin tong leh. hahas.

kkz. dun feel like blogging le. haiz.
bye ppl. =)

haiz.